party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off,  shower curtains drawn. floor  full 
 of dirty clothes, of  garbage,  and as i 
 start to unzip my  pants, she  steps out 
 of   the  shower  and   pushes   me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish   to   be  contacted   by  some 
 [god, alien] who  would  bestow  upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right  forever. what i  don't 
 know   is  that  this  happens  multiple 
 times per  second  - they  ask me: "when 
 you said  the  world egg  was your ideal 
 body type, did you  mean  it"?  i answer 
 "not  really, but i can act like it  for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory  of the  encounter  and moved on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom