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,,,,,,,~*%         ,,,,,~£@ dreams @£~,,,,,         %*~,,,,,,,
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,,,,,~*%££         internal visionary state         ££%*~,,,,,
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,,,,,,,~*%            the spirit travels            %*~,,,,,,,
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,,,,,,,,,,                  a cost                  ,,,,,,,,,,
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,,,,,~*%££ i  wake  suddenly,  and  for   a  second ££%*~,,,,,
,,,,~*%££@ everything is completely  calm  and dead @££%*~,,,,
,,,~*%££@@ silent.  it's  dark,  and  warm,  and  i @@££%*~,,,
,,~*%££@@# slowly   start   to  piece  together  my #@@££%*~,,
,,,~*%££@@        consciousness and my body.        @@££%*~,,,
,,,,~*%££@                                          @££%*~,,,,
,,,,,~*%££ then  the  fear  hits  me   and  i  feel ££%*~,,,,,
,,,,,,~*%£   acutely sick. something is ~wrong~.    £%*~,,,,,,
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,,,,,,,,,, there are circles  and crosses inscribed ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,, all  over my  vision, pressing in, being ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,, almost hostile. i can feel them  squirm, ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,~     their internal logic changing and    ~,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,~* grinding trenches in my  mind. it's like *~,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,~*% language, sentences i can't  hide  from, %*~,,,,,,,
,,,,,,~*%£ forcefully transcribed in  my  mind, and £%*~,,,,,,
,,,,,~*%££           doing damage there.            ££%*~,,,,,
,,,,~*%££@                                          @££%*~,,,,
,,,~*%££@@ then  i  realize  i can't  hear anything @@££%*~,,,
,,~*%££@@#      because there's something there     #@@££%*~,,
,,,~*%££@@    already, droning everything out, a    @@££%*~,,,
,,,,~*%££@ rapid  melody, almost  caustic  in  it's @££%*~,,,,
,,,,,~*%££        particular microtonality.         ££%*~,,,,,
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,,,,,,,,,~ my surroundings are  entirely calm. it's ~,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,,             almost mocking.              ,,,,,,,,,,
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,,,,,,,,,, i feel  helpless,  but  i  must  try  to ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,~ escape. to crawl on the floor  searching ~,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,~* relief, such is  my nature. turning  the *~,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,~*%    lights on does nothing... getting     %*~,,,,,,,
,,,,,,~*%£  outside does nothing... drinking water  £%*~,,,,,,
,,,,,~*%££ does  noting... but  time  does  - after ££%*~,,,,,
,,,,~*%££@     thirty seconds i'm normal again,     @££%*~,,,,
,,,~*%££@@ doubting  anything  of  this happened in @@££%*~,,,
,,~*%££@@#             the first place.             #@@££%*~,,
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,,,,~*%££@ my  eyes are still tense though, scared. @££%*~,,,,
,,,,,~*%££ i    don't    know    what    to   make. ££%*~,,,,,
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,,,,,,,~*%              but i'm tired.              %*~,,,,,,,
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,,,,,,,,,~ this can happen  if you wander too  far, ~,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,~* i  guess?  i  shouldn't  be so  reckless *~,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,~*%              when dreaming?              %*~,,,,,,,
,,,,,,~*%£ i  imagine a prick  on the  nose, that's £%*~,,,,,,
,,,,,~*%££ what these are. like  you do with a  cat ££%*~,,,,,
,,,,~*%££@ who comes  to  close to your sandwich... @££%*~,,,,
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