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,&,,&&&,&,         ,,,,,-¤# dreams #¤-,,,,,         &&&&,&,,&&
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,&&&,&,,,&                 ,,$@$,,                  ,,&,,&&&&,
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&&&,&&&&,,                ,$&###&$,                 &&,,&,&,,,
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,&,&,,&&&,                                          &&&,,,&,&&
&&&&,&,,&,         internal visionary state         ,,&,,&&&,&
,,,&&&,&&&                                          ,&&,&,,&&,
,,&,,&&,,,            the spirit travels            &,&&&,&,&,
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&,&&&&&,,,             ,,†¤@######@¤†,,             ,&,&,,,,&,
&&,,,,&,,,                    ,-,                   &&&&,,,&&&
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&&,,&,&,&,                  a cost                  ,,&&,&&,,,
,&,&&&&&&,                (anecdote)                ,&,&&,&,,&
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&,&,,&,&&& i  wake  suddenly,   and  for  a  second &&&&&&&&,,
&&&,&&&,,, everything  is  completely calm and dead ,,,,,,,&,&
,,&&,,&,,& silent.  it's  dark,  and  warm,  and  i ,,,,,,&&&,
,&,&,&&,&, slowly  start  to  piece   together   my ,,,,,&,,&,
&&&&&,&&&,        consciousness and my body.        ,,,,&&,&&,
,,,,&&,,&,                                          ,,,&,&&,&&
,,,&,&,&&, then  the  fear  hits   me  and  i  feel ,,&&&,&&,&
,,&&&&&,&,   acutely sick. something is -wrong-.    ,&,,&&,&&&
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&&,,,&,,,&                    ,,                    ,&&&&,&,&&
,&,,&&,,&&                                          &,,,&&&&,,
&&,&,&,&,, there are  circles and crosses inscribed &,,&,,,&,,
,&&&&&&&,& all over my  vision, pressing in,  being &,&&,,&&,&
&,,,,,,&&& almost hostile.  i can feel them squirm, &&,&,&,&&&
&,,,,,&,,,    their internal logic changing and     ,&&&&&&,,,
&,,,,&&,,, grinding trenches in my mind.  it's like &,,,,,&,,&
&,,,&,&,,& language, sentences i  can't hide  from, &,,,,&&,&,
&,,&&&&,&, forcefully transcribed  in my mind,  and &,,,&,&&&&
&,&,,,&&&&           doing damage there.            &,,&&&,,,,
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,,&,&&,,,, then  i  realize i  can't  hear anything &&&,&&,,&,
,&&&,&,,,&     because there's something there      ,,&&,&,&&,
&,,&&&,,&,    already, droning everything out, a    ,&,&&&&,&,
&,&,,&,&&, rapid  melody, almost  caustic  in  it's &&&,,,&&&&
&&&,&&&,&&        particular microtonality.         ,,&,,&,,,,
,,&&,,&&,,                                          ,&&,&&,,,&
,&,&,&,&,,                    ,,                    &,&&,&,,&&
&&&&&&&&,,                                          &&,&&&,&,&
,,,,,,,&,, my surroundings are entirely  calm. it's ,&&,,&&&&,
,,,,,,&&,,              almost mocking.             &,&,&,,,&,
,,,,,&,&,,                                          &&&&&,,&&,
,,,,&&&&,, i  feel  helpless,  but  i  must try  to ,,,,&,&,&,
,,,&,,,&,, escape. to crawl  on the floor searching ,,,&&&&&&,
,,&&,,&&,, relief, such is my nature.  turning  the ,,&,,,,,&,
,&,&,&,&,,    lights on does nothing... getting     ,&&,,,,&&,
&&&&&&&&,,  outside does nothing... drinking water  &,&,,,&,&,
,,,,,,,&,& does  noting...  but  time  does - after &&&,,&&&&&
,,,,,,&&&,     thirty seconds i'm normal again,     ,,&,&,,,,&
,,,,,&,,&, doubting  anything  of this  happened in ,&&&&,,,&&
,,,,&&,&&&             the first place.             &,,,&,,&,&
,,,&,&&,,,                                          &,,&&,&&&&
,,&&&,&,,& my eyes  are still tense though, scared. &,&,&&,,,&
,&,,&&&,&, i    don't   know    what    to    make. &&&&,&,,&&
&&,&,,&&&&                                          ,,,&&&,&,&
,&&&,&,,,&              but i'm tired.              ,,&,,&&&&,
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&,&,,&,&,,                    ,                     &,&&&,,&&&
&&&,&&&&,,                  ,,-†-,,                 &&,,&,&,,,
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,&,&,,&&&,                                          &&&,,,&,&&
&&&&,&,,&, this  can happen if you  wander too far, ,,&,,&&&,&
,,,&&&,&&& i  guess?  i  shouldn't  be  so reckless ,&&,&,,&&,
,,&,,&&,,,              when dreaming?              &,&&&,&,&,
,&&,&,&,,, i  imagine  a prick on  the nose, that's &&,,&&&&&,
&,&&&&&,,, what  these are.  like you do with a cat ,&,&,,,,&,
&&,,,,&,,, who  comes to close to  your sandwich... &&&&,,,&&&
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