Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was   Thinking    To   Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In The  Winter Because  I 
 Do Not Know How Useful  They  Have  Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them, The Last Few  Times At Least,  And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side Effects That  I 
 Really Do  Not Like,  And There Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With  Random  Things   That   I 
 Happen  To  See...  For  Example,  For A 
 Long Time I  Could  Not  See  A  Certain 
 Kind Of  Leaf  Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I Should Avoid  To Ruin All  The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased Or  At Least  The  Burn-Ins In 
 The   Eyes,  And   Sometimes   Stuff  Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did   Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just Drank Too  Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared  And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What A  Load Of ConceptS This  "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be  Dark When I 
 Close   My  Eyes,  Not  Actually   Cev'S 
 Though, Rather  Just FieldS  And Motion. 
 Now And Then I Hear  This Sound  (A Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It Is  Always  Unpleasant,  I Become 
 So Stressful,  But I  Think It Has To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.