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,,,,,,,,,, now, usually  i  feel good (maybe?), but ,,,,,,,,,,
&&&&&&&&&& this time of  confusion  also  leads  to &&&&&&&&&&
&&&&&&&&&, all analyzes  ending  in  "useless" -  i &&&&&&&&&&
&&&&&&&&,, was being  bothered  by something  in  a ,&&&&&&&&&
&&&&&&&,,, song or movie or book, so  i think,  how ,,&&&&&&&&
&&&&&&,,&& would  i  have  done  it,  what  is  the &,,&&&&&&&
&&&&&,,,,& purpose  of  this process, what does  it ,,,,&&&&&&
&&&&,,&&,, consist of...? and  through the  process ,&&,,&&&&&
&&&,,,,,,, more  and more pieces  falls  off  until ,,,,,,&&&&
&&,,&&&&&&     i'm standing there with nothing.     &&&&&,,&&&
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,,&&,,&&,, reductionist hell -                      ,&&,,&&,,&
,,,,,,,,,, i wan't a bottom floor, a concept        ,,,,,,,,,,
&&&&&&&&&& bedrock, but the deeper i go the more    ,&&&&&&&&&
&&&&&&&&&& abstract they are, the things, until     ,,&&&&&&&&
&&&&&&&&&& they cease to be things at all           ,,,&&&&&&&
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&&&&&&&&,, are we just stacked triangles? there is  &,,,,&&&&&
&&&&&&&,,& nothing i can do with triangles. they    ,,&&,,&&&&
&&&&&&,,,, can not shelter me in any meaningful     ,,,,,,,&&&
&&&&&,,&&, sense.                                   &&&&&&,,&&
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&&&,,&&&&& and when i can't even anchor myself,     &&&&,,&&,,
,&,,,,&&&& when i am nothing but the question, it   &&&,,,,,,,
,,,&&,,&&, feels like it can all slip through my    &&,,&&&&&&
,&,,,,,,,, fingers... "whoops", and nothing ever    ,,,,,&&&&,
,,,&&&&&&, was after that.                          &&&&,,&&,,
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