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,,-^†%&###         †^-----,,,,  ,,,,-----^†         ###&%†^-,,
,,,,,,-†&&         †                      †         &&†-,,,,,,
,,,,--†%##         † mirage class goth gf †         ##%†--,,,,
,,-^†&####         †                      †         ####&†^-,,
,,,,-^%&&#         †^-----,,,,  ,,,,-----^†         #&&%^-,,,,
,,-^†%&###                                          ###&%†^-,,
,,-^†%&###                                          ###&%†^-,,
,,-^†%&&## i used to be a goth, in my youth, doing  ##&&%†^-,,
,,-^†%&### crimes mostly from or in my beloved and  ###&%†^-,,
,,-^†%&###   trusted car, and sometimes my mothers  ###&%†^-,,
,,-^†%&###    barn. we lived just outside town, a   ###&%†^-,,
,,-^†%####   grove at the end of a dirt road, and   ####%†^-,,
,,,,,,-^†&  the barn was placed so you could just   &†^-,,,,,,
,,,,,,^†%#  make out the surrounding fields through #%†^,,,,,,
,,,,,-†%%#                the trees.                #%%†-,,,,,
,,-^^†††&#                                          #&†††^^-,,
,,-^†%&###   my car was black and loud, both the    ###&%†^-,,
,,-^†%&###   engine and the way the parts didn't    ###&%†^-,,
,,-^†%&###     really stick together. i took my     ###&%†^-,,
,,-^†††&## crimefriend for rides, in the dark, the  ##&†††^-,,
,,,,,-^%%&   eternal dark that seemed to surround   &%%^-,,,,,
,,-^†%%&##  us. she seemed to cast this veil over   ##&%%†^-,,
,,,,,-^^%&  everything. her black skirt reached to  &%^^-,,,,,
,,-^†%&###   her knees but then somehow also back   ###&%†^-,,
,,,,,^††&#   around, enveloping all my memories of  #&††^,,,,,
,,,,^^^%&&            our time together.            &&%^^^,,,,
,,-^†%&###                                          ###&%†^-,,
,,,,-^†%&&   there was blood everywhere. sometimes  &&%†^-,,,,
,,-^†%&###  the blood was her red lipstick or her   ###&%†^-,,
,,-^††††%&  checkered shirt. she was on television. &%††††^-,,
,,-^†%&&##     we did crime, and we made weird      ##&&%†^-,,
,,-^†%&### structures in the barn, tall pillars of  ###&%†^-,,
,,-^^††&&&  dark wood, ladders and plateaus, fires  &&&††^^-,,
,,-^†%&###  and fairy lights. we would sleep there  ###&%†^-,,
,,-^†%&###  and drink there and she would go in the ###&%†^-,,
,,,,,-^%##                television.               ##%^-,,,,,
,,-^†%&###                                          ###&%†^-,,
,,-^†%&###  and then the sun came out, and she went ###&%†^-,,
,,,,,^^%##  away. everything changed... i yearned,  ##%^^,,,,,
,,-^†%&###   and the world became dull around me.   ###&%†^-,,
,,,,,^††%#                                          #%††^,,,,,
,,,,^^^†&#    i stopped doing crime, except when    #&†^^^,,,,
,,-^†%&###  necessarry. things somehow seemed like  ###&%†^-,,
,,,,,-^†&#  they were allright, moulded in place,   #&†^-,,,,,
,,-^†%&###   and i loathed it ------ i missed her   ###&%†^-,,
,,-^†%&###                 so much.                 ###&%†^-,,
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,,,,----†&             -----,,, ,,,-----            &†----,,,,
,,-^††%%&&                                          &&%%††^-,,
,,-^†%&###                                          ###&%†^-,,
,,,--††&##  i searched for her, but nobody had any  ##&††--,,,
,,-^†%&###    memories of her. not so much of me    ###&%†^-,,
,,-^†%&### either, from the time we were together.  ###&%†^-,,
,,,,,,-†&#  my mother said i kept to myself in the  #&†-,,,,,,
,,,,,^††&&           barn, or in the car.           &&††^,,,,,
,,-^†%&###                                          ###&%†^-,,
,,-^†%&&&#     sometimes i could still see her      #&&&%†^-,,
,,,-^^†%##    flashing by on the tv in the barn.    ##%†^^-,,,
,,-^†%&&&#     everything was black then, for a     #&&&%†^-,,
,,,--^†%%# moment. i remembered her laugh and knew  #%%†^--,,,
,,-^†%&###   we had done crimes together, that it   ###&%†^-,,
,,-^†%&&##             had been real...             ##&&%†^-,,
,,,,,--†%#                                          #%†--,,,,,
,,,,,--^†&                                          &†^--,,,,,
,,-^†%&###             -----,,, ,,,-----            ###&%†^-,,
,,-^†%&###                                          ###&%†^-,,
,,,,,^†&&#                                          #&&†^,,,,,
,,,,,-†&&&    i died by getting shot in the head    &&&†-,,,,,
,,---^†%##   while ramming the fence to a military  ##%†^---,,
,,-^†††%##   facility. by this time they had been   ##%†††^-,,
,,-^†%&###   chasing me for days. i lost control    ###&%†^-,,
,,-^†%&###   over the car, crashed it into a rock   ###&%†^-,,
,,,,,-†%##     wall and flew out the windshield.    ##%†-,,,,,
,,,,-††&&#                                          #&&††-,,,,
,,,,,,,-†&  and then i got up, and looked around.   &†-,,,,,,,
,,,,,-†%##   it was dark, where it previously had   ##%†-,,,,,
,,,,,,^††&    been a bright day. around me where    &††^,,,,,,
,,,,,,-†%&   dozens of crashed cars, all my car,    &%†-,,,,,,
,,,,,^††&#               some on fire.              #&††^,,,,,
,,-^^^†%&#                                          #&%†^^^-,,
,,-^†%&###        the ground was sticky, red.       ###&%†^-,,
,,-^†%&###                                          ###&%†^-,,
,,,,,-^†%&   and then i realized that i knew this   &%†^-,,,,,
,,,,,---†&     darkness. i knew the way the sky     &†---,,,,,
,,-^†%%%%& touched the ground. this was her doing!  &%%%%†^-,,
,,-^†%&###               she was here!              ###&%†^-,,
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