party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off,  shower  curtains drawn. floor full 
 of dirty clothes, of  garbage, and as  i 
 start to unzip my  pants, she steps  out 
 of  the   shower   and  pushes   me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish   to  be  contacted   by   some 
 [god, alien]  who would  bestow upon  me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything  right forever. what i  don't 
 know  is   that  this  happens  multiple 
 times  per  second - they ask  me: "when 
 you  said the  world egg  was your ideal 
 body type,  did you  mean it"?  i answer 
 "not really, but i can act  like  it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory  of the encounter  and  moved on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom