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¨&¨&¨&¨&&¨ ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
¨&¨&¨&¨¨&¨ I USED TO BE A GOTH, IN MY YOUTH, DOING ¨&¨&¨&&¨¨&
¨&¨&¨&¨&&¨ CRIMES MOSTLY FROM OR IN MY BELOVED AND ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
¨&¨&¨&¨¨&¨ TRUSTED CAR, AND SOMETIMES MY MOTHERS ¨&¨&¨&&¨¨&
¨&¨&¨&¨&&¨ BARN. WE LIVED JUST OUTSIDE TOWN, A ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
¨&¨&¨&¨¨&¨ GROVE AT THE END OF A DIRT ROAD, AND ¨&¨&¨&&¨¨&
¨&¨&¨&¨&&¨ THE BARN WAS PLACED SO YOU COULD JUST ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
¨&¨&¨&¨¨&¨ MAKE OUT THE SURROUNDING FIELDS THROUGH ¨&¨&¨&&¨¨&
¨&¨&¨&¨&&¨ THE TREES. ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
¨&¨&¨&¨¨&¨ ¨&¨&¨&&¨¨&
¨&¨&¨&¨&&¨ MY CAR WAS BLACK AND LOUD, BOTH THE ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
¨&¨&¨&¨¨&¨ ENGINE AND THE WAY THE PARTS DIDN'T ¨&¨&¨&&¨¨&
¨&¨&¨&¨&&¨ REALLY STICK TOGETHER. I TOOK MY ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
¨&¨&¨&¨¨&¨ CRIMEFRIEND FOR RIDES, IN THE DARK, THE ¨&¨&¨&&¨¨&
¨&¨&¨&¨&&¨ ETERNAL DARK THAT SEEMED TO SURROUND ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
¨&¨&¨&¨¨&¨ US. SHE SEEMED TO CAST THIS VEIL OVER ¨&¨&¨&&¨¨&
¨&¨&¨&¨&&¨ EVERYTHING. HER BLACK SKIRT REACHED TO ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
¨&¨&¨&¨¨&¨ HER KNEES BUT THEN SOMEHOW ALSO BACK ¨&¨&¨&&¨¨&
¨&¨&¨&¨&&¨ AROUND, ENVELOPING ALL MY MEMORIES OF ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
¨&¨&¨&¨¨&¨ OUR TIME TOGETHER. ¨&¨&¨&&¨¨&
¨&¨&¨&¨&&¨ ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
¨&¨&¨&¨¨&¨ THERE WAS BLOOD EVERYWHERE. SOMETIMES ¨&¨&¨&&¨¨&
¨&¨&¨&¨&&¨ THE BLOOD WAS HER RED LIPSTICK OR HER ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
¨&¨&¨&¨¨&¨ CHECKERED SHIRT. SHE WAS ON TELEVISION. ¨&¨&¨&&¨¨&
¨&¨&¨&¨&&¨ WE DID CRIME, AND WE MADE WEIRD ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
¨&¨&¨&¨¨&¨ STRUCTURES IN THE BARN, TALL PILLARS OF ¨&¨&¨&&¨¨&
¨&¨&¨&¨&&¨ DARK WOOD, LADDERS AND PLATEAUS, FIRES ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
¨&¨&¨&¨¨&¨ AND FAIRY LIGHTS. WE WOULD SLEEP THERE ¨&¨&¨&&¨¨&
¨&¨&¨&¨&&¨ AND DRINK THERE AND SHE WOULD GO IN THE ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
¨&¨&¨&¨¨&¨ TELEVISION. ¨&¨&¨&&¨¨&
¨&¨&¨&¨&&¨ ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
¨&¨&¨&¨¨&¨ AND THEN THE SUN CAME OUT, AND SHE WENT ¨&¨&¨&&¨¨&
¨&¨&¨&¨&&¨ AWAY. EVERYTHING CHANGED... I YEARNED, ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
¨&¨&¨&¨¨&¨ AND THE WORLD BECAME DULL AROUND ME. ¨&¨&¨&&¨¨&
¨&¨&¨&¨&&¨ ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
¨&¨&¨&¨¨&¨ I STOPPED DOING CRIME, EXCEPT WHEN ¨&¨&¨&&¨¨&
¨&¨&¨&¨&&¨ NECESSARRY. THINGS SOMEHOW SEEMED LIKE ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
¨&¨&¨&¨¨&¨ THEY WERE ALLRIGHT, MOULDED IN PLACE, ¨&¨&¨&&¨¨&
¨&¨&¨&¨&&¨ AND I LOATHED IT ------ I MISSED HER ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
¨&¨&¨&¨¨&¨ SO MUCH. ¨&¨&¨&&¨¨&
¨&¨&¨&¨&&¨ ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
¨&¨&¨&¨¨&¨ ¨&¨&¨&&¨¨&
¨&¨&¨&¨&&¨ ~~~~~,,¨ ¨,,~~~~~ ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
¨&¨&¨&¨¨&¨ ¨&¨&¨&&¨¨&
¨&¨&¨&¨&&¨ ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
¨&¨&¨&¨¨&¨ I SEARCHED FOR HER, BUT NOBODY HAD ANY ¨&¨&¨&&¨¨&
¨&¨&¨&¨&&¨ MEMORIES OF HER. NOT SO MUCH OF ME ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
¨&¨&¨&¨¨&¨ EITHER, FROM THE TIME WE WERE TOGETHER. ¨&¨&¨&&¨¨&
¨&¨&¨&¨&&¨ MY MOTHER SAID I KEPT TO MYSELF IN THE ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
¨&¨&¨&¨¨&¨ BARN, OR IN THE CAR. ¨&¨&¨&&¨¨&
¨&¨&¨&¨&&¨ ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
¨&¨&¨&¨¨&¨ SOMETIMES I COULD STILL SEE HER ¨&¨&¨&&¨¨&
¨&¨&¨&¨&&¨ FLASHING BY ON THE TV IN THE BARN. ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
¨&¨&¨&¨¨&¨ EVERYTHING WAS BLACK THEN, FOR A ¨&¨&¨&&¨¨&
¨&¨&¨&¨&&¨ MOMENT. I REMEMBERED HER LAUGH AND KNEW ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
¨&¨&¨&¨¨&¨ WE HAD DONE CRIMES TOGETHER, THAT IT ¨&¨&¨&&¨¨&
¨&¨&¨&¨&&¨ HAD BEEN REAL... ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
¨&¨&¨&¨¨&¨ ¨&¨&¨&&¨¨&
¨&¨&¨&¨&&¨ ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
¨&¨&¨&¨¨&¨ ~~~~~,,¨ ¨,,~~~~~ ¨&¨&¨&&¨¨&
¨&¨&¨&¨&&¨ ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
¨&¨&¨&¨¨&¨ ¨&¨&¨&&¨¨&
¨&¨&¨&¨&&¨ I DIED BY GETTING SHOT IN THE HEAD ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
¨&¨&¨&¨¨&¨ WHILE RAMMING THE FENCE TO A MILITARY ¨&¨&¨&&¨¨&
¨&¨&¨&¨&&¨ FACILITY. BY THIS TIME THEY HAD BEEN ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
¨&¨&¨&¨¨&¨ CHASING ME FOR DAYS. I LOST CONTROL ¨&¨&¨&&¨¨&
¨&¨&¨&¨&&¨ OVER THE CAR, CRASHED IT INTO A ROCK ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
¨&¨&¨&¨¨&¨ WALL AND FLEW OUT THE WINDSHIELD. ¨&¨&¨&&¨¨&
¨&¨&¨&¨&&¨ ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
¨&¨&¨&¨¨&¨ AND THEN I GOT UP, AND LOOKED AROUND. ¨&¨&¨&&¨¨&
¨&¨&¨&¨&&¨ IT WAS DARK, WHERE IT PREVIOUSLY HAD ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
¨&¨&¨&¨¨&¨ BEEN A BRIGHT DAY. AROUND ME WHERE ¨&¨&¨&&¨¨&
¨&¨&¨&¨&&¨ DOZENS OF CRASHED CARS, ALL MY CAR, ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
¨&¨&¨&¨¨&¨ SOME ON FIRE. ¨&¨&¨&&¨¨&
¨&¨&¨&¨&&¨ ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
¨&¨&¨&¨¨&¨ THE GROUND WAS STICKY, RED. ¨&¨&¨&&¨¨&
¨&¨&¨&¨&&¨ ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
¨&¨&¨&¨¨&¨ AND THEN I REALIZED THAT I KNEW THIS ¨&¨&¨&&¨¨&
¨&¨&¨&¨&&¨ DARKNESS. I KNEW THE WAY THE SKY ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
¨&¨&¨&¨¨&¨ TOUCHED THE GROUND. THIS WAS HER DOING! ¨&¨&¨&&¨¨&
¨&¨&¨&¨&&¨ SHE WAS HERE! ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
¨&¨&¨&¨¨&¨ ¨&¨&¨&&¨¨&
¨&¨&¨&¨&&¨ ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
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¨&¨&¨&¨&&¨ ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
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