Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was    Thinking   To   Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In  The Winter  Because I 
 Do  Not  Know How Useful They Have  Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them,  The Last Few  Times At Least, And 
 There  Are Plenty Of Side Effects That I 
 Really  Do Not  Like,  And There Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With   Random   Things  That  I 
 Happen  To  See...  For  Example,  For A 
 Long  Time I  Could  Not  See  A Certain 
 Kind Of  Leaf  Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I Should Avoid To  Ruin All  The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased Or  At  Least  The Burn-Ins In 
 The  Eyes,   And  Sometimes   Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not   Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just  Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M  Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes To  Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What A  Load Of ConceptS This  "Reality" 
 Consists  Of, And  How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It  Will No Longer Be Dark When I 
 Close   My  Eyes,  Not   Actually  Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just FieldS  And Motion. 
 Now  And Then I  Hear This Sound (A Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It Is  Always Unpleasant, I  Become 
 So Stressful,  But I Think  It Has To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.