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..,-^%&&@#         internal visionary state         #@&&%^-,..
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..,-^%&&@#            the spirit travels            #@&&%^-,..
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.,-^%&&@##                    .-.                   ##@&&%^-,.
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.,-^%&&@##                  a cost                  ##@&&%^-,.
..,-^%&&@#                (anecdote)                #@&&%^-,..
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..,-^%&&@#                    ,,                    #@&&%^-,..
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..,-^%&&@# i  wake   suddenly,  and  for  a  second #@&&%^-,..
.,-^%&&@## everything is  completely calm and  dead ##@&&%^-,.
..,-^%&&@# silent.  it's  dark,  and  warm,  and  i #@&&%^-,..
.,-^%&&@## slowly   start  to   piece  together  my ##@&&%^-,.
..,-^%&&@#        consciousness and my body.        #@&&%^-,..
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..,-^%&&@# then  the  fear  hits  me   and  i  feel #@&&%^-,..
.,-^%&&@##    acutely sick. something is -wrong-.   ##@&&%^-,.
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.,-^%&&@## there are circles and crosses  inscribed ##@&&%^-,.
..,-^%&&@# all over  my vision, pressing  in, being #@&&%^-,..
.,-^%&&@## almost hostile. i can  feel them squirm, ##@&&%^-,.
..,-^%&&@#     their internal logic changing and    #@&&%^-,..
.,-^%&&@## grinding trenches in  my mind. it's like ##@&&%^-,.
..,-^%&&@# language, sentences  i can't  hide from, #@&&%^-,..
.,-^%&&@## forcefully transcribed in  my mind,  and ##@&&%^-,.
..,-^%&&@#           doing damage there.            #@&&%^-,..
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..,-^%&&@# then i  realize i  can't  hear  anything #@&&%^-,..
.,-^%&&@##      because there's something there     ##@&&%^-,.
..,-^%&&@#    already, droning everything out, a    #@&&%^-,..
.,-^%&&@## rapid  melody,  almost  caustic in  it's ##@&&%^-,.
..,-^%&&@#        particular microtonality.         #@&&%^-,..
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..,-^%&&@#                    ,,                    #@&&%^-,..
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..,-^%&&@# my surroundings  are entirely calm. it's #@&&%^-,..
.,-^%&&@##              almost mocking.             ##@&&%^-,.
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.,-^%&&@## i  feel  helpless,  but i  must  try  to ##@&&%^-,.
..,-^%&&@# escape. to crawl on  the floor searching #@&&%^-,..
.,-^%&&@## relief, such is my  nature.  turning the ##@&&%^-,.
..,-^%&&@#    lights on does nothing... getting     #@&&%^-,..
.,-^%&&@##  outside does nothing... drinking water  ##@&&%^-,.
..,-^%&&@# does noting... but  time  does  -  after #@&&%^-,..
.,-^%&&@##     thirty seconds i'm normal again,     ##@&&%^-,.
..,-^%&&@# doubting  anything  of this happened  in #@&&%^-,..
.,-^%&&@##             the first place.             ##@&&%^-,.
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.,-^%&&@## my  eyes are still tense though, scared. ##@&&%^-,.
..,-^%&&@# i    don't    know    what    to   make. #@&&%^-,..
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..,-^%&&@#              but i'm tired.              #@&&%^-,..
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..,-^%&&@# this can happen if  you  wander too far, #@&&%^-,..
.,-^%&&@## i guess?  i  shouldn't  be  so  reckless ##@&&%^-,.
..,-^%&&@#              when dreaming?              #@&&%^-,..
.,-^%&&@## i  imagine  a  prick on the nose, that's ##@&&%^-,.
..,-^%&&@# what these are.  like you do with  a cat #@&&%^-,..
.,-^%&&@## who comes to close  to your  sandwich... ##@&&%^-,.
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