¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨§§                                          §§¨§¨¨§§¨¨
¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨§¨                                          ¨¨§§§¨§¨§¨
¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨§§                                          ¨¨§¨¨§§§§§
§¨¨¨¨¨¨¨§¨                                          §¨§§¨§¨¨¨¨
§§¨¨¨¨¨¨§§                                          ¨§§¨§§§¨¨¨
§¨§¨¨¨¨¨§¨         =†~~~~~...¨  ¨...~~~~~†=         ¨§¨§§¨¨§¨¨
§§§§¨¨¨¨§§         =                      =         §§§§¨§¨§§¨
§¨¨¨§¨¨¨§¨         = MIRAGE CLASS GOTH GF =         ¨¨¨¨§§§§¨§
¨§¨¨§§¨¨§§         =                      =         §¨¨¨§¨¨¨§§
§§§¨§¨§¨§¨         =†~~~~~...¨  ¨...~~~~~†=         ¨§¨¨§§¨¨§¨
§¨¨§§§§§§§                                          §§§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨¨¨¨¨¨                                          ¨¨¨§§§§§§¨
¨§§§§¨¨¨¨¨ I USED TO BE A GOTH, IN MY YOUTH, DOING  ¨¨¨§¨¨¨¨¨§
§§¨¨¨§¨¨¨¨  CRIMES MOSTLY FROM OR IN MY BELOVED AND §¨¨§§¨¨¨¨§
¨¨§¨¨§§¨¨¨  TRUSTED CAR, AND SOMETIMES MY MOTHERS   ¨§¨§¨§¨¨¨§
§¨§§¨§¨§¨¨   BARN. WE LIVED JUST OUTSIDE TOWN, A    ¨§§§§§§¨¨§
¨§§¨§§§§§¨   GROVE AT THE END OF A DIRT ROAD, AND   ¨§¨¨¨¨¨§¨§
§§¨§§¨¨¨¨§   THE BARN WAS PLACED SO YOU COULD JUST  ¨§§¨¨¨¨§§§
¨¨§§¨§¨¨¨§  MAKE OUT THE SURROUNDING FIELDS THROUGH ¨§¨§¨¨¨§¨¨
¨¨§¨§§§¨¨§                THE TREES.                ¨§§§§¨¨§§¨
¨¨§§§¨¨§¨§                                          ¨§¨¨¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨¨§¨§§§   MY CAR WAS BLACK AND LOUD, BOTH THE    §§§¨¨§§§§§
¨§§§¨§§§¨¨    ENGINE AND THE WAY THE PARTS DIDN'T   §¨¨§¨§¨¨¨¨
¨§¨¨§§¨¨§¨     REALLY STICK TOGETHER. I TOOK MY     ¨§¨§§§§¨¨¨
¨§§¨§¨§¨§§ CRIMEFRIEND FOR RIDES, IN THE DARK, THE  §§§§¨¨¨§¨¨
¨§¨§§§§§§¨   ETERNAL DARK THAT SEEMED TO SURROUND   ¨¨¨¨§¨¨§§¨
¨§§§¨¨¨¨¨§   US. SHE SEEMED TO CAST THIS VEIL OVER  §¨¨¨§§¨§¨§
§§¨¨§¨¨¨¨§  EVERYTHING. HER BLACK SKIRT REACHED TO  §§¨¨§¨§§§§
¨¨§¨§§¨¨¨§   HER KNEES BUT THEN SOMEHOW ALSO BACK   ¨¨§¨§§§¨¨¨
¨¨§§§¨§¨¨§   AROUND, ENVELOPING ALL MY MEMORIES OF  §¨§§§¨¨§¨¨
¨¨§¨¨§§§¨§            OUR TIME TOGETHER.            ¨§§¨¨§¨§§¨
¨¨§§¨§¨¨§§                                          §§¨§¨§§§¨§
§¨§¨§§§¨§¨  THERE WAS BLOOD EVERYWHERE. SOMETIMES   §¨§§§§¨¨§§
¨§§§§¨¨§§§   THE BLOOD WAS HER RED LIPSTICK OR HER  ¨§§¨¨¨§¨§¨
¨§¨¨¨§¨§¨¨  CHECKERED SHIRT. SHE WAS ON TELEVISION. ¨§¨§¨¨§§§§
§§§¨¨§§§§¨      WE DID CRIME, AND WE MADE WEIRD     ¨§§§§¨§¨¨¨
§¨¨§¨§¨¨¨§  STRUCTURES IN THE BARN, TALL PILLARS OF §§¨¨¨§§§¨¨
§§¨§§§§¨¨§  DARK WOOD, LADDERS AND PLATEAUS, FIRES  ¨¨§¨¨§¨¨§¨
§¨§§¨¨¨§¨§  AND FAIRY LIGHTS. WE WOULD SLEEP THERE  §¨§§¨§§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨¨§§§ AND DRINK THERE AND SHE WOULD GO IN THE  §§§¨§§¨§§¨
¨§¨§§§¨§¨¨                TELEVISION.               ¨¨¨§§¨§§¨§
§§§§¨¨§§§¨                                          ¨¨¨§¨§§¨§§
¨¨¨¨§¨§¨¨§ AND THEN THE SUN CAME OUT, AND SHE WENT  ¨¨¨§§§¨§§¨
¨¨¨¨§§§§¨§  AWAY. EVERYTHING CHANGED... I YEARNED,  ¨¨¨§¨¨§§¨§
§¨¨¨§¨¨¨§§   AND THE WORLD BECAME DULL AROUND ME.   §¨¨§§¨§¨§§
¨§¨¨§§¨¨§¨                                          ¨§¨§¨§§§§¨
¨§§¨§¨§¨§§    I STOPPED DOING CRIME, EXCEPT WHEN    ¨§§§§§¨¨¨§
§§¨§§§§§§¨  NECESSARRY. THINGS SOMEHOW SEEMED LIKE  §§¨¨¨¨§¨¨§
¨¨§§¨¨¨¨¨§  THEY WERE ALLRIGHT, MOULDED IN PLACE,   ¨¨§¨¨¨§§¨§
§¨§¨§¨¨¨¨§   AND I LOATHED IT ------ I MISSED HER   ¨¨§§¨¨§¨§§
¨§§§§§¨¨¨§                 SO MUCH.                 ¨¨§¨§¨§§§¨
¨§¨¨¨¨§¨¨§                                          §¨§§§§§¨¨§
§§§¨¨¨§§¨§                                          §§§¨¨¨¨§¨§
¨¨¨§¨¨§¨§§            ~~~~~..¨ ¨..~~~~~             §¨¨§¨¨¨§§§
§¨¨§§¨§§§¨                                          §§¨§§¨¨§¨¨
§§¨§¨§§¨¨§                                          ¨¨§§¨§¨§§¨
§¨§§§§¨§¨§  I SEARCHED FOR HER, BUT NOBODY HAD ANY  §¨§¨§§§§¨§
¨§§¨¨¨§§§§    MEMORIES OF HER. NOT SO MUCH OF ME    §§§§§¨¨¨§§
§§¨§¨¨§¨¨¨  EITHER, FROM THE TIME WE WERE TOGETHER. §¨¨¨¨§¨¨§¨
§¨§§§¨§§¨¨  MY MOTHER SAID I KEPT TO MYSELF IN THE  §§¨¨¨§§¨§§
¨§§¨¨§§¨§¨           BARN, OR IN THE CAR.           ¨¨§¨¨§¨§§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§§§                                          ¨¨§§¨§§§¨§
§§§§§§§§¨¨     SOMETIMES I COULD STILL SEE HER      ¨¨§¨§§¨¨§§
¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨§¨    FLASHING BY ON THE TV IN THE BARN.    ¨¨§§§¨§¨§¨
¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨§§     EVERYTHING WAS BLACK THEN, FOR A     ¨¨§¨¨§§§§§
§¨¨¨¨¨¨¨§¨  MOMENT. I REMEMBERED HER LAUGH AND KNEW §¨§§¨§¨¨¨¨
§§¨¨¨¨¨¨§§   WE HAD DONE CRIMES TOGETHER, THAT IT   ¨§§¨§§§¨¨¨
§¨§¨¨¨¨¨§¨             HAD BEEN REAL...             ¨§¨§§¨¨§¨¨
§§§§¨¨¨¨§§                                          §§§§¨§¨§§¨
§¨¨¨§¨¨¨§¨                                          ¨¨¨¨§§§§¨§
¨§¨¨§§¨¨§§             ~~~~~..¨ ¨..~~~~~            §¨¨¨§¨¨¨§§
§§§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          ¨§¨¨§§¨¨§¨
§¨¨§§§§§§§                                          §§§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨¨¨¨¨¨    I DIED BY GETTING SHOT IN THE HEAD    ¨¨¨§§§§§§¨
¨§§§§¨¨¨¨¨  WHILE RAMMING THE FENCE TO A MILITARY   ¨¨¨§¨¨¨¨¨§
§§¨¨¨§¨¨¨¨   FACILITY. BY THIS TIME THEY HAD BEEN   §¨¨§§¨¨¨¨§
¨¨§¨¨§§¨¨¨    CHASING ME FOR DAYS. I LOST CONTROL   ¨§¨§¨§¨¨¨§
§¨§§¨§¨§¨¨   OVER THE CAR, CRASHED IT INTO A ROCK   ¨§§§§§§¨¨§
¨§§¨§§§§§¨    WALL AND FLEW OUT THE WINDSHIELD.     ¨§¨¨¨¨¨§¨§
§§¨§§¨¨¨¨§                                          ¨§§¨¨¨¨§§§
¨¨§§¨§¨¨¨§  AND THEN I GOT UP, AND LOOKED AROUND.   ¨§¨§¨¨¨§¨¨
¨¨§¨§§§¨¨§   IT WAS DARK, WHERE IT PREVIOUSLY HAD   ¨§§§§¨¨§§¨
¨¨§§§¨¨§¨§    BEEN A BRIGHT DAY. AROUND ME WHERE    ¨§¨¨¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨¨§¨§§§   DOZENS OF CRASHED CARS, ALL MY CAR,    §§§¨¨§§§§§
¨§§§¨§§§¨¨              SOME ON FIRE.               §¨¨§¨§¨¨¨¨
¨§¨¨§§¨¨§¨                                          ¨§¨§§§§¨¨¨
¨§§¨§¨§¨§§        THE GROUND WAS STICKY, RED.       §§§§¨¨¨§¨¨
¨§¨§§§§§§¨                                          ¨¨¨¨§¨¨§§¨
¨§§§¨¨¨¨¨§   AND THEN I REALIZED THAT I KNEW THIS   §¨¨¨§§¨§¨§
§§¨¨§¨¨¨¨§     DARKNESS. I KNEW THE WAY THE SKY     §§¨¨§¨§§§§
¨¨§¨§§¨¨¨§ TOUCHED THE GROUND. THIS WAS HER DOING!  ¨¨§¨§§§¨¨¨
¨¨§§§¨§¨¨§               SHE WAS HERE!              §¨§§§¨¨§¨¨
¨¨§¨¨§§§¨§                                          ¨§§¨¨§¨§§¨
¨¨§§¨§¨¨§§                                          §§¨§¨§§§¨§
§¨§¨§§§¨§¨                                          §¨§§§§¨¨§§
¨§§§§¨¨§§§                                          ¨§§¨¨¨§¨§¨
¨§¨¨¨§¨§¨¨                                          ¨§¨§¨¨§§§§