party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower curtains  drawn.  floor full 
 of dirty clothes,  of garbage,  and as i 
 start  to unzip my pants, she  steps out 
 of  the  shower   and   pushes   me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish   to   be   contacted  by  some 
 [god,  alien] who would bestow  upon  me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right forever. what  i  don't 
 know  is  that  this   happens  multiple 
 times per second  -  they ask  me: "when 
 you said the  world egg was  your  ideal 
 body type,  did  you mean it"? i  answer 
 "not really, but i  can  act like it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory of  the  encounter  and moved on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom