party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower  curtains drawn.  floor full 
 of  dirty clothes, of garbage, and  as i 
 start to unzip my  pants, she steps  out 
 of   the   shower   and  pushes   me  to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish  to  be   contacted   by   some 
 [god, alien] who would  bestow  upon  me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right forever. what  i  don't 
 know  is   that  this  happens  multiple 
 times  per  second - they ask me:  "when 
 you said the  world egg  was  your ideal 
 body type, did  you  mean it"?  i answer 
 "not really,  but i can act  like it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory  of the encounter  and moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom