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..,~:†&&##         † mirage class goth gf †         ##&&†:~,..
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.....,~:†&  i used to be a goth, in my youth, doing &†:~,.....
......,~:†  crimes mostly from or in my beloved and †:~,......
.......,~:  trusted car, and sometimes my mothers   :~,.......
........,~   barn. we lived just outside town, a    ~,........
.......,~:   grove at the end of a dirt road, and   :~,.......
......,~:†  the barn was placed so you could just   †:~,......
.....,~:†& make out the surrounding fields through  &†:~,.....
....,~:†&&                the trees.                &&†:~,....
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..,~:†&&##    my car was black and loud, both the   ##&&†:~,..
.,~:†&&###    engine and the way the parts didn't   ###&&†:~,.
..,~:†&&##     really stick together. i took my     ##&&†:~,..
...,~:†&&#  crimefriend for rides, in the dark, the #&&†:~,...
....,~:†&&   eternal dark that seemed to surround   &&†:~,....
.....,~:†&  us. she seemed to cast this veil over   &†:~,.....
......,~:†  everything. her black skirt reached to  †:~,......
.......,~:   her knees but then somehow also back   :~,.......
........,~   around, enveloping all my memories of  ~,........
.......,~:            our time together.            :~,.......
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.....,~:†&  there was blood everywhere. sometimes   &†:~,.....
....,~:†&&   the blood was her red lipstick or her  &&†:~,....
...,~:†&&# checkered shirt. she was on television.  #&&†:~,...
..,~:†&&##     we did crime, and we made weird      ##&&†:~,..
.,~:†&&###  structures in the barn, tall pillars of ###&&†:~,.
..,~:†&&##  dark wood, ladders and plateaus, fires  ##&&†:~,..
...,~:†&&#  and fairy lights. we would sleep there  #&&†:~,...
....,~:†&& and drink there and she would go in the  &&†:~,....
.....,~:†&                television.               &†:~,.....
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.......,~:  and then the sun came out, and she went :~,.......
........,~  away. everything changed... i yearned,  ~,........
.......,~:   and the world became dull around me.   :~,.......
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.....,~:†&    i stopped doing crime, except when    &†:~,.....
....,~:†&&  necessarry. things somehow seemed like  &&†:~,....
...,~:†&&#  they were allright, moulded in place,   #&&†:~,...
..,~:†&&##   and i loathed it ------ i missed her   ##&&†:~,..
.,~:†&&###                 so much.                 ###&&†:~,.
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.......,~:  i searched for her, but nobody had any  :~,.......
........,~    memories of her. not so much of me    ~,........
.......,~:  either, from the time we were together. :~,.......
......,~:†  my mother said i kept to myself in the  †:~,......
.....,~:†&           barn, or in the car.           &†:~,.....
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...,~:†&&#     sometimes i could still see her      #&&†:~,...
..,~:†&&##    flashing by on the tv in the barn.    ##&&†:~,..
.,~:†&&###     everything was black then, for a     ###&&†:~,.
..,~:†&&##  moment. i remembered her laugh and knew ##&&†:~,..
...,~:†&&#   we had done crimes together, that it   #&&†:~,...
....,~:†&&             had been real...             &&†:~,....
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......,~:†    i died by getting shot in the head    †:~,......
.....,~:†&   while ramming the fence to a military  &†:~,.....
....,~:†&&   facility. by this time they had been   &&†:~,....
...,~:†&&#   chasing me for days. i lost control    #&&†:~,...
..,~:†&&##   over the car, crashed it into a rock   ##&&†:~,..
.,~:†&&###     wall and flew out the windshield.    ###&&†:~,.
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...,~:†&&#  and then i got up, and looked around.   #&&†:~,...
....,~:†&&   it was dark, where it previously had   &&†:~,....
.....,~:†&    been a bright day. around me where    &†:~,.....
......,~:†    dozens of crashed cars, all my car,   †:~,......
.......,~:               some on fire.              :~,.......
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.......,~:       the ground was sticky, red.        :~,.......
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.....,~:†&   and then i realized that i knew this   &†:~,.....
....,~:†&&     darkness. i knew the way the sky     &&†:~,....
...,~:†&&# touched the ground. this was her doing!  #&&†:~,...
..,~:†&&##              she was here!               ##&&†:~,..
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