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.^~†**#@##         *†~~~~~^^^.  .^^^~~~~~†*         ##@#**†~^.
.^~**§#@##         *                      *         ##@#§**~^.
...~~†*§§§         * mirage class goth gf *         §§§*†~~...
.^^~~††**§         *                      *         §**††~~^^.
.......~*§         *†~~~~~^^^.  .^^^~~~~~†*         §*~.......
.^~†**§§§#                                          #§§§**†~^.
.^~†**§#@@                                          @@#§**†~^.
.^~†**§#@@  i used to be a goth, in my youth, doing @@#§**†~^.
.^~†***§## crimes mostly from or in my beloved and  ##§***†~^.
.^~†**§#@#  trusted car, and sometimes my mothers   #@#§**†~^.
.^~†**§#@#    barn. we lived just outside town, a   #@#§**†~^.
....~~***#   grove at the end of a dirt road, and   #***~~....
.^~†**§###   the barn was placed so you could just  ###§**†~^.
.^~†**§@## make out the surrounding fields through  ##@§**†~^.
.^~†**§@##                the trees.                ##@§**†~^.
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.^~†*§#@##    my car was black and loud, both the   ##@#§*†~^.
.^~†**§###   engine and the way the parts didn't    ###§**†~^.
.^~†**§§§@     really stick together. i took my     @§§§**†~^.
.^~**§#@## crimefriend for rides, in the dark, the  ##@#§**~^.
.^~†**§#@#   eternal dark that seemed to surround   #@#§**†~^.
.^~†**§#@#   us. she seemed to cast this veil over  #@#§**†~^.
.^~†**§###  everything. her black skirt reached to  ###§**†~^.
.^~†****§#   her knees but then somehow also back   #§****†~^.
.^~†*§#@##   around, enveloping all my memories of  ##@#§*†~^.
.^~†**§#@@            our time together.            @@#§**†~^.
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.^~†**§#@#   there was blood everywhere. sometimes  #@#§**†~^.
.^~†**§#@#   the blood was her red lipstick or her  #@#§**†~^.
.^~†**§#@# checkered shirt. she was on television.  #@#§**†~^.
.^~†**§###      we did crime, and we made weird     ###§**†~^.
.....~**§@ structures in the barn, tall pillars of  @§**~.....
.^~†**§#@@  dark wood, ladders and plateaus, fires  @@#§**†~^.
.^~†**§###  and fairy lights. we would sleep there  ###§**†~^.
.....^††*§  and drink there and she would go in the §*††^.....
.^~~†***#@               television.                @#***†~~^.
.^~†**§###                                          ###§**†~^.
.^~†**§§§#  and then the sun came out, and she went #§§§**†~^.
.^~†**§#@@  away. everything changed... i yearned,  @@#§**†~^.
....^^†*§§   and the world became dull around me.   §§*†^^....
.^~†**§#@#                                          #@#§**†~^.
.^~†**§#@#    i stopped doing crime, except when    #@#§**†~^.
....~***§§  necessarry. things somehow seemed like  §§***~....
.^~†***§§#   they were allright, moulded in place,  #§§***†~^.
.^~†**§#@#   and i loathed it ------ i missed her   #@#§**†~^.
....^††*§§                 so much.                 §§*††^....
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.^~†**§#@#                                          #@#§**†~^.
.^~**§#@##             ~~~~~^^. .^^~~~~~            ##@#§**~^.
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.^~†****##                                          ##****†~^.
.^~†**§###  i searched for her, but nobody had any  ###§**†~^.
.^~†**§#@#    memories of her. not so much of me    #@#§**†~^.
.^~†**§#@# either, from the time we were together.  #@#§**†~^.
.^~†**§###  my mother said i kept to myself in the  ###§**†~^.
.^~†**§§§#           barn, or in the car.           #§§§**†~^.
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....^^~**#     sometimes i could still see her      #**~^^....
.^~†***§§§    flashing by on the tv in the barn.    §§§***†~^.
...^~†*§§§     everything was black then, for a     §§§*†~^...
.^~†**§#@#  moment. i remembered her laugh and knew #@#§**†~^.
...^^^†**§   we had done crimes together, that it   §**†^^^...
.^~†**§@##             had been real...             ##@§**†~^.
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.^~†****§§                                          §§****†~^.
.^~†****§#             ~~~~~^^. .^^~~~~~            #§****†~^.
.^~†**§#@#                                          #@#§**†~^.
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.....~**§§    i died by getting shot in the head    §§**~.....
...^^†***§  while ramming the fence to a military   §***†^^...
....^^†*§@   facility. by this time they had been   @§*†^^....
.^~†**§#@@   chasing me for days. i lost control    @@#§**†~^.
.^~†**§###   over the car, crashed it into a rock   ###§**†~^.
.^~†**§#@#    wall and flew out the windshield.     #@#§**†~^.
.^~†**§#@#                                          #@#§**†~^.
..^~††**#@   and then i got up, and looked around.  @#**††~^..
....~~**§§   it was dark, where it previously had   §§**~~....
.^~†**§#@#    been a bright day. around me where    #@#§**†~^.
.^~†*§#@##    dozens of crashed cars, all my car,   ##@#§*†~^.
...^~†**§#               some on fire.              #§**†~^...
.^~†**§##@                                          @##§**†~^.
.^~†**§#@#       the ground was sticky, red.        #@#§**†~^.
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.^~†**§§#@   and then i realized that i knew this   @#§§**†~^.
.^~†**§#@@     darkness. i knew the way the sky     @@#§**†~^.
......^~*§  touched the ground. this was her doing! §*~^......
....^†***§              she was here!               §***†^....
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..^^^^~*§#                                          #§*~^^^^..