party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off,  shower curtains  drawn. floor full 
 of dirty  clothes, of garbage,  and as i 
 start to  unzip my pants,  she steps out 
 of   the  shower   and  pushes   me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish   to  be   contacted  by   some 
 [god,  alien]  who  would bestow upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything  right forever.  what i don't 
 know  is   that  this  happens  multiple 
 times per second  - they  ask  me: "when 
 you said the  world egg  was  your ideal 
 body type, did  you mean it"?  i  answer 
 "not  really, but i can act like  it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory  of the  encounter and moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom