EH                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   WAS   THINKING    TO   STOP    DOING 
 HALLUCINOGENS  IN  THE  WINTER BECAUSE I 
 DO NOT  KNOW HOW  USEFUL  THEY HAVE BEEN 
 ANYWAY?  I GET  SO  TENSE  WHEN  I  TAKE 
 THEM, THE  LAST FEW  TIMES AT LEAST, AND 
 THERE ARE PLENTY OF SIDE  EFFECTS THAT I 
 REALLY DO  NOT LIKE,  AND  THERE WILL BE 
   ASSOCIATIONS WITH THESE MINI-ANXIETY   
 ATTACKS  WITH   RANDOM   THINGS  THAT  I 
 HAPPEN  TO  SEE...  FOR  EXAMPLE, FOR  A 
 LONG  TIME  I COULD  NOT SEE  A  CERTAIN 
 KIND  OF  LEAF  WITHOUT GETTING  ANXIOUS 
 ... AND I SHOULD AVOID TO RUIN  ALL  THE 
             SEASONS THIS WAY.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
    HMM, RECENTLY MY VISUAL PHENOMENA     
 INCREASED  OR AT LEAST  THE BURN-INS  IN 
 THE  EYES,   AND   SOMETIMES   STUFF  IS 
 BREATHING   NOW,  THEY  DID  NOT  DO  IT 
 BEFORE. BUT MAYBE  I JUST DRANK TOO MUCH 
 COFFEE. MAYBE I'M SCARED  AND MAKING ALL 
             THESE THINGS UP.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IT  COMES TO  ME  SOMETIMES  THAT  SHIT, 
 WHAT  A LOAD OF  CONCEPTS THIS "REALITY" 
 CONSISTS OF,  AND  HOW  VAGUE  THEY  ARE 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IF I  DO  NOT  SLEEP  FOR  ABOUT  TWENTY 
 HOURS, IT WILL NO LONGER BE  DARK WHEN I 
 CLOSE  MY  EYES,   NOT  ACTUALLY   CEV'S 
 THOUGH, RATHER  JUST  FIELDS AND MOTION. 
 NOW AND THEN I HEAR  THIS  SOUND (A REAL 
    SOUND (I THINK)), RESEMBLING SOME     
  "KNERP" FROM TWENTYFIVE C NBOME OR SO.  
 AND IT IS  ALWAYS UNPLEASANT,  I  BECOME 
 SO STRESSFUL,  BUT I THINK IT  HAS TO DO 
         WITH THE NOVELTY. I HOPE.