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,,,,&,,,&,                   ,:,                    ,&,,&&,,,,
,,,&&,,&&,                                          &&,&,&,,,,
,,&,&,&,&&         internal visionary state         ,&&&&&,,,,
,&&&&&&&,,                                          &,,,,&,,,,
&,,,,,,&,,            the spirit travels            &,,,&&,,,,
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&,,,,&,&,&             ,:;$£@####@£$;:,             &,&&&&,,&,
&,,,&&&&&,                   ,»,                    &&,,,&,&&&
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&,&&,,,&&,                  a cost                  &&,&,,&,,&
&&,&,,&,&,                (anecdote)                ,&&&,&&,&,
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&,,&&,,,&,                    ::                    &,&,&&,,,&
&,&,&,,&&&                                          &&&&,&,,&,
&&&&&,&,,, i   wake  suddenly,  and  for  a  second ,,,&&&,&&&
,,,,&&&,,& everything  is completely  calm and dead ,,&,,&&,,,
,,,&,,&,&& silent.  it's  dark,  and  warm,  and  i ,&&,&,&,,,
,,&&,&&&,& slowly   start  to   piece  together  my &,&&&&&,,,
,&,&&,,&&,        consciousness and my body.        &&,,,,&,,,
&&&,&,&,&&                                          ,&,,,&&,,,
,,&&&&&&,, then   the  fear  hits  me  and  i  feel &&,,&,&,,&
,&,,,,,&,,    acutely sick. something is »wrong».   ,&,&&&&,&&
&&,,,,&&,,                                          &&&,,,&&,&
,&,,,&,&,&                    ,,                    ,,&,,&,&&,
&&,,&&&&&&                                          ,&&,&&&,&,
,&,&,,,,,& there are circles and  crosses inscribed &,&&,,&&&&
&&&&,,,,&& all over my  vision, pressing  in, being &&,&,&,,,&
,,,&,,,&,& almost hostile. i  can feel them squirm, ,&&&&&,,&,
,,&&,,&&&&    their internal logic changing and     &,,,,&,&&,
,&,&,&,,,, grinding trenches in my mind. it's  like &,,,&&&,&,
&&&&&&,,,& language, sentences i  can't hide  from, &,,&,,&&&,
,,,,,&,,&& forcefully  transcribed  in my mind, and &,&&,&,,&&
,,,,&&,&,&           doing damage there.            &&,&&&,&,&
,,,&,&&&&&                                          ,&&,,&&&&&
,,&&&,,,,& then  i  realize i  can't hear  anything &,&,&,,,,&
,&,,&,,,&&     because there's something there      &&&&&,,,&&
&&,&&,,&,&    already, droning everything out, a    ,,,,&,,&,&
,&&,&,&&&, rapid  melody,  almost  caustic in  it's ,,,&&,&&&,
&,&&&&,,&&        particular microtonality.         ,,&,&&,,&,
&&,,,&,&,,                                          ,&&&,&,&&&
,&,,&&&&,,                    ::                    &,,&&&&,,,
&&,&,,,&,&                                          &,&,,,&,,,
,&&&,,&&&& my surroundings are entirely calm.  it's &&&,,&&,,&
&,,&,&,,,&              almost mocking.             ,,&,&,&,&&
&,&&&&,,&&                                          ,&&&&&&&,,
&&,,,&,&,, i  feel  helpless,  but i  must  try  to &,,,,,,&,&
,&,,&&&&,, escape. to crawl on  the floor searching &,,,,,&&&,
&&,&,,,&,& relief, such is  my nature. turning  the &,,,,&,,&,
,&&&,,&&&&     lights on does nothing... getting    &,,,&&,&&&
&,,&,&,,,&  outside does nothing... drinking water  &,,&,&&,,&
&,&&&&,,&& does noting...  but  time  does -  after &,&&&,&,&,
&&,,,&,&,&     thirty seconds i'm normal again,     &&,,&&&&&&
,&,,&&&&&, doubting  anything  of  this happened in ,&,&,,,,,,
&&,&,,,,&&             the first place.             &&&&,,,,,,
,&&&,,,&,&                                          ,,,&,,,,,&
&,,&,,&&&, my eyes are still tense though,  scared. ,,&&,,,,&&
&,&&,&,,&, i    don't    know   what    to    make. ,&,&,,,&,,
&&,&&&,&&,                                          &&&&,,&&,&
,&&,,&&,&&              but i'm tired.              ,,,&,&,&&,
&,&,&,&&,,                                          ,,&&&&&,&,
&&&&&&,&,&                    ,                     ,&,,,,&&&&
,,,,,&&&&,                 ::»;»::                  &&,,,&,,,,
,,,,&,,,&,                     ,                    ,&,,&&,,,,
,,,&&,,&&,                                          &&,&,&,,,,
,,&,&,&,&& this can happen  if you  wander too far, ,&&&&&,,,,
,&&&&&&&,, i  guess?  i  shouldn't  be so  reckless &,,,,&,,,,
&,,,,,,&,,              when dreaming?              &,,,&&,,,,
&,,,,,&&,, i  imagine a prick on the  nose,  that's &,,&,&,,,&
&,,,,&,&,& what these are. like  you do  with a cat &,&&&&,,&,
&,,,&&&&&, who  comes to close to your  sandwich... &&,,,&,&&&
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