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§§§¨§¨¨¨¨¨                                          ¨§§¨¨§§¨§§
¨¨¨§§§¨¨¨¨                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨
¨¨¨§¨¨§¨¨¨  I USED TO BE A GOTH, IN MY YOUTH, DOING §§§§§§§§¨§
§¨¨§§¨§§¨¨  CRIMES MOSTLY FROM OR IN MY BELOVED AND ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨§§
¨§¨§¨§§¨§¨  TRUSTED CAR, AND SOMETIMES MY MOTHERS   §¨¨¨¨¨¨¨§¨
¨§§§§§¨§§§    BARN. WE LIVED JUST OUTSIDE TOWN, A   ¨§¨¨¨¨¨¨§§
§§¨¨¨¨§§¨¨   GROVE AT THE END OF A DIRT ROAD, AND   ¨§§¨¨¨¨¨§¨
§¨§¨¨¨§¨§¨  THE BARN WAS PLACED SO YOU COULD JUST   ¨§¨§¨¨¨¨§§
¨§§§¨¨§§§§ MAKE OUT THE SURROUNDING FIELDS THROUGH  ¨§§§§¨¨¨§¨
¨§¨¨§¨§¨¨¨                THE TREES.                ¨§¨¨¨§¨¨§§
§§§¨§§§§¨¨                                          §§§¨¨§§¨§¨
§¨¨§§¨¨¨§¨   MY CAR WAS BLACK AND LOUD, BOTH THE    §¨¨§¨§¨§§§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§§   ENGINE AND THE WAY THE PARTS DIDN'T    ¨§¨§§§§§¨¨
¨§§§§§§¨§¨     REALLY STICK TOGETHER. I TOOK MY     ¨§§§¨¨¨¨§¨
¨§¨¨¨¨¨§§§ CRIMEFRIEND FOR RIDES, IN THE DARK, THE  §§¨¨§¨¨¨§§
§§§¨¨¨¨§¨¨   ETERNAL DARK THAT SEEMED TO SURROUND   §¨§¨§§¨¨§¨
§¨¨§¨¨¨§§¨   US. SHE SEEMED TO CAST THIS VEIL OVER  ¨§§§§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§§¨¨§¨§  EVERYTHING. HER BLACK SKIRT REACHED TO  ¨§¨¨¨§§§§¨
¨§§§¨§¨§§§   HER KNEES BUT THEN SOMEHOW ALSO BACK   ¨§§¨¨§¨¨¨§
§§¨¨§§§§¨¨   AROUND, ENVELOPING ALL MY MEMORIES OF  ¨§¨§¨§§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨¨¨§¨            OUR TIME TOGETHER.            ¨§§§§§¨§¨§
§¨§§§§¨¨§§                                          ¨§¨¨¨¨§§§§
¨§§¨¨¨§¨§¨   THERE WAS BLOOD EVERYWHERE. SOMETIMES  ¨§§¨¨¨§¨¨¨
¨§¨§¨¨§§§§  THE BLOOD WAS HER RED LIPSTICK OR HER   §§¨§¨¨§§¨¨
¨§§§§¨§¨¨¨  CHECKERED SHIRT. SHE WAS ON TELEVISION. ¨¨§§§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨¨¨§§§¨¨     WE DID CRIME, AND WE MADE WEIRD      ¨¨§¨¨§§§§§
§§§¨¨§¨¨§¨ STRUCTURES IN THE BARN, TALL PILLARS OF  §¨§§¨§¨¨¨¨
§¨¨§¨§§¨§§  DARK WOOD, LADDERS AND PLATEAUS, FIRES  §§§¨§§§¨¨¨
§§¨§§§¨§§¨  AND FAIRY LIGHTS. WE WOULD SLEEP THERE  ¨¨¨§§¨¨§¨¨
§¨§§¨¨§§¨§ AND DRINK THERE AND SHE WOULD GO IN THE  ¨¨¨§¨§¨§§¨
§§§¨§¨§¨§§               TELEVISION.                ¨¨¨§§§§§¨§
¨¨¨§§§§§§¨                                          ¨¨¨§¨¨¨¨§§
§¨¨§¨¨¨¨¨§ AND THEN THE SUN CAME OUT, AND SHE WENT  §¨¨§§¨¨¨§¨
§§¨§§¨¨¨¨§  AWAY. EVERYTHING CHANGED... I YEARNED,  ¨§¨§¨§¨¨§§
¨¨§§¨§¨¨¨§   AND THE WORLD BECAME DULL AROUND ME.   §§§§§§§¨§¨
¨¨§¨§§§¨¨§                                          ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨§§§
§¨§§§¨¨§¨§    I STOPPED DOING CRIME, EXCEPT WHEN    §¨¨¨¨¨¨§¨¨
§§§¨¨§¨§§§  NECESSARRY. THINGS SOMEHOW SEEMED LIKE  ¨§¨¨¨¨¨§§¨
§¨¨§¨§§§¨¨   THEY WERE ALLRIGHT, MOULDED IN PLACE,  §§§¨¨¨¨§¨§
¨§¨§§§¨¨§¨   AND I LOATHED IT ------ I MISSED HER   §¨¨§¨¨¨§§§
§§§§¨¨§¨§§                 SO MUCH.                 §§¨§§¨¨§¨¨
§¨¨¨§¨§§§¨                                          ¨¨§§¨§¨§§¨
§§¨¨§§§¨¨§                                          ¨¨§¨§§§§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨¨§¨§             ~~~~~::¨ ¨::~~~~~            ¨¨§§§¨¨¨§§
§¨§§§§¨§§§                                          ¨¨§¨¨§¨¨§¨
§§§¨¨¨§§¨¨                                          ¨¨§§¨§§¨§§
¨¨¨§¨¨§¨§¨  I SEARCHED FOR HER, BUT NOBODY HAD ANY  §¨§¨§§¨§§¨
¨¨¨§§¨§§§§    MEMORIES OF HER. NOT SO MUCH OF ME    §§§§§¨§§¨§
§¨¨§¨§§¨¨¨ EITHER, FROM THE TIME WE WERE TOGETHER.  ¨¨¨¨¨§§¨§§
¨§¨§§§¨§¨¨  MY MOTHER SAID I KEPT TO MYSELF IN THE  §¨¨¨¨§¨§§¨
¨§§§¨¨§§§¨           BARN, OR IN THE CAR.           ¨§¨¨¨§§§¨§
§§¨¨§¨§¨¨§                                          §§§¨¨§¨¨§§
¨¨§¨§§§§¨§      SOMETIMES I COULD STILL SEE HER     ¨¨¨§¨§§¨§¨
¨¨§§§¨¨¨§§    FLASHING BY ON THE TV IN THE BARN.    §¨¨§§§¨§§§
§¨§¨¨§¨¨§¨     EVERYTHING WAS BLACK THEN, FOR A     §§¨§¨¨§§¨¨
§§§§¨§§¨§§ MOMENT. I REMEMBERED HER LAUGH AND KNEW  ¨¨§§§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨¨§§¨§§¨   WE HAD DONE CRIMES TOGETHER, THAT IT   §¨§¨¨§§§§§
¨§¨¨§¨§§¨§             HAD BEEN REAL...             §§§§¨§¨¨¨¨
¨§§¨§§§¨§§                                          §¨¨¨§§§¨¨¨
¨§¨§§¨¨§§¨                                          §§¨¨§¨¨§¨¨
¨§§§¨§¨§¨§             ~~~~~::¨ ¨::~~~~~            ¨¨§¨§§¨§§¨
¨§¨¨§§§§§§                                          §¨§§§¨§§¨§
§§§¨§¨¨¨¨¨                                          ¨§§¨¨§§¨§§
¨¨¨§§§¨¨¨¨    I DIED BY GETTING SHOT IN THE HEAD    ¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨
¨¨¨§¨¨§¨¨¨   WHILE RAMMING THE FENCE TO A MILITARY  §§§§§§§§¨§
§¨¨§§¨§§¨¨   FACILITY. BY THIS TIME THEY HAD BEEN   ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨§§
¨§¨§¨§§¨§¨   CHASING ME FOR DAYS. I LOST CONTROL    §¨¨¨¨¨¨¨§¨
¨§§§§§¨§§§   OVER THE CAR, CRASHED IT INTO A ROCK   ¨§¨¨¨¨¨¨§§
§§¨¨¨¨§§¨¨     WALL AND FLEW OUT THE WINDSHIELD.    ¨§§¨¨¨¨¨§¨
§¨§¨¨¨§¨§¨                                          ¨§¨§¨¨¨¨§§
¨§§§¨¨§§§§   AND THEN I GOT UP, AND LOOKED AROUND.  ¨§§§§¨¨¨§¨
¨§¨¨§¨§¨¨¨   IT WAS DARK, WHERE IT PREVIOUSLY HAD   ¨§¨¨¨§¨¨§§
§§§¨§§§§¨¨    BEEN A BRIGHT DAY. AROUND ME WHERE    §§§¨¨§§¨§¨
§¨¨§§¨¨¨§¨   DOZENS OF CRASHED CARS, ALL MY CAR,    §¨¨§¨§¨§§§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§§              SOME ON FIRE.               ¨§¨§§§§§¨¨
¨§§§§§§¨§¨                                          ¨§§§¨¨¨¨§¨
¨§¨¨¨¨¨§§§       THE GROUND WAS STICKY, RED.        §§¨¨§¨¨¨§§
§§§¨¨¨¨§¨¨                                          §¨§¨§§¨¨§¨
§¨¨§¨¨¨§§¨   AND THEN I REALIZED THAT I KNEW THIS   ¨§§§§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§§¨¨§¨§     DARKNESS. I KNEW THE WAY THE SKY     ¨§¨¨¨§§§§¨
¨§§§¨§¨§§§ TOUCHED THE GROUND. THIS WAS HER DOING!  ¨§§¨¨§¨¨¨§
§§¨¨§§§§¨¨              SHE WAS HERE!               ¨§¨§¨§§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨¨¨§¨                                          ¨§§§§§¨§¨§
§¨§§§§¨¨§§                                          ¨§¨¨¨¨§§§§
¨§§¨¨¨§¨§¨                                          ¨§§¨¨¨§¨¨¨
¨§¨§¨¨§§§§                                          §§¨§¨¨§§¨¨
¨§§§§¨§¨¨¨                                          ¨¨§§§¨§¨§¨