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@@,@@,@@,@ now,  usually i feel  good (maybe?), but ,,,,@@@@@,
,@@,@@,@@, this  time of  confusion also  leads  to ,,,@,,,,@@
@,@@,@@,@@ all  analyzes  ending  in  "useless" - i ,,@@,,,@,@
@@,@@,@@,, was being  bothered  by  something  in a ,@,@,,@@@,
,@@,@@,@,@ song or  movie or book, so i think,  how @@@@,@,,@@
@,@@,@@@@, would  i  have  done  it,  what  is  the ,,,@@@,@,@
@@,@@,,,@, purpose of  this  process,  what does it ,,@,,@@@@,
,@@,@,,@@, consist of...? and through  the  process ,@@,@,,,@@
@,@@@,@,@, more  and  more pieces falls  off  until @,@@@,,@,@
@@,,@@@@@@     i'm standing there with nothing.     @@,,@,@@@,
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@@@@,,,,@@ reductionist hell -                      @@@,,@,@,@
,,,@,,,@,, i wan't a bottom floor, a concept        ,,@,@@@@@,
,,@@,,@@,, bedrock, but the deeper i go the more    ,@@@,,,,@,
,@,@,@,@,@ abstract they are, the things, until     @,,@,,,@@,
@@@@@@@@@, they cease to be things at all           @,@@,,@,@,
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,,,,,,,@,@ are we just stacked triangles? there is  ,@@@@,,,,@
,,,,,,@@@, nothing i can do with triangles. they    @,,,@,,,@@
,,,,,@,,@, can not shelter me in any meaningful     @,,@@,,@,@
,,,,@@,@@@ sense.                                   @,@,@,@@@@
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,,@@@,@,@, and when i can't even anchor myself,     ,,,,,@,,@@
,@,,@@@@@@ when i am nothing but the question, it   ,,,,@@,@,@
@@,@,,,,,@ feels like it can all slip through my    ,,,@,@@@@@
,@@@,,,,@, fingers... "whoops", and nothing ever    ,,@@@,,,,,
@,,@,,,@@, was after that.                          ,@,,@,,,,,
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