party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off,  shower  curtains drawn. floor full 
 of dirty  clothes,  of garbage, and as i 
 start  to  unzip my pants, she steps out 
 of  the   shower   and  pushes   me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i  wish   to  be   contacted   by   some 
 [god, alien] who  would bestow  upon  me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything  right forever. what i  don't 
 know  is  that  this   happens  multiple 
 times per  second  - they ask me:  "when 
 you said  the world egg  was  your ideal 
 body type,  did you mean  it"? i  answer 
 "not really, but  i can act like  it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory  of the  encounter and moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom