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&¨¨&&¨¨&¨¨ EH &&&&¨¨&&¨¨
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&&&&&&&&&& I WAS THINKING TO STOP DOING ¨¨&&¨¨&&&&
&&&&&&&&&& HALLUCINOGENS IN THE WINTER BECAUSE I ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨&&&
&&&&&&&&&& DO NOT KNOW HOW USEFUL THEY HAVE BEEN &&&&&&¨¨&&
&&&&&&&&&¨ ANYWAY? I GET SO TENSE WHEN I TAKE ¨&&&&¨¨¨¨&
&&&&&&&&¨¨ THEM, THE LAST FEW TIMES AT LEAST, AND ¨¨&&¨¨&&¨¨
¨&&&&&&¨¨& THERE ARE PLENTY OF SIDE EFFECTS THAT I &¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨
¨¨&&&&¨¨¨¨ REALLY DO NOT LIKE, AND THERE WILL BE ¨¨&&&&&&&&
¨¨¨&&¨¨&&¨ ASSOCIATIONS WITH THESE MINI-ANXIETY &¨¨&&&&&&¨
&&¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨ ATTACKS WITH RANDOM THINGS THAT I ¨¨¨¨&&&&¨¨
¨¨¨&&&&&&& HAPPEN TO SEE... FOR EXAMPLE, FOR A ¨&&¨¨&&¨¨¨
&&¨¨&&&&&& LONG TIME I COULD NOT SEE A CERTAIN ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨&&
&¨¨¨¨&&&&& KIND OF LEAF WITHOUT GETTING ANXIOUS ¨&&&&&&¨¨&
¨¨&&¨¨&&&& ... AND I SHOULD AVOID TO RUIN ALL THE ¨¨&&&&¨¨¨¨
&¨¨¨¨¨¨&&¨ SEASONS THIS WAY. &¨¨&&¨¨&&&
¨¨&&&&¨¨¨¨ ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨&&
¨¨¨&&¨¨&&¨ ~ &&&&&&&¨¨¨
&&¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨ &&&&&&¨¨&&
&¨¨&&&&&&& HMM, RECENTLY MY VISUAL PHENOMENA &&&&&¨¨¨¨&
¨¨¨¨&&&&&& INCREASED OR AT LEAST THE BURN-INS IN &&&&¨¨&&¨¨
&&&¨¨&&&&& THE EYES, AND SOMETIMES STUFF IS &&&¨¨¨¨¨¨&
&&¨¨¨¨&&&& BREATHING NOW, THEY DID NOT DO IT &&¨¨&&&&¨¨
¨¨¨&&¨¨&&¨ BEFORE. BUT MAYBE I JUST DRANK TOO MUCH &¨¨¨¨&&¨¨¨
&&¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨ COFFEE. MAYBE I'M SCARED AND MAKING ALL ¨¨&&¨¨¨¨&&
&¨¨&&&&&&& THESE THINGS UP. ¨¨¨¨¨&&¨¨&
¨¨¨¨&&&&&& &&&&¨¨¨¨¨¨
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&¨¨&&¨¨¨¨¨ IT COMES TO ME SOMETIMES THAT SHIT, &¨¨&&¨¨&&&
¨¨¨¨¨¨&&&& WHAT A LOAD OF CONCEPTS THIS "REALITY" ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨&&
¨&&&&¨¨&&& CONSISTS OF, AND HOW VAGUE THEY ARE ¨&&&&&&¨¨¨
¨¨&&¨¨¨¨&& ¨¨&&&&¨¨&&
¨¨¨¨¨&&¨¨& ~ &¨¨&&¨¨¨¨¨
&&&&¨¨¨¨¨¨ ¨¨¨¨¨¨&&&&
&&&¨¨&&&&& IF I DO NOT SLEEP FOR ABOUT TWENTY &&&&&¨¨&&&
&&¨¨¨¨&&&& HOURS, IT WILL NO LONGER BE DARK WHEN I &&&&¨¨¨¨&&
&¨¨&&¨¨&&¨ CLOSE MY EYES, NOT ACTUALLY CEV'S ¨&&¨¨&&¨¨&
¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨ THOUGH, RATHER JUST FIELDS AND MOTION. ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨
&&&&&&&&&& NOW AND THEN I HEAR THIS SOUND (A REAL &&&&&&&&&&
&&&&&&&&&& SOUND (I THINK)), RESEMBLING SOME &&&&&&&&&&
&&&&&&&&&& "KNERP" FROM TWENTYFIVE C NBOME OR SO. &&&&&&&&&&
&&&&&&&&&& AND IT IS ALWAYS UNPLEASANT, I BECOME &&&&&&&&&&
&&&&&&&&&& SO STRESSFUL, BUT I THINK IT HAS TO DO &&&&&&&&&&
&&&&&&&&&& WITH THE NOVELTY. I HOPE. &&&&&&&&&&
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