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&,,&,&,&&,                  ,,%@%,,                 ,&&&&&,,,&
&,&&&&&,&,             ,,/$@@####@@$/,,             &,,,,&,,&,
&&,,,,&&&&         ,,,,,~$@ dreams @$~,,,,,         &,,,&&,&&&
,&,,,&,,,&             ,,/$@@####@@$/,,             &,,&,&&,,,
&&,,&&,,&,                 ,,%@%,,                  &,&&&,&,,,
,&,&,&,&&,                                          &&,,&&&,,&
&&&&&&&,&,                   ,,,                    ,&,&,,&,&&
,,,,,,&&&,                ,%&@#@&%,                 &&&&,&&&,,
,,,,,&,,&,                   ,,,                    ,,,&&,,&,,
,,,,&&,&&,                                          ,,&,&,&&,,
,,,&,&&,&,         internal visionary state         ,&&&&&,&,,
,,&&&,&&&&                                          &,,,,&&&,,
,&,,&&,,,,            the spirit travels            &,,,&,,&,,
&&,&,&,,,&                                          &,,&&,&&,,
,&&&&&,,&,             ,,/$@@####@@$/,,             &,&,&&,&,&
&,,,,&,&&,                   ,~,                    &&&&,&&&&&
&,,,&&&,&,                                          ,,,&&,,,,,
&,,&,,&&&,                  a cost                  ,,&,&,,,,&
&,&&,&,,&&                (anecdote)                ,&&&&,,,&,
&&,&&&,&,,                                          &,,,&,,&&&
,&&,,&&&,&                    ,,                    &,,&&,&,,,
&,&,&,,&&&                                          &,&,&&&,,,
&&&&&,&,,, i  wake  suddenly,  and   for  a  second &&&&,,&,,&
,,,,&&&,,, everything  is completely calm  and dead ,,,&,&&,&,
,,,&,,&,,& silent.  it's  dark,  and  warm,  and  i ,,&&&,&&&,
,,&&,&&,&, slowly  start   to  piece   together  my ,&,,&&,,&,
,&,&&,&&&,        consciousness and my body.        &&,&,&,&&,
&&&,&&,,&&                                          ,&&&&&&,&,
,,&&,&,&,& then  the  fear  hits   me  and  i  feel &,,,,,&&&&
,&,&&&&&&&    acutely sick. something is ~wrong~.   &,,,,&,,,&
&&&,,,,,,&                                          &,,,&&,,&&
,,&,,,,,&,                    ,,                    &,,&,&,&,,
,&&,,,,&&,                                          &,&&&&&&,,
&,&,,,&,&& there are circles and  crosses inscribed &&,,,,,&,,
&&&,,&&&,, all  over my vision, pressing  in, being ,&,,,,&&,&
,,&,&,,&,, almost hostile. i can feel  them squirm, &&,,,&,&&,
,&&&&,&&,&    their internal logic changing and     ,&,,&&&,&,
&,,,&&,&&, grinding trenches  in my mind. it's like &&,&,,&&&,
&,,&,&&,&& language, sentences  i can't  hide from, ,&&&,&,,&&
&,&&&,&&,& forcefully  transcribed in  my mind, and &,,&&&,&,,
&&,,&&,&&,            doing damage there.           &,&,,&&&,&
,&,&,&&,&,                                          &&&,&,,&&,
&&&&&,&&&, then  i realize  i can't  hear  anything ,,&&&,&,&,
,,,,&&,,&,     because there's something there      ,&,,&&&&&&
,,,&,&,&&,    already, droning everything out, a    &&,&,,,,,&
,,&&&&&,&, rapid  melody,  almost  caustic in  it's ,&&&,,,,&&
,&,,,,&&&,         particular microtonality.        &,,&,,,&,&
&&,,,&,,&&                                          &,&&,,&&&&
,&,,&&,&,&                    ,,                    &&,&,&,,,,
&&,&,&&&&,                                          ,&&&&&,,,,
,&&&&,,,&& my surroundings are entirely  calm. it's &,,,,&,,,&
&,,,&,,&,,              almost mocking.             &,,,&&,,&&
&,,&&,&&,,                                          &,,&,&,&,,
&,&,&&,&,, i  feel  helpless,  but  i  must  try to &,&&&&&&,&
&&&&,&&&,& escape. to crawl  on the floor searching &&,,,,,&&,
,,,&&,,&&, relief, such  is  my nature. turning the ,&,,,,&,&&
,,&,&,&,&&    lights on does nothing... getting     &&,,,&&&,&
,&&&&&&&,,  outside does nothing... drinking water  ,&,,&,,&&&
&,,,,,,&,& does  noting...  but  time does  - after &&,&&,&,,&
&,,,,,&&&&     thirty seconds i'm normal again,     ,&&,&&&,&,
&,,,,&,,,& doubting anything of  this  happened  in &,&&,,&&&&
&,,,&&,,&,             the first place.             &&,&,&,,,,
&,,&,&,&&,                                          ,&&&&&,,,&
&,&&&&&,&, my eyes are still tense though,  scared. &,,,,&,,&,
&&,,,,&&&& i    don't    know    what    to   make. &,,,&&,&&&
,&,,,&,,,&                                          &,,&,&&,,,
&&,,&&,,&,              but i'm tired.              &,&&&,&,,,
,&,&,&,&&,                                          &&,,&&&,,&
&&&&&&&,&,                    ,                     ,&,&,,&,&&
,,,,,,&&&,                  ,,~/~,,                 &&&&,&&&,,
,,,,,&,,&,                     ,                    ,,,&&,,&,,
,,,,&&,&&,                                          ,,&,&,&&,,
,,,&,&&,&, this can  happen if  you wander too far, ,&&&&&,&,,
,,&&&,&&&& i  guess? i  shouldn't  be  so  reckless &,,,,&&&,,
,&,,&&,,,,              when dreaming?              &,,,&,,&,,
&&,&,&,,,& i  imagine  a prick on the  nose, that's &,,&&,&&,,
,&&&&&,,&, what these  are. like you do with a  cat &,&,&&,&,&
&,,,,&,&&, who comes to  close  to your sandwich... &&&&,&&&&&
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