when  i was in eight grade  i decided  i 
 was dead.  my  spirit  had left my body, 
             never to return.             
                                          
 i remember sitting in my  parents car on 
 a cloudy,  watery  day,  getting  a ride 
 somewhere.  it  felt  like  i had solved 
 some   great  puzzle.   i've  solved  no 
           puzzles since then.            
                                          
  instead, i've been mindlessly piloting  
 this body around. i  still give it life, 
 somehow. like a golem,  and i try not to 
 care  too  much,  but   i  do.   it's  a 
   contaminated golem, this one. purity   
 clouded by  my  echo.  afterglow  of  my 
                 spirit.