Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was   Thinking   To    Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens In  The  Winter Because  I 
 Do  Not Know How Useful  They  Have Been 
 Anyway? I  Get  So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them, The Last  Few  Times At Least, And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side Effects  That I 
 Really  Do Not Like,  And  There Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With   Random  Things   That  I 
 Happen To  See...  For  Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time  I  Could  Not  See A Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I  Should Avoid To Ruin  All The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased  Or  At Least The Burn-Ins  In 
 The  Eyes,   And   Sometimes   Stuff  Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They   Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe  I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe  I'M Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What  A  Load Of ConceptS This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How  Vague  They Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I Do  Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will  No Longer Be Dark When I 
 Close  My   Eyes,  Not  Actually   Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just FieldS  And Motion. 
 Now And Then I  Hear This  Sound (A Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It  Is  Always Unpleasant, I  Become 
 So  Stressful,  But I Think It Has To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.