party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower  curtains  drawn. floor full 
 of dirty clothes,  of  garbage, and as i 
 start  to unzip my  pants, she steps out 
 of   the   shower  and   pushes  me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish   to  be   contacted  by   some 
 [god, alien]  who would bestow  upon  me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right  forever. what i  don't 
 know  is   that  this  happens  multiple 
 times per second -  they ask  me:  "when 
 you said  the world egg was  your  ideal 
 body  type,  did  you mean it"? i answer 
 "not  really, but i can  act like it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory  of  the encounter and moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom