party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off,  shower curtains drawn. floor  full 
 of dirty clothes, of garbage,  and as  i 
 start to unzip my  pants, she steps  out 
 of   the   shower   and  pushes  me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i  wish   to   be  contacted   by   some 
 [god, alien]  who  would  bestow upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right  forever. what  i don't 
 know   is  that  this  happens  multiple 
 times  per  second - they  ask me: "when 
 you  said the  world egg was  your ideal 
 body type,  did  you mean  it"? i answer 
 "not  really,  but i can act like it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory of the  encounter  and  moved on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom