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¨§§§¨¨¨§§¨         *                      *         §¨¨§¨¨¨§§§
§¨¨§¨¨§¨§¨         * MIRAGE CLASS GOTH GF *         §¨§§¨¨§¨¨§
§¨§§¨§§§§¨         *                      *         §§¨§¨§§¨§¨
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¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§                                          §¨¨¨§§¨¨¨¨
§¨§§§¨§§§§                                          §¨¨§¨§¨¨¨¨
§§¨¨§§¨¨¨¨ I USED TO BE A GOTH, IN MY YOUTH, DOING  §¨§§§§¨¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨¨¨  CRIMES MOSTLY FROM OR IN MY BELOVED AND §§¨¨¨§¨¨§¨
§§§§§§¨¨¨§   TRUSTED CAR, AND SOMETIMES MY MOTHERS  ¨§¨¨§§¨§§¨
¨¨¨¨¨§¨¨§§   BARN. WE LIVED JUST OUTSIDE TOWN, A    §§¨§¨§§¨§§
¨¨¨¨§§¨§¨¨   GROVE AT THE END OF A DIRT ROAD, AND   ¨§§§§¨§§¨§
¨¨¨§¨§§§¨§  THE BARN WAS PLACED SO YOU COULD JUST   §¨¨¨§§¨§§§
¨¨§§§¨¨§§¨  MAKE OUT THE SURROUNDING FIELDS THROUGH §¨¨§¨§§¨¨§
¨§¨¨§¨§¨§¨                THE TREES.                §¨§§§¨§¨§§
§§¨§§§§§§¨                                          §§¨¨§§§§¨§
¨§§¨¨¨¨¨§¨    MY CAR WAS BLACK AND LOUD, BOTH THE   ¨§¨§¨¨¨§§¨
§¨§¨¨¨¨§§¨   ENGINE AND THE WAY THE PARTS DIDN'T    §§§§¨¨§¨§¨
§§§¨¨¨§¨§¨     REALLY STICK TOGETHER. I TOOK MY     ¨¨¨§¨§§§§§
¨¨§¨¨§§§§¨  CRIMEFRIEND FOR RIDES, IN THE DARK, THE ¨¨§§§¨¨¨¨¨
¨§§¨§¨¨¨§¨   ETERNAL DARK THAT SEEMED TO SURROUND   ¨§¨¨§¨¨¨¨¨
§¨§§§¨¨§§¨   US. SHE SEEMED TO CAST THIS VEIL OVER  §§¨§§¨¨¨¨¨
§§¨¨§¨§¨§¨  EVERYTHING. HER BLACK SKIRT REACHED TO  ¨§§¨§¨¨¨¨§
¨§¨§§§§§§¨   HER KNEES BUT THEN SOMEHOW ALSO BACK   §¨§§§¨¨¨§¨
§§§¨¨¨¨¨§§  AROUND, ENVELOPING ALL MY MEMORIES OF   §§¨¨§¨¨§§¨
¨¨§¨¨¨¨§¨¨            OUR TIME TOGETHER.            ¨§¨§§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨¨¨§§¨§                                          §§§¨§§§§¨§
§¨§¨¨§¨§§¨   THERE WAS BLOOD EVERYWHERE. SOMETIMES  ¨¨§§¨¨¨§§§
§§§¨§§§¨§§  THE BLOOD WAS HER RED LIPSTICK OR HER   ¨§¨§¨¨§¨¨¨
¨¨§§¨¨§§¨¨ CHECKERED SHIRT. SHE WAS ON TELEVISION.  §§§§¨§§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨¨     WE DID CRIME, AND WE MADE WEIRD      ¨¨¨§§¨§¨§§
§§§§§§§§¨¨  STRUCTURES IN THE BARN, TALL PILLARS OF ¨¨§¨§§§§¨§
¨¨¨¨¨¨¨§¨¨  DARK WOOD, LADDERS AND PLATEAUS, FIRES  ¨§§§¨¨¨§§¨
¨¨¨¨¨¨§§¨§  AND FAIRY LIGHTS. WE WOULD SLEEP THERE  §¨¨§¨¨§¨§¨
¨¨¨¨¨§¨§§§  AND DRINK THERE AND SHE WOULD GO IN THE §¨§§¨§§§§¨
¨¨¨¨§§§¨¨¨               TELEVISION.                §§¨§§¨¨¨§¨
¨¨¨§¨¨§¨¨§                                          ¨§§¨§¨¨§§¨
¨¨§§¨§§¨§§ AND THEN THE SUN CAME OUT, AND SHE WENT  §¨§§§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§§¨§§¨§  AWAY. EVERYTHING CHANGED... I YEARNED,  §§¨¨§§§§§¨
§§§¨§§¨§§§   AND THE WORLD BECAME DULL AROUND ME.   ¨§¨§¨¨¨¨§¨
¨¨§§¨§§¨¨¨                                          §§§§¨¨¨§§§
¨§¨§§¨§¨¨¨    I STOPPED DOING CRIME, EXCEPT WHEN    ¨¨¨§¨¨§¨¨§
§§§¨§§§¨¨§  NECESSARRY. THINGS SOMEHOW SEEMED LIKE  ¨¨§§¨§§¨§§
¨¨§§¨¨§¨§§  THEY WERE ALLRIGHT, MOULDED IN PLACE,   ¨§¨§§¨§§¨¨
¨§¨§¨§§§¨¨   AND I LOATHED IT ------ I MISSED HER   §§§¨§§¨§¨¨
§§§§§¨¨§¨¨                 SO MUCH.                 ¨¨§§¨§§§¨¨
¨¨¨¨§¨§§¨§                                          ¨§¨§§¨¨§¨§
¨¨¨§§§¨§§§                                          §§§¨§¨§§§§
¨¨§¨¨§§¨¨¨            «««««^^¨ ¨^^«««««             ¨¨§§§§¨¨¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§                                          ¨§¨¨¨§¨¨§§
§¨§§§§§¨§§                                          §§¨¨§§¨§¨§
§§¨¨¨¨§§¨§  I SEARCHED FOR HER, BUT NOBODY HAD ANY  ¨§¨§¨§§§§¨
¨§¨¨¨§¨§§¨    MEMORIES OF HER. NOT SO MUCH OF ME    §§§§§¨¨¨§§
§§¨¨§§§¨§§  EITHER, FROM THE TIME WE WERE TOGETHER. ¨¨¨¨§¨¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨¨§§¨§  MY MOTHER SAID I KEPT TO MYSELF IN THE  ¨¨¨§§¨§§§¨
§§§§¨§¨§§¨           BARN, OR IN THE CAR.           ¨¨§¨§§¨¨§¨
¨¨¨§§§§¨§¨                                          ¨§§§¨§¨§§§
¨¨§¨¨¨§§§¨     SOMETIMES I COULD STILL SEE HER      §¨¨§§§§¨¨§
¨§§¨¨§¨¨§¨    FLASHING BY ON THE TV IN THE BARN.    §¨§¨¨¨§¨§§
§¨§¨§§¨§§§     EVERYTHING WAS BLACK THEN, FOR A     §§§¨¨§§§¨§
§§§§¨§§¨¨§ MOMENT. I REMEMBERED HER LAUGH AND KNEW  ¨¨§¨§¨¨§§¨
¨¨¨§§¨§¨§§   WE HAD DONE CRIMES TOGETHER, THAT IT   ¨§§§§¨§¨§§
¨¨§¨§§§§¨§             HAD BEEN REAL...             §¨¨¨§§§§¨§
¨§§§¨¨¨§§¨                                          §¨¨§¨¨¨§§§
§¨¨§¨¨§¨§¨                                          §¨§§¨¨§¨¨§
§¨§§¨§§§§¨             «««««^^¨ ¨^^«««««            §§¨§¨§§¨§¨
§§¨§§¨¨¨§§                                          ¨§§§§¨§§§§
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§                                          §¨¨¨§§¨¨¨¨
§¨§§§¨§§§§    I DIED BY GETTING SHOT IN THE HEAD    §¨¨§¨§¨¨¨¨
§§¨¨§§¨¨¨¨  WHILE RAMMING THE FENCE TO A MILITARY   §¨§§§§¨¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨¨¨   FACILITY. BY THIS TIME THEY HAD BEEN   §§¨¨¨§¨¨§¨
§§§§§§¨¨¨§   CHASING ME FOR DAYS. I LOST CONTROL    ¨§¨¨§§¨§§¨
¨¨¨¨¨§¨¨§§   OVER THE CAR, CRASHED IT INTO A ROCK   §§¨§¨§§¨§§
¨¨¨¨§§¨§¨¨    WALL AND FLEW OUT THE WINDSHIELD.     ¨§§§§¨§§¨§
¨¨¨§¨§§§¨§                                          §¨¨¨§§¨§§§
¨¨§§§¨¨§§¨  AND THEN I GOT UP, AND LOOKED AROUND.   §¨¨§¨§§¨¨§
¨§¨¨§¨§¨§¨   IT WAS DARK, WHERE IT PREVIOUSLY HAD   §¨§§§¨§¨§§
§§¨§§§§§§¨    BEEN A BRIGHT DAY. AROUND ME WHERE    §§¨¨§§§§¨§
¨§§¨¨¨¨¨§¨   DOZENS OF CRASHED CARS, ALL MY CAR,    ¨§¨§¨¨¨§§¨
§¨§¨¨¨¨§§¨              SOME ON FIRE.               §§§§¨¨§¨§¨
§§§¨¨¨§¨§¨                                          ¨¨¨§¨§§§§§
¨¨§¨¨§§§§¨       THE GROUND WAS STICKY, RED.        ¨¨§§§¨¨¨¨¨
¨§§¨§¨¨¨§¨                                          ¨§¨¨§¨¨¨¨¨
§¨§§§¨¨§§¨   AND THEN I REALIZED THAT I KNEW THIS   §§¨§§¨¨¨¨¨
§§¨¨§¨§¨§¨     DARKNESS. I KNEW THE WAY THE SKY     ¨§§¨§¨¨¨¨§
¨§¨§§§§§§¨  TOUCHED THE GROUND. THIS WAS HER DOING! §¨§§§¨¨¨§¨
§§§¨¨¨¨¨§§               SHE WAS HERE!              §§¨¨§¨¨§§¨
¨¨§¨¨¨¨§¨¨                                          ¨§¨§§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨¨¨§§¨§                                          §§§¨§§§§¨§
§¨§¨¨§¨§§¨                                          ¨¨§§¨¨¨§§§
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¨¨§§¨¨§§¨¨                                          §§§§¨§§¨¨§