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¨§§¨¨¨¨§§¨                                          ¨§¨¨§§¨§¨§
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¨§§¨¨§§¨§¨                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
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¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨         $ MIRAGE CLASS GOTH GF $         ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
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¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨  I USED TO BE A GOTH, IN MY YOUTH, DOING ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨  CRIMES MOSTLY FROM OR IN MY BELOVED AND ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨   TRUSTED CAR, AND SOMETIMES MY MOTHERS  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨    BARN. WE LIVED JUST OUTSIDE TOWN, A   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨   GROVE AT THE END OF A DIRT ROAD, AND   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨  THE BARN WAS PLACED SO YOU COULD JUST   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨ MAKE OUT THE SURROUNDING FIELDS THROUGH  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨                THE TREES.                ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨   MY CAR WAS BLACK AND LOUD, BOTH THE    ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨   ENGINE AND THE WAY THE PARTS DIDN'T    ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨     REALLY STICK TOGETHER. I TOOK MY     ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨  CRIMEFRIEND FOR RIDES, IN THE DARK, THE ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨   ETERNAL DARK THAT SEEMED TO SURROUND   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨   US. SHE SEEMED TO CAST THIS VEIL OVER  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨  EVERYTHING. HER BLACK SKIRT REACHED TO  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨   HER KNEES BUT THEN SOMEHOW ALSO BACK   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨   AROUND, ENVELOPING ALL MY MEMORIES OF  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨            OUR TIME TOGETHER.            ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨  THERE WAS BLOOD EVERYWHERE. SOMETIMES   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨  THE BLOOD WAS HER RED LIPSTICK OR HER   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨  CHECKERED SHIRT. SHE WAS ON TELEVISION. ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨      WE DID CRIME, AND WE MADE WEIRD     ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨ STRUCTURES IN THE BARN, TALL PILLARS OF  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨  DARK WOOD, LADDERS AND PLATEAUS, FIRES  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨  AND FAIRY LIGHTS. WE WOULD SLEEP THERE  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨  AND DRINK THERE AND SHE WOULD GO IN THE ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨                TELEVISION.               ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨ AND THEN THE SUN CAME OUT, AND SHE WENT  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨  AWAY. EVERYTHING CHANGED... I YEARNED,  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨   AND THE WORLD BECAME DULL AROUND ME.   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨    I STOPPED DOING CRIME, EXCEPT WHEN    ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨  NECESSARRY. THINGS SOMEHOW SEEMED LIKE  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨   THEY WERE ALLRIGHT, MOULDED IN PLACE,  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨   AND I LOATHED IT ------ I MISSED HER   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨                 SO MUCH.                 ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨             »»»»»::¨ ¨::»»»»»            ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨  I SEARCHED FOR HER, BUT NOBODY HAD ANY  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨    MEMORIES OF HER. NOT SO MUCH OF ME    ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨  EITHER, FROM THE TIME WE WERE TOGETHER. ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨  MY MOTHER SAID I KEPT TO MYSELF IN THE  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨           BARN, OR IN THE CAR.           ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨      SOMETIMES I COULD STILL SEE HER     ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨    FLASHING BY ON THE TV IN THE BARN.    ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨     EVERYTHING WAS BLACK THEN, FOR A     ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨ MOMENT. I REMEMBERED HER LAUGH AND KNEW  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨   WE HAD DONE CRIMES TOGETHER, THAT IT   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨             HAD BEEN REAL...             ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨             »»»»»::¨ ¨::»»»»»            ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨    I DIED BY GETTING SHOT IN THE HEAD    ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨  WHILE RAMMING THE FENCE TO A MILITARY   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨   FACILITY. BY THIS TIME THEY HAD BEEN   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨   CHASING ME FOR DAYS. I LOST CONTROL    ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨   OVER THE CAR, CRASHED IT INTO A ROCK   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨    WALL AND FLEW OUT THE WINDSHIELD.     ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨   AND THEN I GOT UP, AND LOOKED AROUND.  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨   IT WAS DARK, WHERE IT PREVIOUSLY HAD   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨    BEEN A BRIGHT DAY. AROUND ME WHERE    ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨    DOZENS OF CRASHED CARS, ALL MY CAR,   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨              SOME ON FIRE.               ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨        THE GROUND WAS STICKY, RED.       ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨   AND THEN I REALIZED THAT I KNEW THIS   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨     DARKNESS. I KNEW THE WAY THE SKY     ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨  TOUCHED THE GROUND. THIS WAS HER DOING! ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨              SHE WAS HERE!               ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§