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,,,,,,,,,,         ,,,^^«$# dreams #$«^^,,,         ,,,,,,,,,,
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,,^«;†$¤£#         internal visionary state         #£¤$†;«^,,
,^«;†$¤£##                                          ##£¤$†;«^,
,,^«;†$¤£#            the spirit travels            #£¤$†;«^,,
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,,,,,^«;†$                   ,«,                    $†;«^,,,,,
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,,,,,,,^«;                  a cost                  ;«^,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,^«                (anecdote)                «^,,,,,,,,
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,,,,,,,,,, i  wake  suddenly,  and   for  a  second ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,, everything is completely calm  and  dead ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,, silent.  it's  dark,  and  warm,  and  i ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,, slowly   start  to  piece   together  my ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,,        consciousness and my body.        ,,,,,,,,,,
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,,,,,,,,,, then  the  fear   hits  me  and  i  feel ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,^    acutely sick. something is «wrong«.   ^,,,,,,,,,
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,,,,,^«;†$ there are circles  and crosses inscribed $†;«^,,,,,
,,,,^«;†$¤ all over my  vision, pressing  in, being ¤$†;«^,,,,
,,,^«;†$¤£ almost hostile. i can  feel them squirm, £¤$†;«^,,,
,,^«;†$¤£#     their internal logic changing and    #£¤$†;«^,,
,^«;†$¤£## grinding trenches  in my mind. it's like ##£¤$†;«^,
,,^«;†$¤£# language,  sentences  i can't hide from, #£¤$†;«^,,
,,,^«;†$¤£ forcefully transcribed  in my  mind, and £¤$†;«^,,,
,,,,^«;†$¤           doing damage there.            ¤$†;«^,,,,
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,,,,,,^«;† then  i  realize i can't  hear  anything †;«^,,,,,,
,,,,,,,^«;     because there's something there      ;«^,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,^«    already, droning everything out, a    «^,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,^ rapid  melody,  almost caustic  in  it's ^,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,,        particular microtonality.         ,,,,,,,,,,
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,,,,,,,,,, my surroundings are  entirely calm. it's ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,,              almost mocking.             ,,,,,,,,,,
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,,,,,,,,,, i feel  helpless,  but  i  must  try  to ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,, escape. to crawl on the floor  searching ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,^ relief, such is  my nature.  turning the ^,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,^«    lights on does nothing... getting     «^,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,^«;  outside does nothing... drinking water  ;«^,,,,,,,
,,,,,,^«;† does  noting... but  time  does -  after †;«^,,,,,,
,,,,,^«;†$     thirty seconds i'm normal again,     $†;«^,,,,,
,,,,^«;†$¤ doubting anything  of  this happened  in ¤$†;«^,,,,
,,,^«;†$¤£             the first place.             £¤$†;«^,,,
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,^«;†$¤£## my eyes are still  tense though, scared. ##£¤$†;«^,
,,^«;†$¤£# i    don't   know    what    to    make. #£¤$†;«^,,
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,,,,^«;†$¤              but i'm tired.              ¤$†;«^,,,,
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,,,,,,,,,, this can  happen if you  wander too far, ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,, i guess?  i  shouldn't  be  so  reckless ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,,              when dreaming?              ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,, i imagine a prick  on the  nose,  that's ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,, what these are. like you do with  a  cat ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,, who  comes to close to  your sandwich... ,,,,,,,,,,
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