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&&,&&&&,,&                 ,,=@=,,                  ,,&&,&,&&,
,&&,,,&,&,             ,,=%@@####@@%=,,             ,&,&&&&,&&
&,&,,&&&&,         ,,,,,~%@ dreams @%~,,,,,         &&&,,,&&,&
&&&,&,,,&&             ,,=%@@####@@%=,,             ,,&,,&,&&,
,,&&&,,&,&                  ,,=@=,,                 ,&&,&&&,&&
,&,,&,&&&&                                          &,&&,,&&,&
&&,&&&,,,&                   ,,,                    &&,&,&,&&&
,&&,,&,,&,                ,=&@#@&=,                 ,&&&&&&,,,
&,&,&&,&&,                   ,,,                    &,,,,,&,,,
&&&&,&&,&,                                          &,,,,&&,,&
,,,&&,&&&&         internal visionary state         &,,,&,&,&,
,,&,&&,,,&                                          &,,&&&&&&,
,&&&,&,,&&            the spirit travels            &,&,,,,,&,
&,,&&&,&,&                                          &&&,,,,&&,
&,&,,&&&&,             ,,=%@@####@@%=,,             ,,&,,,&,&&
&&&,&,,,&,                    ,~,                   ,&&,,&&&,,
,,&&&,,&&&                                          &,&,&,,&,&
,&,,&,&,,,                  a cost                  &&&&&,&&&&
&&,&&&&,,,                (anecdote)                ,,,,&&,,,&
,&&,,,&,,,                                          ,,,&,&,,&,
&,&,,&&,,,                    ,,                    ,,&&&&,&&,
&&&,&,&,,&                                          ,&,,,&&,&&
,,&&&&&,&& i  wake  suddenly,  and  for  a   second &&,,&,&&,,
,&,,,,&&,, everything is  completely calm and  dead ,&,&&&,&,,
&&,,,&,&,, silent.  it's  dark,  and  warm,  and  i &&&,,&&&,,
,&,,&&&&,& slowly   start   to  piece  together  my ,,&,&,,&,&
&&,&,,,&&,        consciousness and my body.        ,&&&&,&&&&
,&&&,,&,&,                                          &,,,&&,,,,
&,,&,&&&&& then   the  fear  hits  me  and  i  feel &,,&,&,,,,
&,&&&,,,,&   acutely sick. something is ~wrong~.    &,&&&&,,,&
&&,,&,,,&,                                          &&,,,&,,&,
,&,&&,,&&,                    ,,                    ,&,,&&,&&&
&&&,&,&,&&                                          &&,&,&&,,&
,,&&&&&&,, there are  circles and crosses inscribed ,&&&&,&,&,
,&,,,,,&,, all  over  my vision, pressing in, being &,,,&&&&&,
&&,,,,&&,, almost hostile. i  can feel them squirm, &,,&,,,,&,
,&,,,&,&,,     their internal logic changing and    &,&&,,,&&&
&&,,&&&&,, grinding trenches  in my mind. it's like &&,&,,&,,&
,&,&,,,&,& language,  sentences i can't  hide from, ,&&&,&&,&,
&&&&,,&&&& forcefully transcribed  in my  mind, and &,,&&,&&&,
,,,&,&,,,&            doing damage there.           &,&,&&,,&&
,,&&&&,,&&                                          &&&&,&,&,&
,&,,,&,&,& then  i  realize i can't  hear  anything ,,,&&&&&&&
&&,,&&&&&,      because there's something there     ,,&,,,,,,&
,&,&,,,,&&    already, droning everything out, a    ,&&,,,,,&,
&&&&,,,&,, rapid  melody,  almost caustic  in  it's &,&,,,,&&,
,,,&,,&&,&         particular microtonality.        &&&,,,&,&&
,,&&,&,&&&                                          ,,&,,&&&,&
,&,&&&&,,,                    ,,                    ,&&,&,,&&&
&&&,,,&,,&                                          &,&&&,&,,&
,,&,,&&,&, my surroundings are entirely  calm. it's &&,,&&&,&,
,&&,&,&&&,              almost mocking.             ,&,&,,&&&,
&,&&&&,,&,                                          &&&&,&,,&,
&&,,,&,&&, i  feel  helpless,  but i  must  try  to ,,,&&&,&&&
,&,,&&&,&, escape. to crawl on the floor  searching ,,&,,&&,,,
&&,&,,&&&, relief,  such is  my nature. turning the ,&&,&,&,,,
,&&&,&,,&&    lights on does nothing... getting     &,&&&&&,,&
&,,&&&,&,&  outside does nothing... drinking water  &&,,,,&,&&
&,&,,&&&&, does  noting...  but  time does -  after ,&,,,&&&,,
&&&,&,,,&,     thirty seconds i'm normal again,     &&,,&,,&,&
,,&&&,,&&& doubting  anything of this  happened  in ,&,&&,&&&,
,&,,&,&,,,             the first place.             &&&,&&,,&,
&&,&&&&,,&                                          ,,&&,&,&&,
,&&,,,&,&, my eyes are still tense though,  scared. ,&,&&&&,&&
&,&,,&&&&, i   don't    know    what    to    make. &&&,,,&&,&
&&&,&,,,&&                                          ,,&,,&,&&,
,,&&&,,&,&              but i'm tired.              ,&&,&&&,&&
,&,,&,&&&&                                          &,&&,,&&,&
&&,&&&,,,&                    ,                     &&,&,&,&&&
,&&,,&,,&,                 ,,~=~,,                  ,&&&&&&,,,
&,&,&&,&&,                    ,                     &,,,,,&,,,
&&&&,&&,&,                                          &,,,,&&,,&
,,,&&,&&&& this  can happen if you wander  too far, &,,,&,&,&,
,,&,&&,,,& i guess?  i  shouldn't  be  so  reckless &,,&&&&&&,
,&&&,&,,&&              when dreaming?              &,&,,,,,&,
&,,&&&,&,& i imagine a prick  on  the nose,  that's &&&,,,,&&,
&,&,,&&&&, what these are.  like you do  with a cat ,,&,,,&,&&
&&&,&,,,&, who  comes  to close to your sandwich... ,&&,,&&&,,
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