££,,,,,£,,                                          ,,,£,,,,,£
,££,,,,,£,                                          ,,,,£,,,,£
,£££,,,,,,                                          ,,,,,£,,,,
,£,££,,,,,                                          £,,,,,£,,,
,,,£££,,,,                                          ££,,,,,£,,
,,,£,££,,,                  ,,*@*,,                 ,££,,,,,£,
,,,,,£££,,             ,,=&@@####@@&=,,             ,£££,,,,,£
£,,,,£,££,         ,,,,,=&@ dreams @&=,,,,,         ,£,££,,,,,
,£,,,,,£££             ,,=&@@####@@&=,,             ,,,£££,,,,
,,£,,,,£,£                 ,,*@*,,                  £,,£,££,,,
,,,£,,,,,£                                          ££,,,£££,,
,,,,£,,,,£                    ,,,                   £££,,£,££,
,,,,,£,,,,                 ,*£@#@£*,                £,££,,,£££
£,,,,,£,,,                   ,,,                    ,,£££,,£,£
££,,,,,£,,                                          ,,£,££,,,£
,££,,,,,£,         internal visionary state         £,,,£££,,£
,£££,,,,,£                                          ££,,£,££,,
,£,££,,,,,            the spirit travels            ,££,,,£££,
,,,£££,,,,                                          ,£££,,£,££
£,,£,££,,,             ,,=&@@####@@&=,,             ,£,££,,,££
££,,,£££,,                   ,=,                    ,,,£££,,£,
£££,,£,££,                                          £,,£,££,,,
£,££,,,£££                  a cost                  ££,,,£££,,
,,£££,,£,£                (anecdote)                £££,,£,££,
,,£,££,,,£                                          £,££,,,£££
£,,,£££,,£                    ,,                    ,,£££,,£,£
££,,£,££,,                                          ,,£,££,,,£
,££,,,£££, i  wake  suddenly,  and  for  a   second £,,,£££,,£
,£££,,£,££ everything  is completely  calm and dead ££,,£,££,,
,£,££,,,££ silent.  it's  dark,  and  warm,  and  i ,££,,,£££,
,,,£££,,£, slowly   start  to  piece   together  my ,£££,,£,££
£,,£,££,,,        consciousness and my body.        ,£,££,,,££
££,,,£££,,                                          ,,,£££,,£,
£££,,£,££, then   the  fear  hits  me  and  i  feel ,,,£,££,,,
£,££,,,£££    acutely sick. something is =wrong=.   ,,,,,£££,,
,,£££,,£,£                                          ,,,,,£,££,
,,£,££,,,£                    ,,                    ,,,,,,,£££
£,,,£££,,£                                          £,,,,,,£,£
££,,£,££,, there are circles  and crosses inscribed ,£,,,,,,,£
,££,,,£££, all  over my  vision, pressing in, being ,,£,,,,,,£
,£££,,£,££ almost hostile. i can feel them  squirm, £,,£,,,,,,
,£,££,,,££     their internal logic changing and    ££,,£,,,,,
,,,£££,,£, grinding trenches in my mind.  it's like £££,,£,,,,
,,,£,££,,, language, sentences  i can't hide  from, £,££,,£,,,
,,,,,£££,, forcefully  transcribed in  my mind, and ,,£££,,£,,
,,,,,£,££,           doing damage there.            ,,£,££,,£,
,,,,,,,£££                                          ,,,,£££,,£
£,,,,,,£,£ then i  realize  i  can't hear  anything ,,,,£,££,,
,£,,,,,,,£     because there's something there      ,,,,,,£££,
,,£,,,,,,£    already, droning everything out, a    ,,,,,,£,££
£,,£,,,,,, rapid  melody,  almost caustic  in  it's ,,,,,,,,££
££,,£,,,,,         particular microtonality.        £,,,,,,,£,
£££,,£,,,,                                          ££,,,,,,,,
£,££,,£,,,                    ,,                    ,££,,,,,,,
,,£££,,£,,                                          ,£££,,,,,,
,,£,££,,£, my surroundings  are entirely calm. it's ,£,££,,,,,
,,,,£££,,£             almost mocking.              ,,,£££,,,,
,,,,£,££,,                                          ,,,£,££,,,
,,,,,,£££, i  feel  helpless,  but  i  must  try to ,,,,,£££,,
,,,,,,£,££ escape. to crawl on  the floor searching £,,,,£,££,
,,,,,,,,££ relief,  such  is my nature. turning the ,£,,,,,£££
£,,,,,,,£,     lights on does nothing... getting    ,,£,,,,£,£
££,,,,,,,,  outside does nothing... drinking water  ,,,£,,,,,£
,££,,,,,,, does  noting...  but time  does  - after ,,,,£,,,,£
,£££,,,,,,     thirty seconds i'm normal again,     ,,,,,£,,,,
,£,££,,,,, doubting  anything of this  happened  in £,,,,,£,,,
,,,£££,,,,             the first place.             ££,,,,,£,,
,,,£,££,,,                                          ,££,,,,,£,
,,,,,£££,, my eyes  are still tense though, scared. ,£££,,,,,£
£,,,,£,££, i    don't    know   what    to    make. ,£,££,,,,,
,£,,,,,£££                                          ,,,£££,,,,
,,£,,,,£,£              but i'm tired.              £,,£,££,,,
,,,£,,,,,£                                          ££,,,£££,,
,,,,£,,,,£                    ,                     £££,,£,££,
,,,,,£,,,,                  ,,===,,                 £,££,,,£££
£,,,,,£,,,                    ,                     ,,£££,,£,£
££,,,,,£,,                                          ,,£,££,,,£
,££,,,,,£, this can happen if  you wander too  far, £,,,£££,,£
,£££,,,,,£ i  guess?  i  shouldn't be  so  reckless ££,,£,££,,
,£,££,,,,,              when dreaming?              ,££,,,£££,
,,,£££,,,, i imagine a  prick  on the nose,  that's ,£££,,£,££
£,,£,££,,, what these are. like you do  with  a cat ,£,££,,,££
££,,,£££,, who comes to  close to your  sandwich... ,,,£££,,£,
£££,,£,££,                                          £,,£,££,,,
£,££,,,£££                                          ££,,,£££,,
,,£££,,£,£                                          £££,,£,££,
,,£,££,,,£                                          £,££,,,£££
£,,,£££,,£                                          ,,£££,,£,£
££,,£,££,,                                          ,,£,££,,,£