when  i was  in eight  grade i decided i 
 was dead. my spirit  had  left my  body, 
             never to return.             
                                          
 i remember sitting  in my parents car on 
 a cloudy,  watery  day, getting  a  ride 
 somewhere.  it felt  like i  had  solved 
 some  great   puzzle.   i've  solved  no 
           puzzles since then.            
                                          
  instead, i've been mindlessly piloting  
 this body around.  i still give it life, 
 somehow. like  a golem, and i try not to 
 care  too  much,  but   i  do.   it's  a 
   contaminated golem, this one. purity   
 clouded  by  my echo.  afterglow  of  my 
                  spirit.