party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off,  shower curtains  drawn. floor full 
 of dirty  clothes, of  garbage, and as i 
 start to unzip my  pants, she steps  out 
 of   the   shower   and   pushes  me  to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish  to  be   contacted   by   some 
 [god, alien] who would  bestow  upon  me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right forever. what  i  don't 
 know  is  that  this  happens   multiple 
 times  per second -  they ask me:  "when 
 you said the world egg  was  your  ideal 
 body type, did  you  mean it"? i  answer 
 "not really,  but  i can act like it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory  of the encounter  and  moved on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom