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¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§         ^;--------¨  ¨--------;^         ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§         ^                      ^         ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§         ^ MIRAGE CLASS GOTH GF ^         ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§         ^                      ^         ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§         ^;--------¨  ¨--------;^         ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§ I USED TO BE A GOTH, IN MY YOUTH, DOING  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§ CRIMES MOSTLY FROM OR IN MY BELOVED AND  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§  TRUSTED CAR, AND SOMETIMES MY MOTHERS   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§    BARN. WE LIVED JUST OUTSIDE TOWN, A   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§   GROVE AT THE END OF A DIRT ROAD, AND   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§  THE BARN WAS PLACED SO YOU COULD JUST   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§ MAKE OUT THE SURROUNDING FIELDS THROUGH  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§                THE TREES.                ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§   MY CAR WAS BLACK AND LOUD, BOTH THE    ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§   ENGINE AND THE WAY THE PARTS DIDN'T    ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§     REALLY STICK TOGETHER. I TOOK MY     ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§  CRIMEFRIEND FOR RIDES, IN THE DARK, THE ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§   ETERNAL DARK THAT SEEMED TO SURROUND   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§   US. SHE SEEMED TO CAST THIS VEIL OVER  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§  EVERYTHING. HER BLACK SKIRT REACHED TO  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§   HER KNEES BUT THEN SOMEHOW ALSO BACK   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§  AROUND, ENVELOPING ALL MY MEMORIES OF   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§            OUR TIME TOGETHER.            ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§  THERE WAS BLOOD EVERYWHERE. SOMETIMES   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§  THE BLOOD WAS HER RED LIPSTICK OR HER   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§  CHECKERED SHIRT. SHE WAS ON TELEVISION. ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§      WE DID CRIME, AND WE MADE WEIRD     ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§ STRUCTURES IN THE BARN, TALL PILLARS OF  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§  DARK WOOD, LADDERS AND PLATEAUS, FIRES  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§  AND FAIRY LIGHTS. WE WOULD SLEEP THERE  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§ AND DRINK THERE AND SHE WOULD GO IN THE  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§                TELEVISION.               ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§ AND THEN THE SUN CAME OUT, AND SHE WENT  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§  AWAY. EVERYTHING CHANGED... I YEARNED,  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§   AND THE WORLD BECAME DULL AROUND ME.   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§    I STOPPED DOING CRIME, EXCEPT WHEN    ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§  NECESSARRY. THINGS SOMEHOW SEEMED LIKE  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§  THEY WERE ALLRIGHT, MOULDED IN PLACE,   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§   AND I LOATHED IT ------ I MISSED HER   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§                 SO MUCH.                 ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§            -------¨ ¨-------             ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§  I SEARCHED FOR HER, BUT NOBODY HAD ANY  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§    MEMORIES OF HER. NOT SO MUCH OF ME    ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§ EITHER, FROM THE TIME WE WERE TOGETHER.  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§  MY MOTHER SAID I KEPT TO MYSELF IN THE  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§           BARN, OR IN THE CAR.           ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§     SOMETIMES I COULD STILL SEE HER      ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§    FLASHING BY ON THE TV IN THE BARN.    ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§     EVERYTHING WAS BLACK THEN, FOR A     ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§ MOMENT. I REMEMBERED HER LAUGH AND KNEW  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§   WE HAD DONE CRIMES TOGETHER, THAT IT   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§             HAD BEEN REAL...             ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§            -------¨ ¨-------             ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§    I DIED BY GETTING SHOT IN THE HEAD    ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§  WHILE RAMMING THE FENCE TO A MILITARY   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§   FACILITY. BY THIS TIME THEY HAD BEEN   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§   CHASING ME FOR DAYS. I LOST CONTROL    ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§   OVER THE CAR, CRASHED IT INTO A ROCK   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§    WALL AND FLEW OUT THE WINDSHIELD.     ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§   AND THEN I GOT UP, AND LOOKED AROUND.  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§   IT WAS DARK, WHERE IT PREVIOUSLY HAD   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§    BEEN A BRIGHT DAY. AROUND ME WHERE    ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§    DOZENS OF CRASHED CARS, ALL MY CAR,   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§               SOME ON FIRE.              ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§        THE GROUND WAS STICKY, RED.       ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§   AND THEN I REALIZED THAT I KNEW THIS   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§     DARKNESS. I KNEW THE WAY THE SKY     ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§  TOUCHED THE GROUND. THIS WAS HER DOING! ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§              SHE WAS HERE!               ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§