something's  inside  of me  and  i  know 
 this  because  of   how  nice  it  feels 
                                          
  
                                          
 there are  brown spots on my hands. they 
    are moving, growing, disappearing,    
 appearing again. this is almost  erotic. 
                                          
 there is  a spy in my eyes, installed to 
 identify these spots  and to give me  an 
     appropriate reaction (positive).     
                                          
 when i  gather all my willpower, and set 
 it   ablaze  all  at   once,   the  most 
 resistance i can muster is indifference.