party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower  curtains drawn. floor  full 
 of dirty clothes,  of  garbage, and as i 
 start to unzip my pants,  she  steps out 
 of   the   shower  and  pushes   me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i  wish   to   be   contacted  by   some 
 [god,  alien] who  would bestow  upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything  right  forever. what i don't 
 know  is   that  this  happens  multiple 
 times  per second  - they  ask me: "when 
 you  said  the world egg  was your ideal 
 body type, did you  mean  it"? i  answer 
 "not  really, but  i can act like it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory of the  encounter and  moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom