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.......... now, usually i  feel good  (maybe?), but ..........
.........^ this time  of  confusion  also  leads to ^.........
........^~ all analyzes ending  in  "useless"  -  i ~^........
.......^~† was  being  bothered by something  in  a †~^.......
......^~†% song or movie or book, so  i think,  how %†~^......
.....^~†%@ would  i  have  done  it,  what  is  the @%†~^.....
....^~†%@£ purpose of this  process,  what  does it £@%†~^....
...^~†%@£# consist  of...?  and through the process #£@%†~^...
..^~†%@£## more and more  pieces  falls  off  until ##£@%†~^..
.^~†%@£###     i'm standing there with nothing.     ###£@%†~^.
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...^~†%@£# reductionist hell -                      #£@%†~^...
....^~†%@£ i wan't a bottom floor, a concept        £@%†~^....
.....^~†%@ bedrock, but the deeper i go the more    @%†~^.....
......^~†% abstract they are, the things, until     %†~^......
.......^~† they cease to be things at all           †~^.......
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.........^ are we just stacked triangles? there is  ^.........
.......... nothing i can do with triangles. they    ..........
.......... can not shelter me in any meaningful     ..........
.......... sense.                                   ..........
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........^~ and when i can't even anchor myself,     ~^........
.......^~† when i am nothing but the question, it   †~^.......
......^~†% feels like it can all slip through my    %†~^......
.....^~†%@ fingers... "whoops", and nothing ever    @%†~^.....
....^~†%@£ was after that.                          £@%†~^....
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