party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower curtains drawn.  floor  full 
 of  dirty clothes, of garbage,  and as i 
 start to  unzip my pants, she  steps out 
 of   the  shower   and   pushes   me  to 
 theground. 
  
 i  wish   to  be   contacted   by   some 
 [god,  alien] who  would  bestow upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything  right forever. what  i don't 
 know  is   that  this  happens  multiple 
 times  per  second - they ask me:  "when 
 you  said the world egg was  your  ideal 
 body type, did  you mean  it"?  i answer 
 "not really,  but i can act like  it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory of  the encounter  and moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom