Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was    Thinking   To   Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In  The Winter Because  I 
 Do Not  Know How  Useful They  Have Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense When  I  Take 
 Them, The  Last Few Times At  Least, And 
 There Are  Plenty Of Side Effects That I 
 Really Do Not Like,  And  There Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With  Random  Things  That   I 
 Happen  To  See... For  Example,  For  A 
 Long Time  I  Could Not  See  A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I Should  Avoid  To Ruin All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased Or  At  Least The Burn-Ins  In 
 The   Eyes,  And  Sometimes   Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,   They  Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just Drank  Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M  Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes To  Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What  A Load Of ConceptS This  "Reality" 
 Consists  Of, And  How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not  Sleep For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be Dark When  I 
 Close   My  Eyes,  Not   Actually  Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just  FieldS And Motion. 
 Now And Then  I Hear  This Sound (A Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It Is Always  Unpleasant,  I Become 
 So Stressful, But  I Think It  Has To Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.