when i  was in eight grade i  decided  i 
 was dead.  my  spirit had left my  body, 
             never to return.             
                                          
 i remember sitting in my parents  car on 
 a  cloudy,  watery  day,  getting a ride 
 somewhere.  it  felt  like  i had solved 
 some   great  puzzle.  i've  solved   no 
           puzzles since then.            
                                          
  instead, i've been mindlessly piloting  
 this body around. i still  give it life, 
 somehow. like a golem, and i try  not to 
 care  too  much,  but  i  do.   it's   a 
   contaminated golem, this one. purity   
 clouded  by  my echo.  afterglow  of  my 
                 spirit.