when  i was in  eight grade  i decided i 
 was  dead. my  spirit had left  my body, 
             never to return.             
                                          
 i remember sitting in my parents car  on 
 a  cloudy,  watery day, getting  a  ride 
 somewhere. it felt  like  i  had  solved 
 some   great  puzzle.  i've   solved  no 
            puzzles since then.           
                                          
  instead, i've been mindlessly piloting  
 this body  around. i still give it life, 
 somehow. like a golem, and  i try not to 
 care  too  much,   but  i  do.  it's   a 
   contaminated golem, this one. purity   
 clouded  by  my  echo. afterglow  of  my 
                  spirit.