party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower  curtains drawn. floor  full 
 of dirty clothes, of  garbage,  and as i 
 start to unzip my  pants,  she steps out 
 of  the   shower  and   pushes   me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish  to   be   contacted   by  some 
 [god,  alien] who would  bestow  upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything  right forever. what  i don't 
 know  is  that   this  happens  multiple 
 times  per second - they  ask me:  "when 
 you said the  world egg was  your  ideal 
 body type,  did you  mean  it"? i answer 
 "not really, but  i can act  like it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory of the  encounter and  moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom