Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was   Thinking   To    Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens In  The  Winter Because  I 
 Do  Not Know  How Useful  They Have Been 
 Anyway?  I Get  So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them,  The Last Few Times  At Least, And 
 There Are  Plenty Of Side Effects That I 
 Really Do  Not Like, And  There  Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With  Random  Things   That   I 
 Happen To  See...  For  Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time I  Could  Not  See A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I Should  Avoid To Ruin  All The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased  Or  At Least The  Burn-Ins In 
 The   Eyes,  And   Sometimes  Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They   Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe  I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe  I'M Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It Comes  To  Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What A Load  Of ConceptS  This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I Do  Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No  Longer Be Dark When I 
 Close  My   Eyes,  Not  Actually   Cev'S 
 Though, Rather Just FieldS  And  Motion. 
 Now  And  Then I Hear This Sound (A Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It  Is Always Unpleasant,  I Become 
 So Stressful, But I  Think  It Has To Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.