party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower curtains drawn.  floor  full 
 of dirty clothes, of garbage,  and as  i 
 start to unzip my  pants, she  steps out 
 of  the   shower   and  pushes   me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish  to  be   contacted   by   some 
 [god,  alien] who  would bestow  upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything  right forever. what i  don't 
 know  is  that  this   happens  multiple 
 times per second  - they  ask me:  "when 
 you  said the  world egg  was your ideal 
 body type,  did you  mean it"? i  answer 
 "not really,  but i can act like  it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory  of the encounter and  moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom