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¨¨§¨§¨§§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§§¨§  I USED TO BE A GOTH, IN MY YOUTH, DOING ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§  CRIMES MOSTLY FROM OR IN MY BELOVED AND ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§§¨§  TRUSTED CAR, AND SOMETIMES MY MOTHERS   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§   BARN. WE LIVED JUST OUTSIDE TOWN, A    ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§§¨§   GROVE AT THE END OF A DIRT ROAD, AND   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§   THE BARN WAS PLACED SO YOU COULD JUST  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§§¨§ MAKE OUT THE SURROUNDING FIELDS THROUGH  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§                THE TREES.                ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§    MY CAR WAS BLACK AND LOUD, BOTH THE   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§§¨§    ENGINE AND THE WAY THE PARTS DIDN'T   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§     REALLY STICK TOGETHER. I TOOK MY     ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§§¨§  CRIMEFRIEND FOR RIDES, IN THE DARK, THE ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§   ETERNAL DARK THAT SEEMED TO SURROUND   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§§¨§  US. SHE SEEMED TO CAST THIS VEIL OVER   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§  EVERYTHING. HER BLACK SKIRT REACHED TO  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§§¨§   HER KNEES BUT THEN SOMEHOW ALSO BACK   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§   AROUND, ENVELOPING ALL MY MEMORIES OF  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§§¨§            OUR TIME TOGETHER.            ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§§¨§   THERE WAS BLOOD EVERYWHERE. SOMETIMES  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§  THE BLOOD WAS HER RED LIPSTICK OR HER   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§§¨§  CHECKERED SHIRT. SHE WAS ON TELEVISION. ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§      WE DID CRIME, AND WE MADE WEIRD     ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§§¨§  STRUCTURES IN THE BARN, TALL PILLARS OF ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§  DARK WOOD, LADDERS AND PLATEAUS, FIRES  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§§¨§  AND FAIRY LIGHTS. WE WOULD SLEEP THERE  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§ AND DRINK THERE AND SHE WOULD GO IN THE  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§§¨§                TELEVISION.               ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§§¨§  AND THEN THE SUN CAME OUT, AND SHE WENT ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§  AWAY. EVERYTHING CHANGED... I YEARNED,  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§§¨§   AND THE WORLD BECAME DULL AROUND ME.   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§§¨§    I STOPPED DOING CRIME, EXCEPT WHEN    ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§  NECESSARRY. THINGS SOMEHOW SEEMED LIKE  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§§¨§   THEY WERE ALLRIGHT, MOULDED IN PLACE,  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§   AND I LOATHED IT ------ I MISSED HER   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§§¨§                 SO MUCH.                 ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§             -----,,¨ ¨,,-----            ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§§¨§  I SEARCHED FOR HER, BUT NOBODY HAD ANY  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§    MEMORIES OF HER. NOT SO MUCH OF ME    ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§§¨§  EITHER, FROM THE TIME WE WERE TOGETHER. ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§  MY MOTHER SAID I KEPT TO MYSELF IN THE  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§§¨§           BARN, OR IN THE CAR.           ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§§¨§      SOMETIMES I COULD STILL SEE HER     ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§    FLASHING BY ON THE TV IN THE BARN.    ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§§¨§     EVERYTHING WAS BLACK THEN, FOR A     ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§  MOMENT. I REMEMBERED HER LAUGH AND KNEW ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§§¨§   WE HAD DONE CRIMES TOGETHER, THAT IT   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§             HAD BEEN REAL...             ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§§¨§            -----,,¨ ¨,,-----             ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§    I DIED BY GETTING SHOT IN THE HEAD    ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§§¨§  WHILE RAMMING THE FENCE TO A MILITARY   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§   FACILITY. BY THIS TIME THEY HAD BEEN   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§§¨§   CHASING ME FOR DAYS. I LOST CONTROL    ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§   OVER THE CAR, CRASHED IT INTO A ROCK   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§§¨§    WALL AND FLEW OUT THE WINDSHIELD.     ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§§¨§   AND THEN I GOT UP, AND LOOKED AROUND.  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§   IT WAS DARK, WHERE IT PREVIOUSLY HAD   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§§¨§    BEEN A BRIGHT DAY. AROUND ME WHERE    ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§   DOZENS OF CRASHED CARS, ALL MY CAR,    ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§§¨§              SOME ON FIRE.               ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§§¨§       THE GROUND WAS STICKY, RED.        ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§§¨§   AND THEN I REALIZED THAT I KNEW THIS   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§     DARKNESS. I KNEW THE WAY THE SKY     ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§§¨§ TOUCHED THE GROUND. THIS WAS HER DOING!  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§               SHE WAS HERE!              ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
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¨¨§¨§¨§§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§