¨¨§¨¨§§¨¨¨                                          §¨§¨§§§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨¨¨                                          §¨§¨¨§§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨¨§                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨         §^=====~~~¨  ¨~~~=====^§         §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨         §                      §         §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨         § MIRAGE CLASS GOTH GF §         §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨         §                      §         §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨         §^=====~~~¨  ¨~~~=====^§         §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨ I USED TO BE A GOTH, IN MY YOUTH, DOING  §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨ CRIMES MOSTLY FROM OR IN MY BELOVED AND  §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨   TRUSTED CAR, AND SOMETIMES MY MOTHERS  §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨    BARN. WE LIVED JUST OUTSIDE TOWN, A   §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨   GROVE AT THE END OF A DIRT ROAD, AND   §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨   THE BARN WAS PLACED SO YOU COULD JUST  §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨ MAKE OUT THE SURROUNDING FIELDS THROUGH  §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨                THE TREES.                §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨    MY CAR WAS BLACK AND LOUD, BOTH THE   §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨   ENGINE AND THE WAY THE PARTS DIDN'T    §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨     REALLY STICK TOGETHER. I TOOK MY     §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨  CRIMEFRIEND FOR RIDES, IN THE DARK, THE §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨   ETERNAL DARK THAT SEEMED TO SURROUND   §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨   US. SHE SEEMED TO CAST THIS VEIL OVER  §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨  EVERYTHING. HER BLACK SKIRT REACHED TO  §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨   HER KNEES BUT THEN SOMEHOW ALSO BACK   §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨  AROUND, ENVELOPING ALL MY MEMORIES OF   §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨            OUR TIME TOGETHER.            §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨  THERE WAS BLOOD EVERYWHERE. SOMETIMES   §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨  THE BLOOD WAS HER RED LIPSTICK OR HER   §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨ CHECKERED SHIRT. SHE WAS ON TELEVISION.  §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨     WE DID CRIME, AND WE MADE WEIRD      §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨  STRUCTURES IN THE BARN, TALL PILLARS OF §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨  DARK WOOD, LADDERS AND PLATEAUS, FIRES  §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨  AND FAIRY LIGHTS. WE WOULD SLEEP THERE  §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨ AND DRINK THERE AND SHE WOULD GO IN THE  §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨               TELEVISION.                §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨  AND THEN THE SUN CAME OUT, AND SHE WENT §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨  AWAY. EVERYTHING CHANGED... I YEARNED,  §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨   AND THE WORLD BECAME DULL AROUND ME.   §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨    I STOPPED DOING CRIME, EXCEPT WHEN    §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨  NECESSARRY. THINGS SOMEHOW SEEMED LIKE  §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨  THEY WERE ALLRIGHT, MOULDED IN PLACE,   §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨   AND I LOATHED IT ------ I MISSED HER   §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨                 SO MUCH.                 §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨            =====~~¨ ¨~~=====             §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨  I SEARCHED FOR HER, BUT NOBODY HAD ANY  §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨    MEMORIES OF HER. NOT SO MUCH OF ME    §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨  EITHER, FROM THE TIME WE WERE TOGETHER. §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨  MY MOTHER SAID I KEPT TO MYSELF IN THE  §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨           BARN, OR IN THE CAR.           §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨     SOMETIMES I COULD STILL SEE HER      §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨    FLASHING BY ON THE TV IN THE BARN.    §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨     EVERYTHING WAS BLACK THEN, FOR A     §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨ MOMENT. I REMEMBERED HER LAUGH AND KNEW  §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨   WE HAD DONE CRIMES TOGETHER, THAT IT   §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨             HAD BEEN REAL...             §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨             =====~~¨ ¨~~=====            §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨    I DIED BY GETTING SHOT IN THE HEAD    §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨   WHILE RAMMING THE FENCE TO A MILITARY  §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨   FACILITY. BY THIS TIME THEY HAD BEEN   §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨   CHASING ME FOR DAYS. I LOST CONTROL    §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨   OVER THE CAR, CRASHED IT INTO A ROCK   §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨    WALL AND FLEW OUT THE WINDSHIELD.     §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨   AND THEN I GOT UP, AND LOOKED AROUND.  §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨   IT WAS DARK, WHERE IT PREVIOUSLY HAD   §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨    BEEN A BRIGHT DAY. AROUND ME WHERE    §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨    DOZENS OF CRASHED CARS, ALL MY CAR,   §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨              SOME ON FIRE.               §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨       THE GROUND WAS STICKY, RED.        §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨   AND THEN I REALIZED THAT I KNEW THIS   §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨     DARKNESS. I KNEW THE WAY THE SKY     §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨ TOUCHED THE GROUND. THIS WAS HER DOING!  §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨              SHE WAS HERE!               §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§§