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,,,§,,,,,§         internal visionary state         §§§,,,,,,§
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,§,,,§,,,,            the spirit travels            ,,§§§,,,,,
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,,,,,,§,,,                  a cost                  ,§,,,,§,§§
§,,,,,,§,,                (anecdote)                ,,§,,,,,§§
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,,§§§,,,,, i  wake  suddenly,  and  for   a  second ,,,§,,§,,,
,,§,§§,,,, everything  is completely  calm and dead §,,,§,,§,,
,,,,§§§,,, silent.  it's  dark,  and  warm,  and  i ,§,,,§,,§,
,,,,§,§§,, slowly   start   to  piece  together  my ,,§,,,§,,§
§,,,,,§§§,        consciousness and my body.        §,,§,,,§,,
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,,§,,,,,§§ then  the  fear   hits  me  and  i  feel ,,§,,§,,,§
§,,§,,,,§,    acutely sick. something is «wrong«.   ,,,§,,§,,,
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§,,,§,,§,, there are  circles and crosses inscribed ,,§,,,,§,,
,§,,,§,,§, all over my vision,  pressing in,  being ,,,§,,,,§,
,,§,,,§,,§ almost hostile. i can feel them  squirm, ,,,,§,,,,§
§,,§,,,§,,     their internal logic changing and    ,,,,,§,,,,
,§,,§,,,§, grinding  trenches in my mind. it's like §,,,,,§,,,
,,§,,§,,,§ language,  sentences  i can't hide from, ,§,,,,,§,,
,,,§,,§,,, forcefully transcribed  in  my mind, and ,,§,,,,,§,
,,,,§,,§,,           doing damage there.            §,,§,,,,,§
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,§,,,,§,,§ then  i  realize  i can't hear  anything ,,§,,§,,,,
,,§,,,,§,,      because there's something there     ,,,§,,§,,,
,,,§,,,,§,    already, droning everything out, a    ,,,,§,,§,,
,,,,§,,,,§ rapid melody,  almost  caustic  in  it's ,,,,,§,,§,
,,,,,§,,,,        particular microtonality.         ,,,,,,§,,§
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§,,§,,,,,§ my  surroundings are entirely calm. it's ,,,§,,,,,,
,§,,§,,,,,             almost mocking.              §,,,§,,,,,
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,,,§,,§,,, i  feel  helpless,  but  i  must  try to ,§§,,,§,,,
,,,,§,,§,, escape. to crawl on the floor  searching ,§§§,,,§,,
,,,,,§,,§, relief, such is  my nature. turning  the ,§,§§,,,§,
,,,,,,§,,§    lights on does nothing... getting     ,,,§§§,,,§
§,,,,,,§,,  outside does nothing... drinking water  ,,,§,§§,,,
,§,,,,,,§, does  noting...  but time  does  - after ,,,,,§§§,,
,,§,,,,,,§     thirty seconds i'm normal again,     §,,,,§,§§,
,,,§,,,,,, doubting  anything of  this  happened in ,§,,,,,§§§
§,,,§,,,,,             the first place.             ,,§,,,,§,§
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,§§,,,§,,, my eyes are still tense  though, scared. §,,,§,,,,§
,§§§,,,§,, i    don't    know    what   to    make. ,§,,,§,,,,
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,,,§§§,,,§              but i'm tired.              ,,,§,,,§,,
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,,,§,,,,,§ this can happen  if you  wander too far, §§§,,,,,,§
§,,,§,,,,§ i guess?  i  shouldn't  be  so  reckless §,§§,,,,,,
,§,,,§,,,,              when dreaming?              ,,§§§,,,,,
,,§,,,§,,, i imagine a prick on  the  nose,  that's ,,§,§§,,,,
,,,§,,,§,, what  these  are. like you do with a cat ,,,,§§§,,,
,,,,§,,,§, who  comes to  close to your sandwich... ,,,,§,§§,,
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