when i  was in eight  grade i  decided i 
 was dead.  my spirit  had left  my body, 
             never to return.             
                                          
 i remember sitting in my parents  car on 
 a cloudy, watery  day,  getting  a  ride 
 somewhere. it  felt  like  i had  solved 
 some  great   puzzle.   i've  solved  no 
           puzzles since then.            
                                          
  instead, i've been mindlessly piloting  
 this body around. i still give it  life, 
 somehow. like a golem, and i try  not to 
 care   too  much,   but  i  do.  it's  a 
   contaminated golem, this one. purity   
 clouded by  my  echo.  afterglow  of  my 
                  spirit.