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,,,,#,,,,,         † mirage class goth gf †         ,,,###,#,,
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#,,,#,##,,                                          ##,,##,#,,
#,,###,#,,  i used to be a goth, in my youth, doing ,#,#,###,#
#,#,,###,#  crimes mostly from or in my beloved and #####,,##,
###,#,,##,  trusted car, and sometimes my mothers   ,,,,#,#,##
,,###,#,#,   barn. we lived just outside town, a    ,,,#####,,
,#,,#####,   grove at the end of a dirt road, and   ,,#,,,,#,,
##,#,,,,##   the barn was placed so you could just  ,##,,,##,,
,###,,,#,# make out the surrounding fields through  #,#,,#,#,#
#,,#,,####                the trees.                ###,######
#,##,#,,,#                                          ,,##,,,,,,
##,###,,#,    my car was black and loud, both the   ,#,#,,,,,#
,##,,#,###    engine and the way the parts didn't   ####,,,,#,
#,#,###,,,     really stick together. i took my     ,,,#,,,##,
####,,#,,, crimefriend for rides, in the dark, the  ,,##,,#,##
,,,#,##,,,   eternal dark that seemed to surround   ,#,#,###,,
,,###,#,,#   us. she seemed to cast this veil over  #####,,#,,
,#,,###,##  everything. her black skirt reached to  ,,,,#,##,,
##,#,,##,,   her knees but then somehow also back   ,,,###,#,,
,###,#,#,#  around, enveloping all my memories of   ,,#,,###,#
#,,#######            our time together.            ,##,#,,###
#,#,,,,,,,                                          #,###,#,,,
###,,,,,,#  there was blood everywhere. sometimes   ##,,###,,#
,,#,,,,,##   the blood was her red lipstick or her  ,#,#,,#,#,
,##,,,,#,# checkered shirt. she was on television.  ####,####,
#,#,,,###,      we did crime, and we made weird     ,,,##,,,#,
###,,#,,#,  structures in the barn, tall pillars of ,,#,#,,###
,,#,##,##,  dark wood, ladders and plateaus, fires  ,####,#,,,
,###,##,#,  and fairy lights. we would sleep there  #,,,###,,,
#,,##,###,  and drink there and she would go in the #,,#,,#,,,
#,#,##,,#,               television.                #,##,##,,#
####,#,##,                                          ##,##,#,#,
,,,####,##  and then the sun came out, and she went ,##,######
,,#,,,##,,  away. everything changed... i yearned,  #,##,,,,,#
,##,,#,#,#   and the world became dull around me.   ##,#,,,,##
#,#,#####,                                          ,###,,,#,#
####,,,,##    i stopped doing crime, except when    #,,#,,###,
,,,#,,,#,,  necessarry. things somehow seemed like  #,##,#,,##
,,##,,##,#  they were allright, moulded in place,   ##,###,#,#
,#,#,#,##,   and i loathed it ------ i missed her   ,##,,#####
#######,#,                 so much.                 #,#,#,,,,#
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,,,,##,,,,            ~~~~~::, ,::~~~~~             ,,,##,#,#,
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,,####,,,#                                          ,###,,,,#,
,#,,,#,,#,  i searched for her, but nobody had any  #,,#,,,##,
##,,##,###    memories of her. not so much of me    #,##,,#,#,
,#,#,##,,, either, from the time we were together.  ##,#,#####
#####,#,,,  my mother said i kept to myself in the  ,####,,,,#
,,,,###,,,           barn, or in the car.           #,,,#,,,#,
,,,#,,#,,,                                          #,,##,,##,
,,##,##,,,     sometimes i could still see her      #,#,#,#,#,
,#,##,#,,#    flashing by on the tv in the barn.    #########,
###,###,#,     everything was black then, for a     ,,,,,,,,#,
,,##,,###, moment. i remembered her laugh and knew  ,,,,,,,###
,#,#,#,,##   we had done crimes together, that it   ,,,,,,#,,#
######,#,#             had been real...             ,,,,,##,##
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,,,##,,,,#            ~~~~~::, ,::~~~~~             ,,#,,###,,
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#,,,#,##,,    i died by getting shot in the head    ##,,##,#,,
#,,###,#,,  while ramming the fence to a military   ,#,#,###,#
#,#,,###,#   facility. by this time they had been   #####,,##,
###,#,,##,   chasing me for days. i lost control    ,,,,#,#,##
,,###,#,#,   over the car, crashed it into a rock   ,,,#####,,
,#,,#####,     wall and flew out the windshield.    ,,#,,,,#,,
##,#,,,,##                                          ,##,,,##,,
,###,,,#,#  and then i got up, and looked around.   #,#,,#,#,#
#,,#,,####   it was dark, where it previously had   ###,######
#,##,#,,,#    been a bright day. around me where    ,,##,,,,,,
##,###,,#,    dozens of crashed cars, all my car,   ,#,#,,,,,#
,##,,#,###               some on fire.              ####,,,,#,
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####,,#,,,        the ground was sticky, red.       ,,##,,#,##
,,,#,##,,,                                          ,#,#,###,,
,,###,#,,#   and then i realized that i knew this   #####,,#,,
,#,,###,##     darkness. i knew the way the sky     ,,,,#,##,,
##,#,,##,,  touched the ground. this was her doing! ,,,###,#,,
,###,#,#,#              she was here!               ,,#,,###,#
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