Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was   Thinking    To    Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In  The Winter Because  I 
 Do Not Know How  Useful  They Have  Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense  When I  Take 
 Them, The  Last Few Times At Least,  And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side Effects  That I 
 Really Do  Not Like, And  There Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With   Random  Things  That   I 
 Happen To  See...  For  Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time  I Could  Not  See  A Certain 
 Kind Of  Leaf  Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I Should  Avoid To Ruin All  The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased Or  At Least  The Burn-Ins  In 
 The   Eyes,  And  Sometimes   Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not   Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just Drank Too  Much 
 Coffee.  Maybe I'M Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes To  Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What A Load Of  ConceptS  This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of, And  How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not  Sleep  For About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be Dark When  I 
 Close  My  Eyes,  Not   Actually   Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just FieldS  And Motion. 
 Now And Then I  Hear This Sound (A  Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It  Is Always Unpleasant, I  Become 
 So  Stressful, But I Think  It Has To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.