something's  inside of  me  and  i  know 
 this  because  of  how   nice  it  feels 
                                          
  
                                          
 there are brown spots on my  hands. they 
    are moving, growing, disappearing,    
 appearing  again. this is almost erotic. 
                                          
 there is a spy in  my eyes, installed to 
 identify these  spots and to give  me an 
     appropriate reaction (positive).     
                                          
 when i gather all my willpower,  and set 
 it  ablaze   all   at  once,  the   most 
 resistance i can muster is indifference.