EH                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    WAS    THINKING   TO   STOP   DOING 
 HALLUCINOGENS  IN  THE  WINTER BECAUSE I 
 DO NOT KNOW  HOW USEFUL  THEY HAVE  BEEN 
 ANYWAY? I  GET  SO  TENSE  WHEN  I  TAKE 
 THEM, THE LAST FEW  TIMES  AT LEAST, AND 
 THERE ARE PLENTY OF SIDE EFFECTS THAT  I 
 REALLY DO NOT LIKE,  AND THERE  WILL  BE 
   ASSOCIATIONS WITH THESE MINI-ANXIETY   
 ATTACKS   WITH   RANDOM  THINGS  THAT  I 
 HAPPEN  TO  SEE...  FOR  EXAMPLE, FOR  A 
 LONG  TIME  I COULD  NOT  SEE  A CERTAIN 
 KIND  OF  LEAF  WITHOUT  GETTING ANXIOUS 
 ... AND I  SHOULD AVOID  TO RUIN ALL THE 
             SEASONS THIS WAY.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
    HMM, RECENTLY MY VISUAL PHENOMENA     
 INCREASED  OR AT LEAST  THE BURN-INS  IN 
 THE   EYES,  AND   SOMETIMES  STUFF   IS 
 BREATHING   NOW,  THEY  DID  NOT  DO  IT 
 BEFORE. BUT  MAYBE I JUST DRANK TOO MUCH 
 COFFEE. MAYBE I'M  SCARED AND MAKING ALL 
             THESE THINGS UP.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IT  COMES  TO ME  SOMETIMES  THAT  SHIT, 
 WHAT A LOAD  OF CONCEPTS  THIS "REALITY" 
 CONSISTS  OF,  AND  HOW  VAGUE THEY  ARE 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IF  I  DO  NOT SLEEP  FOR  ABOUT  TWENTY 
 HOURS, IT WILL NO LONGER BE DARK  WHEN I 
 CLOSE  MY  EYES,   NOT  ACTUALLY   CEV'S 
 THOUGH, RATHER JUST  FIELDS  AND MOTION. 
 NOW AND THEN I HEAR THIS  SOUND (A  REAL 
     SOUND (I THINK)), RESEMBLING SOME    
  "KNERP" FROM TWENTYFIVE C NBOME OR SO.  
 AND  IT IS  ALWAYS UNPLEASANT, I  BECOME 
 SO STRESSFUL,  BUT  I THINK IT HAS TO DO 
         WITH THE NOVELTY. I HOPE.