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,,,,,,.«**         * mirage class goth gf *         **«.,,,,,,
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,.«**£@### i used to be a goth, in my youth, doing  ###@£**«.,
,,.«**£@##  crimes mostly from or in my beloved and ##@£**«.,,
,,,.«**£@#  trusted car, and sometimes my mothers   #@£**«.,,,
,,,,.«**£@    barn. we lived just outside town, a   @£**«.,,,,
,,,,,.«**£   grove at the end of a dirt road, and   £**«.,,,,,
,,,,,,.«**   the barn was placed so you could just  **«.,,,,,,
,,,,,,,.«* make out the surrounding fields through  *«.,,,,,,,
,,,,,,.«**                the trees.                **«.,,,,,,
,,,,,.«**£                                          £**«.,,,,,
,,,,.«**£@    my car was black and loud, both the   @£**«.,,,,
,,,.«**£@#   engine and the way the parts didn't    #@£**«.,,,
,,.«**£@##     really stick together. i took my     ##@£**«.,,
,.«**£@### crimefriend for rides, in the dark, the  ###@£**«.,
,,.«**£@##   eternal dark that seemed to surround   ##@£**«.,,
,,,.«**£@#   us. she seemed to cast this veil over  #@£**«.,,,
,,,,.«**£@  everything. her black skirt reached to  @£**«.,,,,
,,,,,.«**£   her knees but then somehow also back   £**«.,,,,,
,,,,,,.«**   around, enveloping all my memories of  **«.,,,,,,
,,,,,,,.«*            our time together.            *«.,,,,,,,
,,,,,,.«**                                          **«.,,,,,,
,,,,,.«**£   there was blood everywhere. sometimes  £**«.,,,,,
,,,,.«**£@   the blood was her red lipstick or her  @£**«.,,,,
,,,.«**£@#  checkered shirt. she was on television. #@£**«.,,,
,,.«**£@##     we did crime, and we made weird      ##@£**«.,,
,.«**£@### structures in the barn, tall pillars of  ###@£**«.,
,,.«**£@##  dark wood, ladders and plateaus, fires  ##@£**«.,,
,,,.«**£@#  and fairy lights. we would sleep there  #@£**«.,,,
,,,,.«**£@ and drink there and she would go in the  @£**«.,,,,
,,,,,.«**£               television.                £**«.,,,,,
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,,,,,,,.«* and then the sun came out, and she went  *«.,,,,,,,
,,,,,,.«**  away. everything changed... i yearned,  **«.,,,,,,
,,,,,.«**£   and the world became dull around me.   £**«.,,,,,
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,,,.«**£@#    i stopped doing crime, except when    #@£**«.,,,
,,.«**£@##  necessarry. things somehow seemed like  ##@£**«.,,
,.«**£@###   they were allright, moulded in place,  ###@£**«.,
,,.«**£@##   and i loathed it ------ i missed her   ##@£**«.,,
,,,.«**£@#                 so much.                 #@£**«.,,,
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,,,,,.«**£  i searched for her, but nobody had any  £**«.,,,,,
,,,,.«**£@    memories of her. not so much of me    @£**«.,,,,
,,,.«**£@#  either, from the time we were together. #@£**«.,,,
,,.«**£@##  my mother said i kept to myself in the  ##@£**«.,,
,.«**£@###           barn, or in the car.           ###@£**«.,
,,.«**£@##                                          ##@£**«.,,
,,,.«**£@#      sometimes i could still see her     #@£**«.,,,
,,,,.«**£@    flashing by on the tv in the barn.    @£**«.,,,,
,,,,,.«**£     everything was black then, for a     £**«.,,,,,
,,,,,,.«**  moment. i remembered her laugh and knew **«.,,,,,,
,,,,,,,.«*   we had done crimes together, that it   *«.,,,,,,,
,,,,,,.«**             had been real...             **«.,,,,,,
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,,.«**£@##    i died by getting shot in the head    ##@£**«.,,
,,,.«**£@#  while ramming the fence to a military   #@£**«.,,,
,,,,.«**£@   facility. by this time they had been   @£**«.,,,,
,,,,,.«**£    chasing me for days. i lost control   £**«.,,,,,
,,,,,,.«**   over the car, crashed it into a rock   **«.,,,,,,
,,,,,,,.«*     wall and flew out the windshield.    *«.,,,,,,,
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,,,,,.«**£  and then i got up, and looked around.   £**«.,,,,,
,,,,.«**£@   it was dark, where it previously had   @£**«.,,,,
,,,.«**£@#    been a bright day. around me where    #@£**«.,,,
,,.«**£@##    dozens of crashed cars, all my car,   ##@£**«.,,
,.«**£@###               some on fire.              ###@£**«.,
,,.«**£@##                                          ##@£**«.,,
,,,.«**£@#       the ground was sticky, red.        #@£**«.,,,
,,,,.«**£@                                          @£**«.,,,,
,,,,,.«**£   and then i realized that i knew this   £**«.,,,,,
,,,,,,.«**     darkness. i knew the way the sky     **«.,,,,,,
,,,,,,,.«* touched the ground. this was her doing!  *«.,,,,,,,
,,,,,,.«**               she was here!              **«.,,,,,,
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