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¨§§¨§§¨§§§         ^ MIRAGE CLASS GOTH GF ^         ¨¨¨¨¨§§§¨§
§§¨§§¨§§¨¨         ^                      ^         §¨¨¨¨§¨¨§§
¨¨§§¨§§¨§¨         ^:-----:::¨  ¨:::-----:^         §§¨¨¨§§¨§¨
¨¨§¨§§¨§§§                                          §¨§¨¨§¨§§§
§¨§§§¨§§¨¨                                          ¨§§§¨§§§¨¨
§§§¨¨§§¨§¨  I USED TO BE A GOTH, IN MY YOUTH, DOING ¨§¨¨§§¨¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§§  CRIMES MOSTLY FROM OR IN MY BELOVED AND ¨§§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§§§§§¨¨  TRUSTED CAR, AND SOMETIMES MY MOTHERS   ¨§¨§§§§§§¨
¨§§§¨¨¨¨§¨   BARN. WE LIVED JUST OUTSIDE TOWN, A    ¨§§§¨¨¨¨¨§
§§¨¨§¨¨¨§§   GROVE AT THE END OF A DIRT ROAD, AND   §§¨¨§¨¨¨¨§
¨¨§¨§§¨¨§¨   THE BARN WAS PLACED SO YOU COULD JUST  ¨¨§¨§§¨¨¨§
§¨§§§¨§¨§§ MAKE OUT THE SURROUNDING FIELDS THROUGH  ¨¨§§§¨§¨¨§
¨§§¨¨§§§§¨                THE TREES.                §¨§¨¨§§§¨§
§§¨§¨§¨¨¨§                                          ¨§§§¨§¨¨§§
¨¨§§§§§¨¨§    MY CAR WAS BLACK AND LOUD, BOTH THE   ¨§¨¨§§§¨§¨
¨¨§¨¨¨¨§¨§   ENGINE AND THE WAY THE PARTS DIDN'T    §§§¨§¨¨§§§
§¨§§¨¨¨§§§     REALLY STICK TOGETHER. I TOOK MY     ¨¨¨§§§¨§¨¨
§§§¨§¨¨§¨¨  CRIMEFRIEND FOR RIDES, IN THE DARK, THE ¨¨¨§¨¨§§§¨
§¨¨§§§¨§§¨   ETERNAL DARK THAT SEEMED TO SURROUND   ¨¨¨§§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨¨§§¨§   US. SHE SEEMED TO CAST THIS VEIL OVER  ¨¨¨§¨§§§¨§
§§§§§¨§¨§§  EVERYTHING. HER BLACK SKIRT REACHED TO  §¨¨§§§¨¨§§
¨¨¨¨¨§§§§¨   HER KNEES BUT THEN SOMEHOW ALSO BACK   ¨§¨§¨¨§¨§¨
¨¨¨¨¨§¨¨¨§  AROUND, ENVELOPING ALL MY MEMORIES OF   §§§§§¨§§§§
§¨¨¨¨§§¨¨§            OUR TIME TOGETHER.            §¨¨¨¨§§¨¨¨
§§¨¨¨§¨§¨§                                          §§¨¨¨§¨§¨¨
§¨§¨¨§§§§§  THERE WAS BLOOD EVERYWHERE. SOMETIMES   ¨¨§¨¨§§§§¨
§§§§¨§¨¨¨¨   THE BLOOD WAS HER RED LIPSTICK OR HER  §¨§§¨§¨¨¨§
¨¨¨¨§§§¨¨¨ CHECKERED SHIRT. SHE WAS ON TELEVISION.  §§§¨§§§¨¨§
§¨¨¨§¨¨§¨¨      WE DID CRIME, AND WE MADE WEIRD     §¨¨§§¨¨§¨§
¨§¨¨§§¨§§¨ STRUCTURES IN THE BARN, TALL PILLARS OF  §§¨§¨§¨§§§
§§§¨§¨§§¨§  DARK WOOD, LADDERS AND PLATEAUS, FIRES  §¨§§§§§§¨¨
§¨¨§§§§¨§§  AND FAIRY LIGHTS. WE WOULD SLEEP THERE  ¨§§¨¨¨¨¨§¨
§§¨§¨¨¨§§¨ AND DRINK THERE AND SHE WOULD GO IN THE  §§¨§¨¨¨¨§§
¨¨§§§¨¨§¨§               TELEVISION.                §¨§§§¨¨¨§¨
¨¨§¨¨§¨§§§                                          ¨§§¨¨§¨¨§§
§¨§§¨§§§¨¨  AND THEN THE SUN CAME OUT, AND SHE WENT §§¨§¨§§¨§¨
§§§¨§§¨¨§¨  AWAY. EVERYTHING CHANGED... I YEARNED,  §¨§§§§¨§§§
¨¨¨§§¨§¨§§   AND THE WORLD BECAME DULL AROUND ME.   §§§¨¨¨§§¨¨
¨¨¨§¨§§§§¨                                          §¨¨§¨¨§¨§¨
¨¨¨§§§¨¨¨§    I STOPPED DOING CRIME, EXCEPT WHEN    ¨§¨§§¨§§§§
§¨¨§¨¨§¨¨§  NECESSARRY. THINGS SOMEHOW SEEMED LIKE  ¨§§§¨§§¨¨¨
§§¨§§¨§§¨§   THEY WERE ALLRIGHT, MOULDED IN PLACE,  §§¨¨§§¨§¨¨
§¨§§¨§§¨§§   AND I LOATHED IT ------ I MISSED HER   §¨§¨§¨§§§¨
§§§¨§§¨§§¨                 SO MUCH.                 ¨§§§§§§¨¨§
¨¨¨§§¨§§¨§                                          ¨§¨¨¨¨¨§¨§
§¨¨§¨§§¨§§                                          §§§¨¨¨¨§§§
¨§¨§§§¨§§¨             -----::¨ ¨::-----            ¨¨¨§¨¨¨§¨¨
¨§§§¨¨§§¨§                                          ¨¨¨§§¨¨§§¨
¨§¨¨§¨§¨§§                                          ¨¨¨§¨§¨§¨§
§§§¨§§§§§¨  I SEARCHED FOR HER, BUT NOBODY HAD ANY  §¨¨§§§§§§§
¨¨¨§§¨¨¨¨§    MEMORIES OF HER. NOT SO MUCH OF ME    §§¨§¨¨¨¨¨¨
¨¨¨§¨§¨¨¨§ EITHER, FROM THE TIME WE WERE TOGETHER.  §¨§§§¨¨¨¨¨
¨¨¨§§§§¨¨§  MY MOTHER SAID I KEPT TO MYSELF IN THE  §§§¨¨§¨¨¨¨
¨¨¨§¨¨¨§¨§           BARN, OR IN THE CAR.           §¨¨§¨§§¨¨¨
¨¨¨§§¨¨§§§                                          ¨§¨§§§¨§¨¨
¨¨¨§¨§¨§¨¨     SOMETIMES I COULD STILL SEE HER      ¨§§§¨¨§§§¨
¨¨¨§§§§§§¨    FLASHING BY ON THE TV IN THE BARN.    §§¨¨§¨§¨¨§
§¨¨§¨¨¨¨¨§     EVERYTHING WAS BLACK THEN, FOR A     §¨§¨§§§§¨§
¨§¨§§¨¨¨¨§  MOMENT. I REMEMBERED HER LAUGH AND KNEW §§§§§¨¨¨§§
§§§§¨§¨¨¨§   WE HAD DONE CRIMES TOGETHER, THAT IT   ¨¨¨¨¨§¨¨§¨
§¨¨¨§§§¨¨§             HAD BEEN REAL...             ¨¨¨¨¨§§¨§§
¨§¨¨§¨¨§¨§                                          ¨¨¨¨¨§¨§§¨
¨§§¨§§¨§§§                                          ¨¨¨¨¨§§§¨§
§§¨§§¨§§¨¨            -----::¨ ¨::-----             §¨¨¨¨§¨¨§§
¨¨§§¨§§¨§¨                                          §§¨¨¨§§¨§¨
¨¨§¨§§¨§§§                                          §¨§¨¨§¨§§§
§¨§§§¨§§¨¨    I DIED BY GETTING SHOT IN THE HEAD    ¨§§§¨§§§¨¨
§§§¨¨§§¨§¨   WHILE RAMMING THE FENCE TO A MILITARY  ¨§¨¨§§¨¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§§   FACILITY. BY THIS TIME THEY HAD BEEN   ¨§§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§§§§§¨¨   CHASING ME FOR DAYS. I LOST CONTROL    ¨§¨§§§§§§¨
¨§§§¨¨¨¨§¨   OVER THE CAR, CRASHED IT INTO A ROCK   ¨§§§¨¨¨¨¨§
§§¨¨§¨¨¨§§    WALL AND FLEW OUT THE WINDSHIELD.     §§¨¨§¨¨¨¨§
¨¨§¨§§¨¨§¨                                          ¨¨§¨§§¨¨¨§
§¨§§§¨§¨§§  AND THEN I GOT UP, AND LOOKED AROUND.   ¨¨§§§¨§¨¨§
¨§§¨¨§§§§¨   IT WAS DARK, WHERE IT PREVIOUSLY HAD   §¨§¨¨§§§¨§
§§¨§¨§¨¨¨§    BEEN A BRIGHT DAY. AROUND ME WHERE    ¨§§§¨§¨¨§§
¨¨§§§§§¨¨§   DOZENS OF CRASHED CARS, ALL MY CAR,    ¨§¨¨§§§¨§¨
¨¨§¨¨¨¨§¨§              SOME ON FIRE.               §§§¨§¨¨§§§
§¨§§¨¨¨§§§                                          ¨¨¨§§§¨§¨¨
§§§¨§¨¨§¨¨        THE GROUND WAS STICKY, RED.       ¨¨¨§¨¨§§§¨
§¨¨§§§¨§§¨                                          ¨¨¨§§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨¨§§¨§   AND THEN I REALIZED THAT I KNEW THIS   ¨¨¨§¨§§§¨§
§§§§§¨§¨§§     DARKNESS. I KNEW THE WAY THE SKY     §¨¨§§§¨¨§§
¨¨¨¨¨§§§§¨  TOUCHED THE GROUND. THIS WAS HER DOING! ¨§¨§¨¨§¨§¨
¨¨¨¨¨§¨¨¨§               SHE WAS HERE!              §§§§§¨§§§§
§¨¨¨¨§§¨¨§                                          §¨¨¨¨§§¨¨¨
§§¨¨¨§¨§¨§                                          §§¨¨¨§¨§¨¨
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¨¨¨¨§§§¨¨¨                                          §§§¨§§§¨¨§