Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was   Thinking   To    Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens In The  Winter  Because  I 
 Do Not Know  How Useful They  Have  Been 
 Anyway?  I Get  So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them, The Last Few  Times At Least,  And 
 There Are Plenty  Of Side Effects That I 
 Really Do Not  Like,  And There Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With  Random  Things  That   I 
 Happen  To See...  For  Example,  For  A 
 Long Time  I Could  Not  See  A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without  Getting Anxious 
 ... And I Should  Avoid To Ruin  All The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased  Or At  Least The Burn-Ins  In 
 The   Eyes,  And   Sometimes   Stuff  Is 
 Breathing   Now,  They  Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I  Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe  I'M Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes That  Shit, 
 What  A Load Of ConceptS This  "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be Dark  When I 
 Close  My   Eyes,   Not  Actually  Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just FieldS And  Motion. 
 Now And  Then I Hear This  Sound (A Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It  Is  Always Unpleasant, I Become 
 So Stressful, But  I  Think It Has To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.