Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was   Thinking    To    Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In  The  Winter Because I 
 Do Not  Know How  Useful They  Have Been 
 Anyway? I  Get  So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them, The Last Few  Times At Least,  And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side  Effects That I 
 Really Do  Not Like,  And There Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With   Random  Things  That  I 
 Happen  To  See...  For  Example, For  A 
 Long  Time  I  Could Not  See A  Certain 
 Kind Of  Leaf  Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ...  And  I Should Avoid To Ruin All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased  Or At  Least The  Burn-Ins In 
 The  Eyes,   And   Sometimes  Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not  Do   It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just Drank Too  Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared And Making  All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes That  Shit, 
 What  A Load Of ConceptS This  "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If I  Do  Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be Dark When  I 
 Close  My  Eyes,   Not   Actually  Cev'S 
 Though, Rather  Just FieldS And  Motion. 
 Now And Then  I Hear This Sound  (A Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It Is Always  Unpleasant,  I  Become 
 So  Stressful, But I  Think It Has To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.