when i was  in eight grade i  decided  i 
 was dead. my  spirit had  left  my body, 
             never to return.             
                                          
 i remember sitting  in my parents car on 
 a cloudy,  watery  day,  getting  a ride 
 somewhere.  it felt  like  i had  solved 
 some   great   puzzle.  i've  solved  no 
            puzzles since then.           
                                          
  instead, i've been mindlessly piloting  
 this body around. i still give it  life, 
 somehow. like a  golem, and i try not to 
 care  too  much,  but  i  do.   it's   a 
   contaminated golem, this one. purity   
 clouded by  my  echo.  afterglow  of  my 
                 spirit.