Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was   Thinking   To   Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens In  The  Winter  Because I 
 Do  Not  Know How Useful They Have  Been 
 Anyway? I  Get  So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them, The Last Few  Times At  Least, And 
 There  Are Plenty Of Side Effects That I 
 Really Do  Not  Like, And There Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With   Random  Things  That   I 
 Happen  To  See...  For Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time  I  Could  Not See A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I Should Avoid To Ruin  All  The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased Or  At  Least  The Burn-Ins In 
 The  Eyes,   And   Sometimes   Stuff  Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They   Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe  I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared  And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes That  Shit, 
 What  A Load Of ConceptS This  "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How  Vague  They Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not  Sleep  For  About Twenty 
 Hours,  It Will No Longer Be Dark When I 
 Close   My  Eyes,   Not  Actually  Cev'S 
 Though, Rather Just  FieldS And  Motion. 
 Now And Then I Hear This  Sound (A  Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It Is Always  Unpleasant,  I Become 
 So Stressful,  But I Think It Has To  Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.