when i  was  in eight grade i decided  i 
 was dead.  my spirit had  left  my body, 
             never to return.             
                                          
 i remember sitting in  my parents car on 
 a  cloudy,  watery  day, getting  a ride 
 somewhere. it  felt like  i  had  solved 
 some  great  puzzle.   i've  solved   no 
           puzzles since then.            
                                          
  instead, i've been mindlessly piloting  
 this body  around. i still give it life, 
 somehow. like a golem, and i  try not to 
 care  too  much,   but  i   do.  it's  a 
   contaminated golem, this one. purity   
 clouded  by  my  echo.  afterglow of  my 
                  spirit.