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...:~^%£&#         internal visionary state         #&£%^~:...
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.....:~^%£            the spirit travels            £%^~:.....
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.........: i  wake  suddenly,  and  for   a  second :.........
........:~ everything is  completely calm  and dead ~:........
.......:~^ silent.  it's  dark,  and  warm,  and  i ^~:.......
......:~^% slowly  start  to   piece  together   my %^~:......
.....:~^%£        consciousness and my body.        £%^~:.....
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...:~^%£&# then  the  fear  hits   me  and  i  feel #&£%^~:...
..:~^%£&##    acutely sick. something is ~wrong~.   ##&£%^~:..
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....:~^%£& there are circles and crosses  inscribed &£%^~:....
.....:~^%£ all over my vision,  pressing in,  being £%^~:.....
......:~^% almost hostile. i can feel them  squirm, %^~:......
.......:~^    their internal logic changing and     ^~:.......
........:~ grinding trenches in my  mind. it's like ~:........
.........: language,  sentences i can't hide  from, :.........
.......... forcefully  transcribed in my mind,  and ..........
..........            doing damage there.           ..........
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.......... then i  realize i  can't  hear  anything ..........
..........     because there's something there      ..........
.........:    already, droning everything out, a    :.........
........:~ rapid melody,  almost  caustic  in  it's ~:........
.......:~^         particular microtonality.        ^~:.......
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...:~^%£&# my  surroundings are entirely calm. it's #&£%^~:...
..:~^%£&##              almost mocking.             ##&£%^~:..
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..:~^%£&## i feel  helpless,  but  i  must  try  to ##&£%^~:..
...:~^%£&# escape.  to crawl on the floor searching #&£%^~:...
....:~^%£& relief, such is my nature.  turning  the &£%^~:....
.....:~^%£     lights on does nothing... getting    £%^~:.....
......:~^%  outside does nothing... drinking water  %^~:......
.......:~^ does noting... but  time  does  -  after ^~:.......
........:~     thirty seconds i'm normal again,     ~:........
.........: doubting  anything of  this  happened in :.........
..........             the first place.             ..........
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.......... my eyes are still tense though,  scared. ..........
.......... i    don't    know    what   to    make. ..........
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.........:              but i'm tired.              :.........
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...:~^%£&# this can happen if  you  wander too far, #&£%^~:...
..:~^%£&## i  guess?  i  shouldn't be  so  reckless ##&£%^~:..
.:~^%£&###              when dreaming?              ###&£%^~:.
..:~^%£&## i imagine  a prick on  the nose,  that's ##&£%^~:..
...:~^%£&# what these are. like  you do with a  cat #&£%^~:...
....:~^%£& who  comes  to close to your sandwich... &£%^~:....
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