Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was   Thinking    To   Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In  The Winter Because  I 
 Do Not  Know  How Useful They Have  Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them, The Last Few  Times At Least,  And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side Effects That  I 
 Really  Do Not Like,  And There Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With  Random  Things   That   I 
 Happen  To  See... For  Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time  I Could  Not  See  A Certain 
 Kind Of  Leaf  Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ...  And I Should Avoid To Ruin All  The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased Or  At Least  The  Burn-Ins In 
 The  Eyes,   And  Sometimes   Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They   Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before.  But Maybe I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared And  Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes That  Shit, 
 What A  Load Of ConceptS This  "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I Do  Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be  Dark When I 
 Close   My  Eyes,  Not  Actually   Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather  Just FieldS And Motion. 
 Now And  Then  I Hear This Sound (A Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It Is  Always  Unpleasant, I  Become 
 So Stressful, But I  Think It  Has To Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.