when  i was in eight  grade  i decided i 
 was dead. my spirit  had left  my  body, 
             never to return.             
                                          
 i remember sitting in my parents car  on 
 a  cloudy,  watery day,  getting  a ride 
 somewhere.  it  felt  like  i had solved 
 some  great  puzzle.  i've   solved   no 
           puzzles since then.            
                                          
  instead, i've been mindlessly piloting  
 this body  around. i still give it life, 
 somehow. like a golem, and i  try not to 
 care  too   much,  but   i  do.  it's  a 
   contaminated golem, this one. purity   
 clouded  by  my  echo. afterglow  of  my 
                 spirit.