party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower curtains  drawn. floor  full 
 of  dirty  clothes, of garbage, and as i 
 start to unzip my pants, she  steps  out 
 of   the  shower   and  pushes   me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish  to   be   contacted  by   some 
 [god,  alien]  who  would bestow upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right  forever. what  i don't 
 know  is  that   this  happens  multiple 
 times  per second -  they ask  me: "when 
 you  said the  world egg was your  ideal 
 body type,  did  you  mean it"? i answer 
 "not really,  but i can act  like it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory  of the  encounter and moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom