something's  inside  of  me  and i  know 
 this  because  of  how  nice  it   feels 
                                          
  
                                          
 there are brown spots on my hands.  they 
    are moving, growing, disappearing,    
 appearing again. this is  almost erotic. 
                                          
 there is a spy in my eyes,  installed to 
 identify these  spots and to give  me an 
     appropriate reaction (positive).     
                                          
 when  i gather all my willpower, and set 
 it  ablaze   all   at   once,  the  most 
 resistance i can muster is indifference.