party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower curtains drawn.  floor  full 
 of dirty  clothes, of  garbage, and as i 
 start to unzip my pants,  she steps  out 
 of  the  shower   and   pushes   me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i  wish   to   be   contacted   by  some 
 [god, alien] who  would bestow  upon  me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything  right forever.  what i don't 
 know  is   that  this  happens  multiple 
 times per  second  - they  ask me: "when 
 you  said  the world egg was your  ideal 
 body type, did  you  mean it"? i  answer 
 "not really, but i can  act like it  for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory of  the  encounter  and moved on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom