party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower curtains drawn.  floor  full 
 of dirty clothes,  of garbage,  and as i 
 start  to unzip my pants, she  steps out 
 of   the   shower  and   pushes  me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish   to  be  contacted   by   some 
 [god,  alien] who  would bestow  upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything  right  forever. what i don't 
 know  is   that  this  happens  multiple 
 times  per  second - they ask me:  "when 
 you said  the  world egg  was your ideal 
 body type, did  you mean  it"?  i answer 
 "not  really, but i can act  like it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory of the  encounter and  moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom