when i was in eight  grade  i  decided i 
 was dead.  my  spirit had left my  body, 
             never to return.             
                                          
 i remember sitting in  my parents car on 
 a cloudy, watery  day,  getting  a  ride 
 somewhere.  it felt  like  i had  solved 
 some  great  puzzle.   i've   solved  no 
            puzzles since then.           
                                          
  instead, i've been mindlessly piloting  
 this body  around. i still give it life, 
 somehow. like a golem,  and i try not to 
 care  too   much,   but  i  do.  it's  a 
   contaminated golem, this one. purity   
 clouded  by  my echo.  afterglow  of  my 
                  spirit.