party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off,  shower  curtains drawn. floor full 
 of dirty clothes, of  garbage,  and as i 
 start to unzip my  pants, she steps  out 
 of   the   shower   and   pushes  me  to 
 theground. 
  
 i  wish   to  be   contacted   by   some 
 [god,  alien] who  would  bestow upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything  right forever. what i  don't 
 know  is  that  this  happens   multiple 
 times per  second  - they ask me:  "when 
 you said  the world egg  was  your ideal 
 body  type,  did  you mean it"? i answer 
 "not  really,  but i can act like it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory of  the  encounter and moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom