party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off,  shower curtains drawn.  floor full 
 of dirty  clothes,  of garbage, and as i 
 start to unzip my  pants,  she steps out 
 of   the  shower  and   pushes   me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish  to   be  contacted   by   some 
 [god, alien] who  would  bestow upon  me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right  forever. what  i don't 
 know  is  that  this  happens   multiple 
 times per  second  - they  ask me: "when 
 you said  the  world egg  was your ideal 
 body  type,  did you mean it"? i  answer 
 "not really, but i can act  like it  for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory  of the  encounter and  moved on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom