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&$$§;««... I USED TO BE A GOTH, IN MY YOUTH, DOING ...««;§$$&
###&$§;«,. CRIMES MOSTLY FROM OR IN MY BELOVED AND .,«;§$&###
#$§;;;«,.. TRUSTED CAR, AND SOMETIMES MY MOTHERS ..,«;;;§$#
###&$§;«,. BARN. WE LIVED JUST OUTSIDE TOWN, A .,«;§$&###
###&$§;«,. GROVE AT THE END OF A DIRT ROAD, AND .,«;§$&###
&$$;;;««,. THE BARN WAS PLACED SO YOU COULD JUST .,««;;;$$&
##$$;«,... MAKE OUT THE SURROUNDING FIELDS THROUGH ...,«;$$##
###&$§;«,. THE TREES. .,«;§$&###
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###&$§;«,. MY CAR WAS BLACK AND LOUD, BOTH THE .,«;§$&###
#$$;,,.... ENGINE AND THE WAY THE PARTS DIDN'T ....,,;$$#
###&$§;«,. REALLY STICK TOGETHER. I TOOK MY .,«;§$&###
#$§§«..... CRIMEFRIEND FOR RIDES, IN THE DARK, THE .....«§§$#
###&$§;«,. ETERNAL DARK THAT SEEMED TO SURROUND .,«;§$&###
&§;,...... US. SHE SEEMED TO CAST THIS VEIL OVER ......,;§&
###&$§;«,. EVERYTHING. HER BLACK SKIRT REACHED TO .,«;§$&###
###&$§;«,. HER KNEES BUT THEN SOMEHOW ALSO BACK .,«;§$&###
###&$§;«,. AROUND, ENVELOPING ALL MY MEMORIES OF .,«;§$&###
####$§;«,. OUR TIME TOGETHER. .,«;§$####
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####&§;«,. THERE WAS BLOOD EVERYWHERE. SOMETIMES .,«;§&####
&$§;««««,. THE BLOOD WAS HER RED LIPSTICK OR HER .,««««;§$&
###&$§;«,. CHECKERED SHIRT. SHE WAS ON TELEVISION. .,«;§$&###
##&§«««... WE DID CRIME, AND WE MADE WEIRD ...«««§&##
&§;;;«,... STRUCTURES IN THE BARN, TALL PILLARS OF ...,«;;;§&
###&$§;«,. DARK WOOD, LADDERS AND PLATEAUS, FIRES .,«;§$&###
#$$;;,,... AND FAIRY LIGHTS. WE WOULD SLEEP THERE ...,,;;$$#
&$§;;;«... AND DRINK THERE AND SHE WOULD GO IN THE ...«;;;§$&
&$§;,..... TELEVISION. .....,;§$&
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#$§«,,,... AND THEN THE SUN CAME OUT, AND SHE WENT ...,,,«§$#
#$;;,..... AWAY. EVERYTHING CHANGED... I YEARNED, .....,;;$#
#&§§§«.... AND THE WORLD BECAME DULL AROUND ME. ....«§§§&#
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&$§«...... I STOPPED DOING CRIME, EXCEPT WHEN ......«§$&
###&$§;«,. NECESSARRY. THINGS SOMEHOW SEEMED LIKE .,«;§$&###
###&$§;«,. THEY WERE ALLRIGHT, MOULDED IN PLACE, .,«;§$&###
&&&$;;,,.. AND I LOATHED IT ------ I MISSED HER ..,,;;$&&&
###&$§;«,. SO MUCH. .,«;§$&###
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###&$§;«,. I SEARCHED FOR HER, BUT NOBODY HAD ANY .,«;§$&###
&&§;,..... MEMORIES OF HER. NOT SO MUCH OF ME .....,;§&&
#&§;,..... EITHER, FROM THE TIME WE WERE TOGETHER. .....,;§&#
###&$§;«,. MY MOTHER SAID I KEPT TO MYSELF IN THE .,«;§$&###
###&$§;«,. BARN, OR IN THE CAR. .,«;§$&###
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#$;,,,.... SOMETIMES I COULD STILL SEE HER ....,,,;$#
#$§«««««,. FLASHING BY ON THE TV IN THE BARN. .,«««««§$#
#&&&$§;«,. EVERYTHING WAS BLACK THEN, FOR A .,«;§$&&&#
###&$§;«,. MOMENT. I REMEMBERED HER LAUGH AND KNEW .,«;§$&###
###&$§;«,. WE HAD DONE CRIMES TOGETHER, THAT IT .,«;§$&###
###&$§;«,. HAD BEEN REAL... .,«;§$&###
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###&$§;«,. I DIED BY GETTING SHOT IN THE HEAD .,«;§$&###
###&$§;«,. WHILE RAMMING THE FENCE TO A MILITARY .,«;§$&###
###&$§;«,. FACILITY. BY THIS TIME THEY HAD BEEN .,«;§$&###
###&$§;«,. CHASING ME FOR DAYS. I LOST CONTROL .,«;§$&###
###&$§;«,. OVER THE CAR, CRASHED IT INTO A ROCK .,«;§$&###
#&§§««,... WALL AND FLEW OUT THE WINDSHIELD. ...,««§§&#
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###&$§;«,. AND THEN I GOT UP, AND LOOKED AROUND. .,«;§$&###
###&$§;«,. IT WAS DARK, WHERE IT PREVIOUSLY HAD .,«;§$&###
###&$§;«,. BEEN A BRIGHT DAY. AROUND ME WHERE .,«;§$&###
#$;;«,,... DOZENS OF CRASHED CARS, ALL MY CAR, ...,,«;;$#
####$§;«,. SOME ON FIRE. .,«;§$####
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&$§;,..... THE GROUND WAS STICKY, RED. .....,;§$&
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#$$;,..... AND THEN I REALIZED THAT I KNEW THIS .....,;$$#
&$$;;,.... DARKNESS. I KNEW THE WAY THE SKY ....,;;$$&
###&$§;«,. TOUCHED THE GROUND. THIS WAS HER DOING! .,«;§$&###
&&$;,..... SHE WAS HERE! .....,;$&&
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