Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was   Thinking   To    Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In The Winter  Because  I 
 Do Not  Know  How Useful They  Have Been 
 Anyway?  I Get  So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them,  The Last Few  Times At Least, And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side Effects  That I 
 Really  Do  Not  Like, And There Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With  Random   Things   That  I 
 Happen  To  See... For  Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time I  Could  Not  See  A Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without Getting  Anxious 
 ...  And I  Should Avoid To Ruin All The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased Or  At  Least  The Burn-Ins In 
 The  Eyes,  And   Sometimes   Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They   Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just  Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared And Making  All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What A  Load Of ConceptS This  "Reality" 
 Consists  Of, And  How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer  Be Dark When I 
 Close  My   Eyes,   Not  Actually  Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just FieldS  And Motion. 
 Now  And Then I Hear This Sound  (A Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It Is Always  Unpleasant,  I  Become 
 So Stressful,  But I Think It Has To  Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.