when  i was in  eight grade i  decided i 
 was dead.  my spirit had  left  my body, 
             never to return.             
                                          
 i  remember sitting in my parents car on 
 a  cloudy, watery  day,  getting a  ride 
 somewhere.  it  felt  like i had  solved 
 some   great  puzzle.  i've  solved   no 
            puzzles since then.           
                                          
  instead, i've been mindlessly piloting  
 this body around. i still give it  life, 
 somehow. like a golem, and  i try not to 
 care   too  much,  but  i   do.  it's  a 
   contaminated golem, this one. purity   
 clouded  by my  echo.  afterglow  of  my 
                 spirit.