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,,,@@@@@@@  in a black rubbery sleep i dream about  @@@@@@@,,@
,,@,,,,,,@         cold boiling asphalt and         ,,,,,,@,@@
,@@,,,,,@@        crimson emergency flares...       ,,,,,@@@,@
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@@,@@@@@@@    they were tearing down statues, and   @,@@@,,@@,
,@@,,,,,,,  bellowing their manifest, in the rain,  @@,,@,@,@@
@,@,,,,,,@               in the dark,               ,@,@@@@@,@
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,,@,,,,@@@     and something followed me out, a     ,,@,,,@,@@
,@@,,,@,,,  yearning. a memory of being touched by  ,@@,,@@@,@
@,@,,@@,,,     a ray from a raspberry sun. still    @,@,@,,@@@
@@@,@,@,,,  there, everything would be gritty and   @@@@@,@,,,
,,@@@@@,,@  full of tar. rain upon it. but then a   ,,,,@@@,,@
,@,,,,@,@@  few bright and colorful anomalies. and  ,,,@,,@,@@
@@,,,@@@,,            a promise for more.           ,,@@,@@@,@
,@,,@,,@,@                                          ,@,@@,,@@,
@@,@@,@@@@  like waking up with a business card in  @@@,@,@,@,
,@@,@@,,,@              your pocket...              ,,@@@@@@@@
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@@,@@@,@@,   a feather boa wrapped around a velvet  @@,,,,,,@,
,@@,,@@,@@ lizard, surfacing for milliseconds at a  ,@,,,,,@@@
@,@,@,@@,@    time, calling, tugging at my arms.    @@,,,,@,,@
@@@@@@,@@@    begging me to sink back down and be   ,@,,,@@,@,
,,,,,@@,,@ with them, with their kind. easy to get  @@,,@,@@@@
,,,,@,@,@@   washed away from the tether, from the  ,@,@@@,,,@
,,,@@@@@,@               way back up.               @@@,,@,,@@
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@,@,,@@,@@ but i cannot go. the consequences would  @,,@@,,,,@
@@@,@,@@,@   be too large. especially since i'm in  @,@,@,,,@,
,,@@@@,@@,   the work mill and they've got their    @@@@@,,@@@
,@,,,@@,@,   eyes on me already. the feeling will   ,,,,@,@,,@
@@,,@,@@@,  wane, and i will miss it, and cease to  ,,,@@@@,@@
,@,@@@,,@@        understand. like every day.       ,,@,,,@@,,
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