Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was   Thinking   To   Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In The  Winter Because  I 
 Do  Not  Know How Useful They Have  Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense When  I  Take 
 Them, The Last Few  Times  At Least, And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side Effects That  I 
 Really  Do Not  Like, And  There Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With  Random   Things  That  I 
 Happen  To  See...  For  Example,  For A 
 Long Time  I  Could Not  See  A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I Should  Avoid  To Ruin All The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased  Or At Least The  Burn-Ins  In 
 The   Eyes,  And  Sometimes   Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,   They  Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just Drank Too  Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared And  Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes That  Shit, 
 What  A  Load Of ConceptS This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of, And  How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not  Sleep For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be Dark  When I 
 Close  My  Eyes,   Not  Actually   Cev'S 
 Though, Rather Just FieldS  And  Motion. 
 Now And  Then I Hear This  Sound (A Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It  Is Always  Unpleasant, I  Become 
 So Stressful, But  I Think It Has  To Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.