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,,,,,.«†##         † mirage class goth gf †         ##†«.,,,,,
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,.«^†%####                                          ####%†^«.,
,.«^†%#@## i used to be a goth, in my youth, doing  ##@#%†^«.,
,,.«««^%#@  crimes mostly from or in my beloved and @#%^«««.,,
,.«^†%#@##   trusted car, and sometimes my mothers  ##@#%†^«.,
,,,««^†###    barn. we lived just outside town, a   ###†^««,,,
,,,,,.^^%@   grove at the end of a dirt road, and   @%^^.,,,,,
,,,,,««†##   the barn was placed so you could just  ##†««,,,,,
,.«^†%#@## make out the surrounding fields through  ##@#%†^«.,
,,,««††#@@                the trees.                @@#††««,,,
,,,.«^^^%@                                          @%^^^«.,,,
,.«^†%#@##   my car was black and loud, both the    ##@#%†^«.,
,.^†%#@###   engine and the way the parts didn't    ###@#%†^.,
,.«^†%#@##     really stick together. i took my     ##@#%†^«.,
,.«^†%%%@@ crimefriend for rides, in the dark, the  @@%%%†^«.,
,,,.««^%%@   eternal dark that seemed to surround   @%%^««.,,,
,.«^†%#@##  us. she seemed to cast this veil over   ##@#%†^«.,
,,,.^^††%@  everything. her black skirt reached to  @%††^^.,,,
,.«†%#@###   her knees but then somehow also back   ###@#%†«.,
,.«^†%#@##   around, enveloping all my memories of  ##@#%†^«.,
,.«^†%####            our time together.            ####%†^«.,
,.«^†%####                                          ####%†^«.,
,.«^†%#@##   there was blood everywhere. sometimes  ##@#%†^«.,
,,,,,.^††#   the blood was her red lipstick or her  #††^.,,,,,
,,,.«^^††# checkered shirt. she was on television.  #††^^«.,,,
,.«^†%#@##     we did crime, and we made weird      ##@#%†^«.,
,.«^†%#@## structures in the barn, tall pillars of  ##@#%†^«.,
,,...^††##  dark wood, ladders and plateaus, fires  ##††^...,,
,,,,«†%%@@  and fairy lights. we would sleep there  @@%%†«,,,,
,,,,«†%%%# and drink there and she would go in the  #%%%†«,,,,
,,,,.^^%%@               television.                @%%^^.,,,,
,.«^†%#@##                                          ##@#%†^«.,
,,,,,,,«†# and then the sun came out, and she went  #†«,,,,,,,
,,,,««†#@@  away. everything changed... i yearned,  @@#†««,,,,
,.«^†%#@##   and the world became dull around me.   ##@#%†^«.,
,,,,.^††%@                                          @%††^.,,,,
,,,,.^^%##    i stopped doing crime, except when    ##%^^.,,,,
,,,,..«†%@  necessarry. things somehow seemed like  @%†«..,,,,
,.«^†%#@##  they were allright, moulded in place,   ##@#%†^«.,
,,,.^†††%@   and i loathed it ------ i missed her   @%†††^.,,,
,.«^†%#@##                 so much.                 ##@#%†^«.,
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,.«^†%#@##            «««««.., ,..«««««             ##@#%†^«.,
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,.«^†#@###  i searched for her, but nobody had any  ###@#†^«.,
,,,,«††%#@    memories of her. not so much of me    @#%††«,,,,
,.«^†%#@##  either, from the time we were together. ##@#%†^«.,
,.«^†%##@@  my mother said i kept to myself in the  @@##%†^«.,
,.««^^†#@#           barn, or in the car.           #@#†^^««.,
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,.«^†%#@##      sometimes i could still see her     ##@#%†^«.,
,.«^†%%%@@    flashing by on the tv in the barn.    @@%%%†^«.,
,,,,,,««†#     everything was black then, for a     #†««,,,,,,
,,,,,,,«†# moment. i remembered her laugh and knew  #†«,,,,,,,
,.«^†%#@##   we had done crimes together, that it   ##@#%†^«.,
,,,.««†%@#             had been real...             #@%†««.,,,
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,.«^†%#@##            «««««.., ,..«««««             ##@#%†^«.,
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,.«^†%###@                                          @###%†^«.,
,,,..«†##@    i died by getting shot in the head    @##†«..,,,
,.«^^†%#@@   while ramming the fence to a military  @@#%†^^«.,
,.«^†%####   facility. by this time they had been   ####%†^«.,
,.«^†%#@##   chasing me for days. i lost control    ##@#%†^«.,
,.«^†#@###   over the car, crashed it into a rock   ###@#†^«.,
,,,,,,«^†#     wall and flew out the windshield.    #†^«,,,,,,
,,,..^^^†#                                          #†^^^..,,,
,.«^†%#@##   and then i got up, and looked around.  ##@#%†^«.,
,,,.^††###   it was dark, where it previously had   ###††^.,,,
,.«^†%#@##    been a bright day. around me where    ##@#%†^«.,
,.«^†%#@##    dozens of crashed cars, all my car,   ##@#%†^«.,
,,,,««^†##              some on fire.               ##†^««,,,,
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,.«^†%#@##        the ground was sticky, red.       ##@#%†^«.,
,.«^%#@###                                          ###@#%^«.,
,.«^†%#@@#   and then i realized that i knew this   #@@#%†^«.,
,.«^†%#@##     darkness. i knew the way the sky     ##@#%†^«.,
,.«^†%###@  touched the ground. this was her doing! @###%†^«.,
,.«^†%#@##              she was here!               ##@#%†^«.,
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