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¨§§§§¨¨§§¨ DO NOT KNOW HOW USEFUL THEY HAVE BEEN ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨
¨¨§§¨¨¨¨¨¨ ANYWAY? I GET SO TENSE WHEN I TAKE §§§§§§§§§§
¨¨¨¨¨§§§§¨ THEM, THE LAST FEW TIMES AT LEAST, AND §§§§§§§§§¨
§§§§¨¨§§¨¨ THERE ARE PLENTY OF SIDE EFFECTS THAT I ¨§§§§§§§¨¨
¨§§¨¨¨¨¨¨¨ REALLY DO NOT LIKE, AND THERE WILL BE ¨¨§§§§§¨¨¨
¨¨¨¨§§§§§§ ASSOCIATIONS WITH THESE MINI-ANXIETY ¨¨¨§§§¨¨§§
¨§§¨¨§§§§¨ ATTACKS WITH RANDOM THINGS THAT I §§¨¨§¨¨¨¨¨
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¨§§§§¨¨¨¨¨ LONG TIME I COULD NOT SEE A CERTAIN §§§§§¨¨§§¨
¨¨§§¨¨§§§§ KIND OF LEAF WITHOUT GETTING ANXIOUS §§§§¨¨¨¨¨¨
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¨¨¨§§§§§§¨ INCREASED OR AT LEAST THE BURN-INS IN ¨¨¨¨¨§§¨¨¨
§§¨¨§§§§¨¨ THE EYES, AND SOMETIMES STUFF IS ¨§§§¨¨¨¨§§
§¨¨¨¨§§¨¨§ BREATHING NOW, THEY DID NOT DO IT ¨¨§¨¨§§¨¨§
¨¨§§¨¨¨¨¨¨ BEFORE. BUT MAYBE I JUST DRANK TOO MUCH §¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨
§¨¨¨¨§§§§§ COFFEE. MAYBE I'M SCARED AND MAKING ALL ¨¨§§§§§§§§
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¨¨§§¨¨§§¨¨ IT COMES TO ME SOMETIMES THAT SHIT, §§§§§¨¨¨§§
¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨§ WHAT A LOAD OF CONCEPTS THIS "REALITY" §§§§¨¨§¨¨¨
§§§§§§§§¨¨ CONSISTS OF, AND HOW VAGUE THEY ARE §§§¨¨¨¨¨§§
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¨¨§§¨¨¨¨¨¨ IF I DO NOT SLEEP FOR ABOUT TWENTY ¨¨¨¨¨§¨¨¨¨
§¨¨¨¨§§§§¨ HOURS, IT WILL NO LONGER BE DARK WHEN I §§§§¨¨¨§§§
¨¨§§¨¨§§¨¨ CLOSE MY EYES, NOT ACTUALLY CEV'S ¨§§¨¨§¨¨§§
¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨ THOUGH, RATHER JUST FIELDS AND MOTION. ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨
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§§§§§§§§§§ SOUND (I THINK)), RESEMBLING SOME §§§§§§§§§§
§§§§§§§§§§ "KNERP" FROM TWENTYFIVE C NBOME OR SO. §§§§§§§§§§
§§§§§§§§§§ AND IT IS ALWAYS UNPLEASANT, I BECOME §§§§§§§§§§
§§§§§§§§§§ SO STRESSFUL, BUT I THINK IT HAS TO DO §§§§§§§§§§
§§§§§§§§§§ WITH THE NOVELTY. I HOPE. §§§§§§§§§§
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