Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was    Thinking    To   Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In  The Winter Because  I 
 Do Not  Know How  Useful  They Have Been 
 Anyway?  I Get  So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them, The  Last  Few Times At Least, And 
 There Are Plenty  Of Side Effects That I 
 Really Do Not Like,  And There  Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With   Random  Things   That  I 
 Happen  To  See...  For  Example,  For A 
 Long  Time  I  Could Not  See A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I  Should Avoid  To Ruin All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased Or  At Least The  Burn-Ins  In 
 The  Eyes,   And  Sometimes   Stuff   Is 
 Breathing   Now,  They  Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just Drank  Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared And Making  All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes  That Shit, 
 What A Load  Of ConceptS  This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How  Vague They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will  No Longer Be Dark When I 
 Close  My   Eyes,  Not   Actually  Cev'S 
 Though, Rather  Just  FieldS And Motion. 
 Now And Then I  Hear This Sound  (A Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It  Is Always  Unpleasant,  I Become 
 So Stressful, But I  Think It Has  To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.