party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower curtains drawn.  floor  full 
 of dirty  clothes, of garbage, and  as i 
 start to  unzip  my pants, she steps out 
 of   the  shower   and   pushes   me  to 
 theground. 
  
 i  wish  to   be   contacted   by   some 
 [god, alien] who would  bestow  upon  me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right  forever. what  i don't 
 know  is   that  this  happens  multiple 
 times per  second - they ask  me:  "when 
 you  said the world egg was  your  ideal 
 body type,  did you mean  it"? i  answer 
 "not really, but  i can act like  it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory of  the encounter  and  moved on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom