party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower curtains drawn.  floor  full 
 of dirty  clothes,  of garbage, and as i 
 start to  unzip my pants,  she steps out 
 of   the   shower   and  pushes  me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish   to   be  contacted   by  some 
 [god,  alien]  who  would bestow upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right  forever.  what i don't 
 know  is  that   this  happens  multiple 
 times per  second -  they ask me:  "when 
 you  said  the world egg was your  ideal 
 body  type, did you mean  it"?  i answer 
 "not really, but i can act  like it  for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory of  the  encounter and  moved on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom