now, usually  i feel good (maybe?),  but 
 this time  of  confusion also  leads  to 
 all analyzes  ending  in "useless"  -  i 
 was  being bothered  by  something in  a 
 song or  movie or book, so  i think, how 
 would  i  have  done  it,  what  is  the 
 purpose of this process,  what  does  it 
 consist of...?  and through  the process 
 more and more  pieces  falls  off  until 
     i'm standing there with nothing.     
                                          
 reductionist hell -                      
 i wan't a bottom floor, a concept        
 bedrock, but the deeper i go the more    
 abstract they are, the things, until     
 they cease to be things at all           
                                          
 are we just stacked triangles? there is  
 nothing i can do with triangles. they    
 can not shelter me in any meaningful     
 sense.                                   
                                          
 and when i can't even anchor myself,     
 when i am nothing but the question, it   
 feels like it can all slip through my    
 fingers... "whoops", and nothing ever    
 was after that.