EH                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   WAS    THINKING   TO    STOP   DOING 
 HALLUCINOGENS  IN THE  WINTER  BECAUSE I 
 DO  NOT  KNOW HOW USEFUL  THEY HAVE BEEN 
 ANYWAY?  I  GET  SO  TENSE  WHEN I  TAKE 
 THEM,  THE LAST FEW TIMES AT  LEAST, AND 
 THERE ARE PLENTY OF SIDE EFFECTS THAT  I 
 REALLY DO  NOT  LIKE, AND THERE WILL  BE 
   ASSOCIATIONS WITH THESE MINI-ANXIETY   
 ATTACKS  WITH   RANDOM  THINGS  THAT   I 
 HAPPEN  TO  SEE...  FOR  EXAMPLE, FOR  A 
 LONG  TIME I  COULD  NOT  SEE A  CERTAIN 
 KIND OF  LEAF  WITHOUT  GETTING  ANXIOUS 
 ... AND I SHOULD AVOID  TO RUIN ALL  THE 
             SEASONS THIS WAY.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
     HMM, RECENTLY MY VISUAL PHENOMENA    
 INCREASED OR AT  LEAST  THE  BURN-INS IN 
 THE  EYES,   AND   SOMETIMES  STUFF   IS 
 BREATHING  NOW,  THEY  DID   NOT  DO  IT 
 BEFORE. BUT MAYBE I JUST DRANK TOO  MUCH 
 COFFEE. MAYBE I'M SCARED  AND MAKING ALL 
             THESE THINGS UP.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IT  COMES  TO  ME  SOMETIMES THAT  SHIT, 
 WHAT  A LOAD OF CONCEPTS THIS  "REALITY" 
 CONSISTS  OF,  AND  HOW VAGUE  THEY  ARE 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IF  I  DO  NOT  SLEEP  FOR ABOUT  TWENTY 
 HOURS, IT WILL NO LONGER BE  DARK WHEN I 
 CLOSE  MY  EYES,  NOT   ACTUALLY   CEV'S 
 THOUGH,  RATHER JUST FIELDS  AND MOTION. 
 NOW AND THEN I HEAR THIS SOUND  (A  REAL 
     SOUND (I THINK)), RESEMBLING SOME    
  "KNERP" FROM TWENTYFIVE C NBOME OR SO.  
 AND IT  IS  ALWAYS UNPLEASANT,  I BECOME 
 SO STRESSFUL,  BUT I THINK IT HAS  TO DO 
         WITH THE NOVELTY. I HOPE.