EH                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    WAS   THINKING    TO   STOP   DOING 
 HALLUCINOGENS  IN THE  WINTER  BECAUSE I 
 DO  NOT KNOW HOW USEFUL THEY  HAVE  BEEN 
 ANYWAY? I  GET  SO  TENSE  WHEN  I  TAKE 
 THEM, THE  LAST FEW TIMES  AT LEAST, AND 
 THERE ARE PLENTY  OF SIDE EFFECTS THAT I 
 REALLY DO NOT LIKE,  AND  THERE  WILL BE 
   ASSOCIATIONS WITH THESE MINI-ANXIETY   
 ATTACKS  WITH   RANDOM  THINGS   THAT  I 
 HAPPEN  TO  SEE...  FOR  EXAMPLE, FOR  A 
 LONG TIME  I  COULD  NOT  SEE A  CERTAIN 
 KIND OF  LEAF  WITHOUT  GETTING  ANXIOUS 
 ... AND  I SHOULD AVOID TO RUIN  ALL THE 
            SEASONS THIS WAY.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
    HMM, RECENTLY MY VISUAL PHENOMENA     
 INCREASED OR  AT LEAST THE  BURN-INS  IN 
 THE   EYES,  AND  SOMETIMES   STUFF   IS 
 BREATHING   NOW,  THEY  DID  NOT  DO  IT 
 BEFORE. BUT MAYBE I  JUST DRANK TOO MUCH 
 COFFEE. MAYBE I'M SCARED AND  MAKING ALL 
             THESE THINGS UP.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IT  COMES  TO  ME  SOMETIMES  THAT SHIT, 
 WHAT  A LOAD  OF CONCEPTS THIS "REALITY" 
 CONSISTS OF,  AND  HOW  VAGUE  THEY  ARE 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IF  I DO  NOT  SLEEP  FOR  ABOUT  TWENTY 
 HOURS, IT WILL NO LONGER BE  DARK WHEN I 
 CLOSE  MY  EYES,   NOT   ACTUALLY  CEV'S 
 THOUGH,  RATHER JUST  FIELDS AND MOTION. 
 NOW  AND THEN I HEAR THIS SOUND  (A REAL 
     SOUND (I THINK)), RESEMBLING SOME    
  "KNERP" FROM TWENTYFIVE C NBOME OR SO.  
 AND IT IS  ALWAYS  UNPLEASANT,  I BECOME 
 SO STRESSFUL,  BUT I THINK  IT HAS TO DO 
        WITH THE NOVELTY. I HOPE.