,&&,,&,,,,                                          &&&,&,&&&,
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&,&,,&,,&,                                          &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,&&,&&,                 ,,*¶*,,                  &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,,&,,&,             ,,:%¶######¶%:,,             &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,&&,&&,         ,,,,,~%# dreams #%~,,,,,         &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,,&,,&,             ,,:%¶######¶%:,,             &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,&&,&&,                  ,,*¶*,,                 &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,,&,,&,                                          &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,&&,&&,                   ,,,                    &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,,&,,&,                 ,*&###&*,                &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,&&,&&,                    ,,,                   &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,,&,,&,                                          &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,&&,&&,         internal visionary state         &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,,&,,&,                                          &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,&&,&&,            the spirit travels            &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,,&,,&,                                          &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,&&,&&,             ,,:%¶######¶%:,,             &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,,&,,&,                    ,~,                   &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,&&,&&,                                          &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,,&,,&,                  a cost                  &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,&&,&&,                (anecdote)                &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,,&,,&,                                          &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,&&,&&,                    ,,                    &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,,&,,&,                                          &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,&&,&&, i  wake  suddenly,  and   for  a  second &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,,&,,&, everything is completely  calm and  dead &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,&&,&&, silent.  it's  dark,  and  warm,  and  i &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,,&,,&, slowly  start  to  piece   together   my &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,&&,&&,        consciousness and my body.        &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,,&,,&,                                          &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,&&,&&, then  the  fear  hits  me  and  i   feel &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,,&,,&,    acutely sick. something is ~wrong~.   &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,&&,&&,                                          &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,,&,,&,                    ,,                    &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,&&,&&,                                          &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,,&,,&, there  are circles and crosses inscribed &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,&&,&&, all over my  vision,  pressing in, being &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,,&,,&, almost hostile. i can  feel them squirm, &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,&&,&&,    their internal logic changing and     &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,,&,,&, grinding  trenches in my mind. it's like &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,&&,&&, language, sentences i can't  hide  from, &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,,&,,&, forcefully transcribed  in my mind,  and &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,&&,&&,            doing damage there.           &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,,&,,&,                                          &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,&&,&&, then i  realize  i  can't hear  anything &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,,&,,&,     because there's something there      &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,&&,&&,    already, droning everything out, a    &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,,&,,&, rapid melody,  almost  caustic  in  it's &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,&&,&&,         particular microtonality.        &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,,&,,&,                                          &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,&&,&&,                    ,,                    &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,,&,,&,                                          &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,&&,&&, my  surroundings are entirely calm. it's &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,,&,,&,             almost mocking.              &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,&&,&&,                                          &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,,&,,&, i  feel  helpless,  but i  must  try  to &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,&&,&&, escape. to crawl  on the floor searching &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,,&,,&, relief, such  is my nature. turning  the &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,&&,&&,     lights on does nothing... getting    &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,,&,,&,  outside does nothing... drinking water  &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,&&,&&, does noting...  but  time  does -  after &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,,&,,&,     thirty seconds i'm normal again,     &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,&&,&&, doubting anything of  this  happened  in &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,,&,,&,             the first place.             &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,&&,&&,                                          &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,,&,,&, my eyes  are still tense though, scared. &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,&&,&&, i    don't    know   what    to    make. &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,,&,,&,                                          &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,&&,&&,              but i'm tired.              &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,,&,,&,                                          &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,&&,&&,                     ,                    &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,,&,,&,                  ,,~:~,,                 &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,&&,&&,                     ,                    &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,,&,,&,                                          &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,&&,&&, this  can  happen if you wander too far, &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,,&,,&, i  guess?  i  shouldn't  be so  reckless &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,&&,&&,              when dreaming?              &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,,&,,&, i imagine  a  prick on  the nose, that's &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,&&,&&, what  these  are. like you do with a cat &,&,&,&,&,
&,&,,&,,&, who  comes to  close to your sandwich... &,&,&,&,&,
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