when i  was in eight  grade i decided  i 
 was dead.  my spirit  had left my  body, 
             never to return.             
                                          
 i remember sitting  in my parents car on 
 a cloudy,  watery  day,  getting a  ride 
 somewhere.  it  felt  like i had  solved 
 some   great   puzzle.  i've  solved  no 
            puzzles since then.           
                                          
  instead, i've been mindlessly piloting  
 this body around.  i still give it life, 
 somehow. like a golem, and i try  not to 
 care   too  much,   but  i  do.  it's  a 
   contaminated golem, this one. purity   
 clouded  by my  echo.  afterglow  of  my 
                 spirit.