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#,##,##,,,         * mirage class goth gf *         ,,,#,,####
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,##,###,,#         **~~~~~---,  ,---~~~~~**         ,#,###,,,#
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,####,,#,# i used to be a goth, in my youth, doing  ,###,###,#
#,,,#,####  crimes mostly from or in my beloved and #,,##,,###
#,,###,,,#  trusted car, and sometimes my mothers   #,#,#,#,,,
#,#,,#,,#,    barn. we lived just outside town, a   #######,,#
###,##,###   grove at the end of a dirt road, and   ,,,,,,#,#,
,,##,##,,,  the barn was placed so you could just   ,,,,,#####
,#,##,#,,,  make out the surrounding fields through ,,,,#,,,,#
###,###,,,                the trees.                ,,,##,,,##
,,##,,#,,#                                          ,,#,#,,#,,
,#,#,##,#,   my car was black and loud, both the    ,####,##,,
#####,####   engine and the way the parts didn't    #,,,##,#,,
,,,,##,,,,     really stick together. i took my     #,,#,###,#
,,,#,#,,,# crimefriend for rides, in the dark, the  #,###,,###
,,####,,##   eternal dark that seemed to surround   ##,,#,#,,#
,#,,,#,#,#   us. she seemed to cast this veil over  ,#,####,##
##,,######  everything. her black skirt reached to  ###,,,##,#
,#,#,,,,,#   her knees but then somehow also back   ,,#,,#,##,
####,,,,#,  around, enveloping all my memories of   ,##,###,#,
,,,#,,,##,            our time together.            #,##,,####
,,##,,#,##                                          ##,#,#,,,#
,#,#,###,,  there was blood everywhere. sometimes   ,#####,,##
#####,,#,#  the blood was her red lipstick or her   #,,,,#,#,#
,,,,#,####  checkered shirt. she was on television. #,,,#####,
,,,###,,,#      we did crime, and we made weird     #,,#,,,,#,
,,#,,#,,## structures in the barn, tall pillars of  #,##,,,##,
,##,##,#,,  dark wood, ladders and plateaus, fires  ##,#,,#,#,
#,##,###,,  and fairy lights. we would sleep there  ,###,####,
##,##,,#,,  and drink there and she would go in the #,,##,,,##
,##,#,##,#                television.               #,#,#,,#,,
#,####,##,                                          #####,##,,
##,,,##,#, and then the sun came out, and she went  ,,,,##,#,#
,#,,#,###,  away. everything changed... i yearned,  ,,,#,####,
##,###,,#,   and the world became dull around me.   ,,###,,,#,
,##,,#,###                                          ,#,,#,,###
#,#,###,,#    i stopped doing crime, except when    ##,##,#,,#
####,,#,##  necessarry. things somehow seemed like  ,##,###,#,
,,,#,###,,  they were allright, moulded in place,   #,##,,####
,,###,,#,,   and i loathed it ------ i missed her   ##,#,#,,,#
,#,,#,##,#                 so much.                 ,#####,,##
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#,#,#,#,,,             ~~~~~--, ,--~~~~~            #,,#,,,,#,
#######,,,                                          #,##,,,###
,,,,,,#,,,                                          ##,#,,#,,,
,,,,,##,,#  i searched for her, but nobody had any  ,###,##,,,
,,,,#,#,##    memories of her. not so much of me    #,,##,#,,,
,,,#####,#  either, from the time we were together. #,#,###,,,
,,#,,,,##,  my mother said i kept to myself in the  ####,,#,,,
,##,,,#,##           barn, or in the car.           ,,,#,##,,,
#,#,,###,,                                          ,,###,#,,,
###,#,,#,,     sometimes i could still see her      ,#,,###,,#
,,###,##,#    flashing by on the tv in the barn.    ##,#,,#,#,
,#,,##,###     everything was black then, for a     ,###,####,
##,#,##,,, moment. i remembered her laugh and knew  #,,##,,,#,
,####,#,,,   we had done crimes together, that it   #,#,#,,###
#,,,###,,,             had been real...             #####,#,,#
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##,#,###,,    i died by getting shot in the head    ,,#,##,#,,
,####,,#,#  while ramming the fence to a military   ,###,###,#
#,,,#,####   facility. by this time they had been   #,,##,,###
#,,###,,,#    chasing me for days. i lost control   #,#,#,#,,,
#,#,,#,,#,   over the car, crashed it into a rock   #######,,#
###,##,###     wall and flew out the windshield.    ,,,,,,#,#,
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,#,##,#,,,  and then i got up, and looked around.   ,,,,#,,,,#
###,###,,,   it was dark, where it previously had   ,,,##,,,##
,,##,,#,,#    been a bright day. around me where    ,,#,#,,#,,
,#,#,##,#,   dozens of crashed cars, all my car,    ,####,##,,
#####,####               some on fire.              #,,,##,#,,
,,,,##,,,,                                          #,,#,###,#
,,,#,#,,,#       the ground was sticky, red.        #,###,,###
,,####,,##                                          ##,,#,#,,#
,#,,,#,#,#   and then i realized that i knew this   ,#,####,##
##,,######     darkness. i knew the way the sky     ###,,,##,#
,#,#,,,,,# touched the ground. this was her doing!  ,,#,,#,##,
####,,,,#,              she was here!               ,##,###,#,
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