EH                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   WAS    THINKING    TO   STOP   DOING 
 HALLUCINOGENS  IN  THE WINTER BECAUSE  I 
 DO NOT KNOW HOW  USEFUL  THEY HAVE  BEEN 
 ANYWAY?  I  GET SO  TENSE  WHEN  I  TAKE 
 THEM, THE  LAST  FEW TIMES AT LEAST, AND 
 THERE ARE PLENTY OF  SIDE EFFECTS THAT I 
 REALLY DO NOT  LIKE, AND  THERE  WILL BE 
   ASSOCIATIONS WITH THESE MINI-ANXIETY   
 ATTACKS   WITH  RANDOM  THINGS   THAT  I 
 HAPPEN  TO  SEE...  FOR EXAMPLE,  FOR  A 
 LONG  TIME  I COULD  NOT  SEE  A CERTAIN 
 KIND  OF  LEAF WITHOUT  GETTING  ANXIOUS 
 ...  AND I SHOULD  AVOID TO RUIN ALL THE 
             SEASONS THIS WAY.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
     HMM, RECENTLY MY VISUAL PHENOMENA    
 INCREASED OR AT LEAST  THE  BURN-INS  IN 
 THE   EYES,   AND  SOMETIMES  STUFF   IS 
 BREATHING  NOW,   THEY  DID  NOT  DO  IT 
 BEFORE. BUT MAYBE I JUST DRANK  TOO MUCH 
 COFFEE. MAYBE  I'M SCARED AND MAKING ALL 
             THESE THINGS UP.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IT  COMES TO  ME  SOMETIMES  THAT  SHIT, 
 WHAT A LOAD OF  CONCEPTS THIS  "REALITY" 
 CONSISTS  OF,  AND  HOW VAGUE  THEY  ARE 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IF  I  DO  NOT  SLEEP  FOR  ABOUT TWENTY 
 HOURS, IT WILL NO LONGER  BE DARK WHEN I 
 CLOSE  MY  EYES,  NOT   ACTUALLY   CEV'S 
 THOUGH,  RATHER  JUST FIELDS AND MOTION. 
 NOW  AND THEN I  HEAR THIS SOUND (A REAL 
     SOUND (I THINK)), RESEMBLING SOME    
  "KNERP" FROM TWENTYFIVE C NBOME OR SO.  
 AND IT  IS ALWAYS  UNPLEASANT, I  BECOME 
 SO  STRESSFUL, BUT I THINK IT HAS TO  DO 
         WITH THE NOVELTY. I HOPE.