party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower  curtains drawn.  floor full 
 of dirty clothes, of  garbage, and as  i 
 start  to unzip my pants,  she steps out 
 of   the   shower   and  pushes  me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish  to   be   contacted  by   some 
 [god,  alien] who  would bestow  upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right  forever. what i  don't 
 know  is  that  this   happens  multiple 
 times per  second - they  ask me:  "when 
 you  said  the  world egg was your ideal 
 body type,  did you  mean it"?  i answer 
 "not  really, but i can  act like it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory of the  encounter  and moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom