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###,,,##,,         † mirage class goth gf †         ,,#,,##,,,
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##,##,###,  i used to be a goth, in my youth, doing ,######,,#
,,##,##,,# crimes mostly from or in my beloved and  ,#,,,,,#,#
#,#,##,#,#   trusted car, and sometimes my mothers  ###,,,,###
,####,####    barn. we lived just outside town, a   #,,#,,,#,,
,#,,,##,,,   grove at the end of a dirt road, and   ##,##,,##,
,##,,#,#,,   the barn was placed so you could just  #,##,#,#,#
##,#,####,  make out the surrounding fields through ,##,######
,,####,,,#                the trees.                ,#,##,,,,,
,,#,,,#,,#                                          ,###,#,,,,
,,##,,##,#   my car was black and loud, both the    ,#,,###,,,
,,#,#,#,##   engine and the way the parts didn't    ###,#,,#,,
,,#######,     really stick together. i took my     ,,,###,##,
,,#,,,,,,# crimefriend for rides, in the dark, the  #,,#,,##,#
#,##,,,,,#   eternal dark that seemed to surround   ##,##,#,##
,##,#,,,,#   us. she seemed to cast this veil over  ,,##,####,
,#,###,,,#  everything. her black skirt reached to  #,#,##,,,#
####,,#,,#   her knees but then somehow also back   ,####,#,,#
,,,,#,##,#  around, enveloping all my memories of   ##,,,###,#
#,,,###,##            our time together.            #,#,,#,,##
,#,,#,,##,                                          ,###,##,#,
,##,##,#,#  there was blood everywhere. sometimes   ##,,##,###
##,##,####  the blood was her red lipstick or her   ,,#,#,##,,
#,##,##,,,  checkered shirt. she was on television. ,,#####,#,
###,##,#,,      we did crime, and we made weird     ,,#,,,,###
,,,##,###,  structures in the barn, tall pillars of ,,##,,,#,,
,,,#,##,,#  dark wood, ladders and plateaus, fires  #,#,#,,##,
,,,###,#,#  and fairy lights. we would sleep there  ######,#,#
#,,#,,####  and drink there and she would go in the #,,,,,####
,#,##,#,,,               television.                ##,,,,#,,,
,###,###,,                                          #,#,,,##,,
,#,,##,,#,  and then the sun came out, and she went ,###,,#,#,
,##,#,#,##  away. everything changed... i yearned,  ,#,,#,####
##,######,   and the world became dull around me.   ,##,###,,,
#,##,,,,,#                                          ##,##,,#,,
###,#,,,,#    i stopped doing crime, except when    ,,##,#,##,
#,,###,,,#  necessarry. things somehow seemed like  #,#,####,#
,#,#,,#,,#   they were allright, moulded in place,  #####,,,##
#####,##,#   and i loathed it ------ i missed her   ,,,,,#,,#,
#,,,,##,##                 so much.                 #,,,,##,##
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,,#,,,,###                                          #,,,#,,###
#,##,,,#,,  i searched for her, but nobody had any  ##,,##,#,,
###,#,,##,    memories of her. not so much of me    ,,#,#,###,
#,,###,#,# either, from the time we were together.  #,#####,,#
,#,#,,####  my mother said i kept to myself in the  ,##,,,,#,#
#####,#,,,           barn, or in the car.           ##,#,,,###
,,,,,###,,                                          ,,###,,#,,
,,,,,#,,#,     sometimes i could still see her      #,#,,#,##,
,,,,,##,##    flashing by on the tv in the barn.    ####,###,#
#,,,,#,##,     everything was black then, for a     #,,,##,,##
,#,,,###,# moment. i remembered her laugh and knew  ##,,#,#,#,
,##,,#,,##   we had done crimes together, that it   #,#,######
##,#,##,#,             had been real...             ,####,,,,,
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,##,##,#,,    i died by getting shot in the head    ,#,#,#,,,#
##,##,###,   while ramming the fence to a military  ,######,,#
,,##,##,,#   facility. by this time they had been   ,#,,,,,#,#
#,#,##,#,#    chasing me for days. i lost control   ###,,,,###
,####,####   over the car, crashed it into a rock   #,,#,,,#,,
,#,,,##,,,     wall and flew out the windshield.    ##,##,,##,
,##,,#,#,,                                          #,##,#,#,#
##,#,####,  and then i got up, and looked around.   ,##,######
,,####,,,#   it was dark, where it previously had   ,#,##,,,,,
,,#,,,#,,#    been a bright day. around me where    ,###,#,,,,
,,##,,##,#    dozens of crashed cars, all my car,   ,#,,###,,,
,,#,#,#,##               some on fire.              ###,#,,#,,
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,,#,,,,,,#        the ground was sticky, red.       #,,#,,##,#
#,##,,,,,#                                          ##,##,#,##
,##,#,,,,#   and then i realized that i knew this   ,,##,####,
,#,###,,,#     darkness. i knew the way the sky     #,#,##,,,#
####,,#,,#  touched the ground. this was her doing! ,####,#,,#
,,,,#,##,#               she was here!              ##,,,###,#
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