party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off,  shower curtains  drawn. floor full 
 of  dirty clothes, of garbage, and  as i 
 start to  unzip my pants, she steps  out 
 of   the   shower   and  pushes   me  to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish   to   be  contacted  by   some 
 [god, alien] who  would  bestow  upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything  right  forever. what i don't 
 know  is  that  this  happens   multiple 
 times per  second - they  ask  me: "when 
 you  said the world egg  was  your ideal 
 body type,  did you  mean it"? i  answer 
 "not really,  but i can act like it  for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory of the  encounter  and moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom