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,@@,,,@@@, now,  usually i  feel good (maybe?), but ,@,,,,,,,@
,@@@,,@,@@ this  time of  confusion  also  leads to ,,@,,,,,,,
,@,@@,,,@@ all  analyzes  ending in  "useless" -  i ,,,@,,,,,,
,,,@@@,,@, was being  bothered  by  something  in a @,,,@,,,,,
,,,@,@@,,, song or movie or  book,  so i think, how @@,,,@,,,,
,,,,,@@@,, would  i  have  done  it,  what  is  the @@@,,,@,,,
,,,,,@,@@, purpose of  this  process, what does  it @,@@,,,@,,
,,,,,,,@@@ consist of...? and  through the  process ,,@@@,,,@,
,,,,,,,@,@ more  and  more pieces falls  off  until ,,@,@@,,,@
@,,,,,,,,@     i'm standing there with nothing.     ,,,,@@@,,,
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,,@,,,,,,, reductionist hell -                      ,,,,,,@@@,
,,,@,,,,,, i wan't a bottom floor, a concept        ,,,,,,@,@@
@,,,@,,,,, bedrock, but the deeper i go the more    @,,,,,,,@@
@@,,,@,,,, abstract they are, the things, until     ,@,,,,,,@,
@@@,,,@,,, they cease to be things at all           ,,@,,,,,,,
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,,@@@,,,@, are we just stacked triangles? there is  ,@,,@,,,,,
,,@,@@,,,@ nothing i can do with triangles. they    ,,@,,@,,,,
,,,,@@@,,, can not shelter me in any meaningful     ,,,@,,@,,,
,,,,@,@@,, sense.                                   ,,,,@,,@,,
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,,,,,,@,@@ and when i can't even anchor myself,     ,@,,,,@,,@
@,,,,,,,@@ when i am nothing but the question, it   ,,@,,,,@,,
,@,,,,,,@, feels like it can all slip through my    ,,,@,,,,@,
,,@,,,,,,, fingers... "whoops", and nothing ever    ,,,,@,,,,@
@,,@,,,,,, was after that.                          ,,,,,@,,,,
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