Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was   Thinking    To   Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In  The Winter  Because I 
 Do  Not Know  How Useful They Have  Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them, The Last  Few Times At Least,  And 
 There Are  Plenty Of Side Effects That I 
 Really Do  Not Like,  And  There Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With  Random   Things   That  I 
 Happen To  See...  For  Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time I  Could  Not  See  A Certain 
 Kind Of  Leaf  Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I Should Avoid  To Ruin  All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased  Or At  Least The Burn-Ins  In 
 The   Eyes,   And  Sometimes  Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not  Do   It 
 Before. But  Maybe I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe  I'M Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes To  Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What  A Load  Of ConceptS This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How  Vague  They Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I Do  Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be  Dark When I 
 Close  My  Eyes,  Not   Actually   Cev'S 
 Though, Rather  Just FieldS  And Motion. 
 Now And Then I Hear This Sound  (A  Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It  Is  Always Unpleasant, I  Become 
 So  Stressful, But  I Think It Has To Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.