party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower curtains  drawn. floor  full 
 of  dirty clothes, of garbage, and as  i 
 start  to unzip my pants,  she steps out 
 of   the  shower   and   pushes   me  to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish  to   be   contacted  by   some 
 [god, alien] who  would  bestow upon  me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything  right forever.  what i don't 
 know  is   that  this  happens  multiple 
 times per second  -  they ask me:  "when 
 you said the  world egg was  your  ideal 
 body type,  did you mean  it"? i  answer 
 "not really, but i can  act  like it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory of the encounter  and  moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom