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†«~¨¨¨¨¨¨¨                    eh                    ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨~«†
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¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨ i    was   thinking   to   stop    doing ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨
¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨ hallucinogens in  the winter  because  i ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨
¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨ do  not  know how useful they have  been ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨
¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨ anyway?  i  get  so tense  when  i  take ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨
¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨ them,  the  last few times at least, and ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨
¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨ there are plenty of side effects that  i ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨
¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨ really  do  not like,  and there will be ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨
¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨   associations with these mini-anxiety   ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨
~¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨ attacks  with  random   things   that  i ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨~
«~¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨ happen  to  see...  for example,  for  a ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨~«
†«~¨¨¨¨¨¨¨ long time  i  could not  see  a  certain ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨~«†
*†«~¨¨¨¨¨¨ kind  of  leaf  without getting  anxious ¨¨¨¨¨¨~«†*
&*†«~¨¨¨¨¨ ...  and i should avoid  to ruin all the ¨¨¨¨¨~«†*&
§&*†«~¨¨¨¨             seasons this way.            ¨¨¨¨~«†*&§
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##§&*†«~¨¨     hmm, recently my visual phenomena    ¨¨~«†*&§##
#§&*†«~¨¨¨ increased or at least  the  burn-ins  in ¨¨¨~«†*&§#
§&*†«~¨¨¨¨ the  eyes,   and   sometimes  stuff   is ¨¨¨¨~«†*&§
&*†«~¨¨¨¨¨ breathing   now,  they  did  not  do  it ¨¨¨¨¨~«†*&
*†«~¨¨¨¨¨¨ before. but maybe i just drank too  much ¨¨¨¨¨¨~«†*
†«~¨¨¨¨¨¨¨ coffee. maybe i'm scared  and making all ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨~«†
«~¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨             these things up.             ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨~«
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¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨ it  comes  to  me sometimes  that  shit, ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨
¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨ what a load of concepts  this  "reality" ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨
¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨ consists  of, and  how  vague  they  are ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨
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¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨ if  i  do  not sleep  for  about  twenty ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨
~¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨ hours,  it will no longer be dark when i ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨~
«~¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨ close  my  eyes,   not   actually  cev's ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨~«
†«~¨¨¨¨¨¨¨ though,  rather just  fields and motion. ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨~«†
*†«~¨¨¨¨¨¨ now and then i hear this sound  (a  real ¨¨¨¨¨¨~«†*
&*†«~¨¨¨¨¨     sound (i think)), resembling some    ¨¨¨¨¨~«†*&
§&*†«~¨¨¨¨  "knerp" from twentyfive c nbome or so.  ¨¨¨¨~«†*&§
#§&*†«~¨¨¨ and it is  always unpleasant,  i  become ¨¨¨~«†*&§#
##§&*†«~¨¨ so stressful, but i  think it has  to do ¨¨~«†*&§##
###§&*†«~¨        with the novelty. i hope.         ¨~«†*&§###
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