party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower curtains  drawn. floor  full 
 of dirty  clothes,  of garbage, and as i 
 start to unzip  my  pants, she steps out 
 of   the   shower  and   pushes   me  to 
 theground. 
  
 i  wish   to   be   contacted   by  some 
 [god,  alien] who would  bestow upon  me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right  forever.  what i don't 
 know  is  that  this  happens   multiple 
 times per  second  -  they ask me: "when 
 you said the  world egg was  your  ideal 
 body type,  did  you mean it"?  i answer 
 "not really, but i  can act like  it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory of the encounter  and  moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom