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&,,&,,&,,,         ,,,,,-£@ dreams @£-,,,,,         &,,,&&&,&,
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,&&&,&,&&&                    ,,,                   &,&&,,&&&&
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&,&,&,,,&,         internal visionary state         ,&,&&&&&,,
&&&&&&,,&&                                          ,&&&,,,,&,
&,,,,,&,&,            the spirit travels            ,&,,&,,,&&
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,&&,,,&,,,             ,,^£@@####@@£^,,             ,,,&&,&,&&
&&,&,,&&,,                   ,-,                    ,,,&,&&&&,
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,&&,,&&&&&                  a cost                  ,&,&,,&,,&
&&,&,&,,,,                (anecdote)                &&&&&,&&,&
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&,&,,,,&,,                    ,,                    ,&,,,&,&&,
&&&&,,,&&,                                          &&&,,&&&,&
,,,,&,,&,& i  wake  suddenly,  and  for   a  second &,,&,&,,&&
&,,,&&,&&& everything is  completely  calm and dead ,&,&&&&,&,
&&,,&,&&,, silent.  it's  dark,  and  warm,  and  i ,&&&,,,&&&
,,&,&&&,&, slowly   start   to  piece  together  my ,&,,&,,&,,
,,&&&,,&&&        consciousness and my body.        &&&,&&,&&,
,,&,,&,&,,                                          ,,,&&,&&,&
&,&&,&&&&, then  the  fear  hits  me  and  i   feel ,,,&,&&,&&
,&&,&&,,,&    acutely sick. something is -wrong-.   &,,&&&,&&,
,&,&&,&,,&                                          ,&,&,,&&,&
&&&&,&&&,&                    ,,                    &&&&&,&,&&
,,,,&&,,&&                                          ,,,,,&&&&,
,,,,&,&,&, there are circles and crosses  inscribed &,,,,&,,,&
&,,,&&&&&& all over  my vision, pressing  in, being &&,,,&&,,&
,&,,&,,,,, almost hostile. i can feel them  squirm, &,&,,&,&,&
&&&,&&,,,,     their internal logic changing and    ,&&&,&&&&&
,,,&&,&,,, grinding  trenches in my mind. it's like ,&,,&&,,,,
,,,&,&&&,, language, sentences i can't  hide  from, ,&&,&,&,,,
,,,&&&,,&, forcefully transcribed in my  mind,  and ,&,&&&&&,,
,,,&,,&,&&            doing damage there.           &&&&,,,,&,
,,,&&,&&&,                                          ,,,,&,,,&&
&,,&,&&,,& then i  realize i  can't  hear  anything &,,,&&,,&,
&&,&&&,&,&     because there's something there      &&,,&,&,&&
,,&&,,&&&&    already, droning everything out, a    ,,&,&&&&&,
,,&,&,&,,, rapid  melody,  almost  caustic in  it's &,&&&,,,,&
&,&&&&&&,,         particular microtonality.        ,&&,,&,,,&
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&&,&,,,,&&                    ,,                    &,&&&&,&,&
,,&&&,,,&,                                          &&&,,,&&&&
&,&,,&,,&& my surroundings are entirely  calm. it's &,,&,,&,,,
&&&&,&&,&,             almost mocking.              &&,&&,&&,,
&,,,&&,&&&                                          &,&&,&&,&,
&&,,&,&&,, i  feel  helpless, but  i  must  try  to ,&&,&&,&&&
,,&,&&&,&, escape. to crawl on  the floor searching &&,&&,&&,,
,,&&&,,&&& relief, such  is my nature.  turning the &,&&,&&,&,
,,&,,&,&,,     lights on does nothing... getting    ,&&,&&,&&&
&,&&,&&&&,  outside does nothing... drinking water  &&,&&,&&,,
&&&,&&,,,& does  noting... but  time  does -  after &,&&,&&,&,
&,,&&,&,,&     thirty seconds i'm normal again,     ,&&,&&,&&&
,&,&,&&&,& doubting anything  of this  happened  in ,&,&&,&&,,
,&&&&&,,&&             the first place.             &&&&,&&,&,
,&,,,,&,&,                                          ,,,,&&,&&&
&&&,,,&&&& my eyes are still  tense though, scared. ,,,,&,&&,,
&,,&,,&,,, i    don't   know    what    to    make. &,,,&&&,&,
&&,&&,&&,,                                          ,&,,&,,&&&
,,&&,&&,&,              but i'm tired.              &&&,&&,&,,
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,,&&&,&&,,                     ,                    &,,&,&&,,&
&,&,,&&,&,                 ,,-^-,,                  &&,&&&,&,&
,&&&,&,&&&                     ,                    &,&&,,&&&&
&&,,&&&&,,                                          ,&&,&,&,,,
&,&,&,,,&, this can happen  if you  wander too far, ,&,&&&&&,,
&&&&&&,,&& i  guess?  i  shouldn't  be so  reckless ,&&&,,,,&,
&,,,,,&,&,              when dreaming?              ,&,,&,,,&&
,&,,,,&&&& i imagine a  prick  on the nose,  that's &&&,&&,,&,
,&&,,,&,,, what these  are. like you  do with a cat ,,,&&,&,&&
&&,&,,&&,, who comes to  close  to your sandwich... ,,,&,&&&&,
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