Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was   Thinking    To   Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens In  The Winter  Because  I 
 Do  Not Know  How  Useful They Have Been 
 Anyway?  I Get  So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them, The Last  Few  Times At Least, And 
 There Are Plenty Of  Side Effects That I 
 Really Do Not  Like,  And There  Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With   Random  Things  That   I 
 Happen  To See...  For  Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time  I  Could  Not See  A Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without Getting  Anxious 
 ... And  I Should Avoid To Ruin All  The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased Or At  Least  The Burn-Ins  In 
 The   Eyes,  And  Sometimes   Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,   They  Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But  Maybe I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee.  Maybe I'M Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes That  Shit, 
 What A Load Of  ConceptS This  "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer  Be Dark When I 
 Close   My   Eyes,  Not  Actually  Cev'S 
 Though, Rather Just  FieldS  And Motion. 
 Now  And  Then I Hear This Sound (A Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It  Is  Always Unpleasant,  I Become 
 So Stressful, But I Think It  Has To  Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.