when  i was in  eight grade i decided  i 
 was  dead. my  spirit  had left my body, 
             never to return.             
                                          
 i  remember sitting in my parents car on 
 a  cloudy, watery  day, getting  a  ride 
 somewhere.  it  felt  like  i had solved 
 some   great   puzzle.  i've  solved  no 
           puzzles since then.            
                                          
  instead, i've been mindlessly piloting  
 this body around. i still give  it life, 
 somehow. like  a golem, and i try not to 
 care  too  much,  but  i   do.   it's  a 
   contaminated golem, this one. purity   
 clouded  by  my  echo.  afterglow of  my 
                  spirit.