Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was    Thinking   To   Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In  The Winter Because  I 
 Do Not Know How Useful  They  Have  Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense  When I  Take 
 Them, The  Last  Few Times At Least, And 
 There Are  Plenty Of Side Effects That I 
 Really Do Not Like, And  There  Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With   Random  Things   That  I 
 Happen  To  See...  For  Example,  For A 
 Long Time  I  Could Not  See  A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without  Getting Anxious 
 ... And I Should Avoid  To  Ruin All The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased Or  At Least  The Burn-Ins  In 
 The   Eyes,   And   Sometimes  Stuff  Is 
 Breathing   Now,  They  Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I  Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee.  Maybe I'M Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes That  Shit, 
 What A  Load  Of ConceptS This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I Do  Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be Dark When  I 
 Close  My   Eyes,  Not  Actually   Cev'S 
 Though, Rather  Just FieldS  And Motion. 
 Now And  Then I Hear This Sound  (A Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It  Is  Always Unpleasant,  I Become 
 So Stressful, But I Think It  Has  To Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.