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.......... now, usually i  feel good (maybe?),  but ..........
.......... this  time of confusion  also  leads  to ..........
:......... all  analyzes ending  in  "useless" -  i .........:
~:........ was  being  bothered by  something  in a ........:~
=~:....... song  or movie or book, so i think,  how .......:~=
@=~:...... would  i  have  done  it,  what  is  the ......:~=@
&@=~:..... purpose of  this  process, what does  it .....:~=@&
@&@=~:.... consist of...? and  through  the process ....:~=@&@
#@&@=~:... more and  more  pieces  falls  off until ...:~=@&@#
##@&@=~:..     i'm standing there with nothing.     ..:~=@&@##
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##@&@=~:.. reductionist hell -                      ..:~=@&@##
#@&@=~:... i wan't a bottom floor, a concept        ...:~=@&@#
@&@=~:.... bedrock, but the deeper i go the more    ....:~=@&@
&@=~:..... abstract they are, the things, until     .....:~=@&
@=~:...... they cease to be things at all           ......:~=@
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~:........ are we just stacked triangles? there is  ........:~
:......... nothing i can do with triangles. they    .........:
.......... can not shelter me in any meaningful     ..........
.......... sense.                                   ..........
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.......... and when i can't even anchor myself,     ..........
.......... when i am nothing but the question, it   ..........
:......... feels like it can all slip through my    .........:
~:........ fingers... "whoops", and nothing ever    ........:~
=~:....... was after that.                          .......:~=
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