party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower  curtains drawn. floor  full 
 of dirty clothes, of  garbage, and as  i 
 start to  unzip my  pants, she steps out 
 of   the   shower   and  pushes  me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i  wish  to   be   contacted   by   some 
 [god,  alien]  who would bestow upon  me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right forever.  what  i don't 
 know   is  that  this  happens  multiple 
 times  per second -  they ask  me: "when 
 you  said the world egg was  your  ideal 
 body type,  did you  mean  it"? i answer 
 "not really, but i  can act like  it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory of  the  encounter  and moved on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom