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,&&,,,,&&&                 ,$&###&$,                ,,,,,,,,,&
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&,&,,&,&,&         internal visionary state         &,&,,,,,,&
,&&&,&&&&&                                          &&&&,,,,,&
&&,,&&,,,,            the spirit travels            &,,,&,,,,&
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,,&&&,,,&,                  a cost                  ,,,&,,,,&,
,,&,,&,,&&                (anecdote)                ,,,&&,,,&&
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,,,&&,&&,,                                          &,&&,,,&&,
,,,&,&&,&, i  wake   suddenly,  and  for  a  second &&&,&,,&,&
&,,&&&,&&& everything is  completely  calm and dead ,,,&&&,&&&
,&,&,,&&,, silent.  it's  dark,  and  warm,  and  i ,,,&,,&&,,
,&&&&,&,&, slowly  start  to   piece  together   my &,,&&,&,&,
,&,,,&&&&&        consciousness and my body.        &&,&,&&&&&
&&&,,&,,,,                                          &,&&&&,,,,
&,,&,&&,,, then  the   fear  hits  me  and  i  feel ,&&,,,&,,,
&&,&&&,&,,    acutely sick. something is «wrong«.   &&,&,,&&,,
&,&&,,&&&,                                          ,,&&&,&,&,
&&&,&,&,,&                    ,,                    &,&,,&&&&&
,,,&&&&&,&                                          ,&&&,&,,,,
,,,&,,,,&& there  are circles and crosses inscribed ,&,,&&&,,,
,,,&&,,,&, all over my vision,  pressing in,  being ,&&,&,,&,,
,,,&,&,,&& almost hostile. i can feel them  squirm, ,&,&&&,&&,
,,,&&&&,&,     their internal logic changing and    &&&&,,&&,&
&,,&,,,&&& grinding trenches in  my mind. it's like &,,,&,&,&&
,&,&&,,&,, language,  sentences i can't hide  from, ,&,,&&&&&,
,&&&,&,&&, forcefully transcribed  in  my mind, and &&&,&,,,,&
&&,,&&&&,&           doing damage there.            &,,&&&,,,&
,,&,&,,,&&                                          &&,&,,&,,&
&,&&&&,,&, then  i realize  i  can't  hear anything &,&&&,&&,&
,&&,,,&,&&     because there's something there      &&&,,&&,&&
&&,&,,&&&,    already, droning everything out, a    ,,,&,&,&&,
&,&&&,&,,& rapid  melody,  almost  caustic in  it's ,,,&&&&&,&
,&&,,&&&,&         particular microtonality.        ,,,&,,,,&&
&&,&,&,,&&                                          ,,,&&,,,&,
&,&&&&&,&,                    ,,                    &,,&,&,,&&
,&&,,,,&&&                                          ,&,&&&&,&,
,&,&,,,&,, my surroundings are entirely calm.  it's &&&&,,,&&&
&&&&&,,&&,              almost mocking.             ,,,,&,,&,,
&,,,,&,&,&                                          ,,,,&&,&&,
&&,,,&&&&& i  feel  helpless,  but i  must  try  to &,,,&,&&,&
,,&,,&,,,, escape. to crawl on the floor  searching ,&,,&&&,&&
&,&&,&&,,, relief,  such is  my nature. turning the &&&,&,,&&,
&&&,&&,&,,    lights on does nothing... getting     ,,,&&&,&,&
,,,&&,&&&,  outside does nothing... drinking water  ,,,&,,&&&&
&,,&,&&,,& does  noting...  but time  does  - after &,,&&,&,,,
&&,&&&,&,&     thirty seconds i'm normal again,     &&,&,&&&,,
&,&&,,&&&& doubting anything  of  this  happened in ,,&&&&,,&,
&&&,&,&,,,             the first place.             &,&,,,&,&&
,,,&&&&&,,                                          &&&&,,&&&,
,,,&,,,,&, my eyes  are still tense though, scared. ,,,,&,&,,&
&,,&&,,,&& i    don't   know    what    to    make. ,,,,&&&&,&
,&,&,&,,&,                                          &,,,&,,,&&
&&&&&&&,&&              but i'm tired.              &&,,&&,,&,
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,&&,,,,&&&                  ,,«\«,,                 ,,,,,,,,,&
&&,&,,,&,,                     ,                    &,,,,,,,,&
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&,&,,&,&,& this can happen  if  you wander too far, &,&,,,,,,&
,&&&,&&&&& i  guess? i  shouldn't  be  so  reckless &&&&,,,,,&
&&,,&&,,,,              when dreaming?              &,,,&,,,,&
,,&,&,&,,, i imagine a  prick on  the nose,  that's &&,,&&,,,&
&,&&&&&&,, what these are. like you  do with  a cat ,,&,&,&,,&
,&&,,,,,&, who comes to  close to your  sandwich... &,&&&&&&,&
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