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,@,,,,,@@, the feeling fo "somethign is  wrong with @,,,@,,,,@
@@@,,,,@,@ the world"  -  in a very  profound  way, ,@,,@@,,,@
,,,@,,,@@@   in a doubt-your-every-qualia way, it   ,@@,@,@,,@
@,,@@,,@,, never dissipated.  just grew used to it, ,@,@@@@@,@
,@,@,@,@@,                numb to it                @@@@,,,,@@
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@,,,,,,,@@   maybe even filtered subconsciously to  @@,,@@,,@@
,@,,,,,,@,     relieve the growing tension and      @,@,@,@,@,
,@@,,,,,@@             disillusionment              ,@@@@@@@@@
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@,@@@,,,@@ that's  perhaps  the  draw  of  stories, ,,@,,,,,,,
@@@,,@,,@,  mysteries and "magiscal realism", most  ,,@@,,,,,,
@,,@,@@,@@ horror   stories   even   -   there   is @,@,@,,,,,
@@,@@@,@@,   confirmation. something really ~is~    ,@@@@@,,,,
@,@@,,@@,@ there. what it is is not  that important ,@,,,,@,,,
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