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&&......&& in my first  madness i  gave names to my ..&.&.&.&&
..&.....&. made  up patron saints  and there  was a ..&&&&&&&.
..&&....&& lot of  surrounding  beliefs and i had a ..&......&
&.&.&...&. reincarnation system all made out  and i &.&&.....&
.&&&&&..&&        started smoking cigarettes        .&&.&....&
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&&.&&&&.&. me - my angsty, depressed,               ..&&&..&&.
&.&&...&&&      angry little self                   ..&..&.&.&
.&&.&..&.. musho - likes colours                    ..&&.&&&&&
&&.&&&.&&. vidmi - god of forsaken writing          ..&.&&....
&.&&..&&.& implements                               &.&&&.&...
&&&.&.&.&& naftakin - black cloak and substrate     .&&..&&&..
&..&&&&&&.            for various made up worlds    .&.&.&..&.
&&.&.....& wanja - actually i don't know this       .&&&&&&.&&
..&&&....&         person. something about          .&.....&&.
..&..&...&         "leaves"? or is wanja            &&&....&.&
&.&&.&&..&         the "final fox"? (kills you)     ...&...&&&
.&&.&&.&.& heaven - the world                       &..&&..&..
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