party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower curtains  drawn. floor  full 
 of dirty  clothes, of  garbage, and as i 
 start to unzip my  pants,  she steps out 
 of   the   shower  and   pushes   me  to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish   to   be   contacted  by  some 
 [god,  alien]  who would bestow  upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything  right  forever. what i don't 
 know  is   that  this  happens  multiple 
 times per second  -  they ask  me: "when 
 you  said  the  world egg was your ideal 
 body  type, did  you mean it"?  i answer 
 "not really,  but i can act  like it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory  of  the encounter and  moved on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom